Living with borderline
Traumatized by the world
Leaves a lonely, broken girl
Who just wants to be able
To finally just be capable
But she’s mentally unstable
All in her head, she’s entangled.
Stability is all that’s desired
But that’s not how her mind is wired
Understand that being mentally ill
Can take away your free will
This disorder is a life sentence
Thoughts and feelings so intense
Full of anger and impulsivity
Being out of control is far too easy
Broken and drowning in self isolation
No one around to give levitation
Overflowing with self hatred and loathing
Drowning in the riptide of the ocean
Constant thoughts of hurting yourself
When all you want, is to know yourself
Weekly therapy and daily medications
Forever wishing there were other options
Being Desperately afraid of abandonment
Leads to extreme reactions and resentment
Giving into Maladaptive patterns and behaviors
Knowing they’re Doing absolutely no favors
It’s hard when you don’t know how to cope
With all the trauma, you keep losing hope
A magnet for unhealthy relationships
Thanks to the illness for making me toxic
When every “I love you” is hard to believe
She asks “How could anyone love someone like me?”
It’s nothing you can see physically
And for her, it’s paired with PTSD.
This disorder has made her sick inside
All in her body and in her mind.
But The only thing you’ll hear her say is “I’m fine”
Because that’s living with borderline.
