Keyholder Mel

KeyHolder to @melsplaytoy New to Female Led Relationship and Femdom. Looking to learn and share experience.

[keyholdermel]

For the rest of 2019 I am going to attempt to turn @melsplaytoy into my sissy/girlfriend/bitch! He will get a tip a day about how to be and or act like a female. If any of these tips are not done or the rules are broken he will be punished immediately! This should be an interesting end of the year!

[melsplaytoy]

We had sex 82 days ago. I was locked in my cage since that release for 52 days only to do as my Queen @keyholdermel read about. Remove cage and have sex with her feet while she watch tv. I ruined all over them while she lay there not even paying attention. Cage goes back on and here I am 30 days after that. After a few weeks of bad luck with life, yesterday we kinda picked up a bit of domme/sub. We had the whole day together. Just being around her makes me horny. Well, unfortunately I woke up sticky and ruined in my pants this morning......there is no pleasure in that and it just bums me out.....

10/14/19

[keyholdermel]

Funny story.......my mom is a medical assistant and does flu shot clinics this time of year! Yesterday she told me she had a male patient. When he tried to roll up his sleeve she realized his shirt wouldn’t go up high enough and asked him to just pull his shirt down so the top of his arm was exposed! He did so and she realized he was wearing a pink and black lace bra under his shirt. She said she was mortified, then joking said “I should have asked him if he shops at Victoria’s Secret”. I laughed, little does she know that her son in law @melsplaytoy wears a bra and panties daily and paints his toes! 


[keyholdermel]

We have been so busy that I forgot to post about the weekend we had! @melsplaytoy still has not used the bathroom to pee! He knows what he has to do to earn one trip to the bathroom but, has yet to complete it! I allowed him to uncage and make love to my feet while I watched tv, this was rather humorous! After he had a ruined orgasm that night, I spanked him until he begged me to stop! All in all it was a good weekend! 


[keyholdermel]

Still haven’t seen anything that deserve an orgasm yet!!!! But he still has time!

[keyholdermel]

Since “lock”tober, “no”vember and “deny”cember, are coming up! I told @melsplaytoy that he had 20 days to give me a reason to let him cum before that! Let’s see what he comes up with!!!! 



[melsplaytoy]

Where do I begin? This morning is a strange mix of emotions. The last week has been a whirlwind of changes in the way my Queen @keyholdermel handles her slave. She is more dominant, outspoken, and direct. She is leaning a little more into my fantasy and trying to blend that with her role as my keyholder and domme. She has accepted a diaper trial run for control and humiliation. She has me no longer using a toilet for number 1. (We don’t play the other way, gross). I’m outside on all fours like an animal or dealing with it while clothed. I am required to fuck myself in the shower with my dildo to stay “fuck ready” for her. She fucked me sideways like a sex crazed animal over the weekend. She was spewing all sorts of shit out of her mouth while she bitch fucked me. She has befriended a married couple in chat that also have full permission to treat me like shit and further my downward spiral into a shamed sissy. (For those that don’t know, I’ve asked for this and this is what I want to be for my Queen). So, we all know I have a woman at my work whom I refer to as “blowjob Amy”. There are days I don’t look twice , and days I fantasize of her reaching forward and taking my cock into her mouth and even using her breast. Well, the day my Queen piledrived into my sissy pussy she was teasing me about “blowjob Amy” who happened to be having that fantasy day.... as I described to my Queen from the muffled sheets stuffed in my face she fucked harder and harder. Today was a different story. I was commanded to wear a diaper to work, and with my direct daily communication with “blowjob Amy”, I was to maintain eye contact and piss my pants like the dirty pig and shameless slut I am becoming. I walk in, and of course she’s “blowjob Amy” today. Not just regular Amy. She had her hair down and was playing with it, her breast lay on the desk as she lean. In the back of my head I’m rolling my eyes not wanting to do this. As we are talking about regular business, her face maybe 2 feet from my crotch where I would normally wonder about sliding into her mouth, I felt a light warm rush of fluid slowly leave my body. I composed myself and continued talking. Wetting my diaper as we went. She slid her chair back to reveal a short denim dress that had incidentally folded up a bit in the front, revealing her tan thighs. I immediately wondered as she slid back what I was going to accidentally see.. As I lose track of my thought process I briefly forgot that diapers do not hold massive quantities of fluid in one shot. They need to absorb. Now I couldn’t stop myself. I started to feel my leg getting wet. My knee, then calf. Snapping back to reality I gathered myself and stopped my flow. Did she see me? Am I wet? Oh my god, am I wet????? We finish our conversation and I immediately turn and walk away. Turning the corner I double check and I am dry. Thank god. I was lost for thought. I felt so low. I was disgusted and a part of me wanted to cry. My recovering thoughts were, I want this. I crave the denial, degradation, and humiliation. My Queen is just doing what I’ve fantasized about. So in all, my Queen, I thank you for the humility. 8/27/19

[melsplaytoy]

As it stands, when asking instruction for everything I do, my Queen is very kind. Unless it is the middle of the night, I am outside naked, on all fours, and that is how I go pee. On a sexy note for those who care more about that, last night, before I rubbed my Queen’s feet, she mounted her bed doggy style, put her sweet bottom in the air and allowed me to worship her backside! I was as hard as my cage would allow!!!! @keyholdermel 8/26/19

[melsplaytoy]

Instructed to paint my toes like a good girl. The toe ring? My Queen, @keyholdermel places it on my dresser Saturday morning. Without say, I knew what I was instructed to do.

[melsplaytoy]

Power change

Firmly She @keyholdermel said to me last week, “ I want control. Total control”. After the beginning of summer, a lot has been going on lately.Not much time for play. As we settle down towards the end of season, but gear up for a very busy fall with school, work, kids, and sports, we tend to be at the top of our games when it comes to life in general. The busier we are, the better we are! We thrive with this kind of life pressure. Upon her order of wanting total control, she had straight up said to me “even if you have to use the bathroom”.

This sounds strangely familiar to some of the books that she has read, but hey, read enough and try the things that pique your interest! This brought up a long interesting fetish Ive asked to try. Diapers. We dont like the idea of wearing a diaper and just losing complete control of function. There are no accidents, only instructions. reluctantly, she agreed. So long as it is my purchase. I did as told. And I can say this. I have been told to wear one, and at days end, It was thrown away completely dry. Its about control, not mommy baby. Also with that, I have begged my Queen to be more controlling, humiliating, and treat me like shit. My kink, not hers. The diaper thing just so happens to piss her off and gross her out. It became very easy for her to turn around and say “you know what? Piss yourself. Your disgusting and its fucking gross”. Its funny how things work. Its not something she was turned onto at first, but It may be something that she is utilizing and becoming the woman she wants to be. You’ll read why as we go. I was out of work early on friday. She knew this. “get me coffee Bitch”. was her message. followed by “get the flavor wrong and im spanking your ass”! Well, I had two choices i knew she likes. Lucky me I was right. At this point though, I knew she was in the right place. 

“ May I use the bathroom Mistress”? her response was “ No Pig. Diaper.” Mistress, I am in a different work truck, I do not have them”. “Fine slut, Piss yourself, make sure you keep your seat clean, and you better be clean when you get home. I promptly found a safe spot, removed my shoes and stood up, and relieved 100%. I am her pig and I am to do as told. I video as proof, because I am not a filthy pig. clean, change, and head home. Now home, Queen tastes her coffee and accepts. I selected the correct flavor. thank god. She hasnt beat my ass in a long time, and I am ok with that. We sit and chat for a bit, deciding what to do with almost an entire Friday left ahead of us. She wants to get shit done. Reluctantly she allows me to put on a diaper and follow her instruction.

“You will ask me to use the bathroom, and you will do as told”. With this, I did as told and started doing laundry. She was zipping about the house getting the kids back to school items in order. I needed to use the restroom. I was not allowed. I held on and decided it was best I keep busy. It kept my mind off of the urge to pee. I brought the trash barrels in, took care of trash and recycle in the house, kept going with laundry.. etc. I couldn’t wait. “May I use the restroom”. Her response? “Outside. In your diaper you disgusting pig.” Done as told. We work together on a backyard project during the afternoon and things remain the same. We are a team. Only beneath the skin, she is domme, and I am slave. It’s that point where we are having some drinks to. It’s fun because we loosen up a bit, and truth flows. No Filters. There gets to a point where this disgusting pigs crotch is sagging and clearly visible. I am instructed a thorough cleaning. My Queen is disgusted and is making it clear.

I shower, shave, and scrub. I remove all evidence and trash as I promised to keep everything neat and clean. We feed our kids dinner and decide to do a nice roast tomorrow. The kids take another quick swim and we sit, just chatting away. It’s funny, because we will chat out loud about everything under the sun, but at the same time we are texting each other as Mistress and slave. She says to me, after this drink, I’m going pee and then doing whatever. Now the comment about being loose after a few drinks?…

I relay from before when my Queen has pulled me into the bathroom, or surprised me outside be forcing me down and urinating all over me, treating me like trash. I have read about a former of @cruelkeyholder drinking it before, and was curious. Well, stupid me just openely fucking says to my Queen, I know it’s gross but I want to drink it. Don’t ask why or what and I’m sorry but I just want to try. I grossed myself out.

She just kinda side stepped that one and kept chatting. “Oh. Follow me”. I follow my Queen, she leads me to a safe spot in the yard where I normally pee like a dog. “Take your shirt off and lay down”. I do as told. She Slides he pants down, mounts my face and begins to relieve herself. She slides her pussy across my face and fills my mouth. I swallow. She’s not stopping. I swallow another mouthful. She grabs my hair and pulls my face in. I swallow two more mouthfuls while she soaks my face. Neither one of us can believe what just happened! Her filthy pig has drunken the nectar of her body. “Good. Go take another shower pig”. So alas, another shower. This time, I decide it’s time for a thorough cleaning. I handle my sissy hole to ensure proper sanitation while she , again, preps the kids for another swim In the pool.

Funny things, these kids. In the pool, out, in, out….. haha. It’s ok though, because we are watching them have fun while we are chatting away. I bring out a full cough syrup syringe of lube and ask my Queen to put into my sissy hole. Oh boy did she agree. She shot it right in. Not once, but later, again! It was getting time for us to order dinner for ourselves, as the kids were hunkering down for a little camp out at the back of the house.

“Order me dinner bitch. This is what I want, and you’ll have this”. I did as told and ordered as told. It was about an hour before it was to arrive. Immediately, I knew what to do. I texted my Queen. Would you rather fuck your bitch with the black wig, or the red one? “Black, and put your bra on too, slut”. I did as told. My Queen walks into the room, I slide her strap up her legs and thighs. Now, we used to have a hollow piece of shit dildo that she’s missionary style put in me a couple times, so we’ve done this before. Or so it seemed.

I am not me anymore. I am Rachael. “Get in the bed and raise your ass”. My Queen is excited as ever! Number one, she has never done this before, (other than our lame attempts),and number two, she has never had this kind of power. What was she gonna do? How was she gonna do it? She had the lube and lined her cock against my ass. She squirted lube into my hand and I smeared it across my sissy pussy. In she goes…. She glides her cock in and out with ease. She grabs my hips and starts to thrust hard. “Put your ass up higher”! She yells. “Fucking bitch”! She’s relentlessly fucking my now pussy and muttering all sorts of shit.

Now she knows I have a thing for this lady at work on certain days by way of her looks where I fantasize of her blowing me and wrapping her large breast around my cock. But today, and now at this moment she had to ask. “How’d Amy loom today”? Fuck. I even turned my head and said really? You had to ask? Today? Really? She shoved her cock balls deep. “Answer me”! Well go fucking figure. Hair down, straightened, light makeup, simple dress, fantasy blowjob material. Why did Amy have to be “blowjob Amy” today. “Tell me”! She kept fucking and fucking my sissy pussy! She looked good Miss. she looked good. “Yeah? (As she fucked me so hard the dildo kept falling out) how’d she like to see you getting fucked like this”. “Not so hot now is it”? I tried to tell her each time her cock fell out of my ass, but she just gripped it and stuffed it back in! Nothing gentle. Just fucked me raw. I need more lube Miss. “Shut up”! Something came over her. My face was down, ass up, and grabbing at the headboard. There was nothing I could do. I found myself begging and drooling at the same time. “Harder Miss” “fuck me miss”. She was riding me so hard my comments turned into wordless garb!

She fell out again. This time, I rolled over. She took my leg and raised it. In goes her cock again. With a bit of my help, (again, soooo new to her) I raised both legs over her shoulders. She figured it out immediately. She pushed both my legs over my head and damn near folded me in half. She’s puke driving my pussy and shoved her sweat induced tongue into my mouth. Oh we ain’t making love. She’s fucking me hard and slamming her tongue into my face like a sex starved teenager losing his virginity. She leans back and take a few final heaves! Deep, hard heaves. If there was cum in that dildo, I’d bet it would have shot right up to my throat.

She peeled off of her used sissy and directed “clean yourself up slut”. Don’t ask, I have no answer for this one, “no Miss, fuck me some more”. I couldn’t help it. I begged for her cock. Something came over me as well. She told me no. She fucked me until her own legs were sore and she could even feel the muscles in her abdomen tighten. She kissed me again, slid her cock off and relieved herself from the room.

We ate, I rubbed her feet, told her I want her cock some more, then went to bed. I, still in my bra and tits and now a pink nightgown , her in her jammies. “Goodnight slut”. We rolled off to sleep. Wrapped up in each other’s love. 8/24/19

[keyholdermel]

Yesterday was a day that I even surprised myself! @melsplaytoy has wanted me to become meaner towards him, or should I say her! So it started by mean, degrading text messages (I open up better this way) then he had to wet himself when he asked to use the bathroom, here come more degrading comments, I think it’s nasty! I told him a great sex story about “dr. Hottie” and that really got him! He was horny beyond belief! The next time I had to use the bathroom, I decided that instead of the toilet I would just go all over him instead! More degrading comments! Then finally to almost end the day, I strapped up and fucked her in the ass! This was a first for us and let me tell you how powerful I felt! I made her order us dinner and instructed her what she would be having! We ate dinner and I got a foot rub before bed! It was an amazing day and really brought out the bitch I really can be! 


[melsplaytoy]

Control

My Queen @keyholdermel has indicated to me that she wants more control. Well, what kinda of control? Everything. This weekend, I did nothing without asking or being told. I’m sure she got a little annoyed at times, but also appreciates that it is her say on everything I do. 8/19/19

[keyholdermel]

Trying to get back into the swing of things is not easy! But, I feel that I have slowly been getting there. Since last weekend, @melsplaytoy has fucked himself in the shower twice, wore a butt plug at work, made himself pretty while driving, used a vibrator on his balls, tied up his balls with a pretty pink ribbon and worn a bra and panties set. I have grabbed his balls a few times and attempted to kick him in the balls (reflex makes that a task) I have to say, I’m getting used to all this again!!!

[playful2thecore]

[cruelkeyholder]

Us women have never evolved. We were always like this.

[serfonhisknees]

[melsplaytoy]

A little at a time

It has been a bit since we've had much fendom time lately. Not sure if it is the heat of the summer, or just how busy we have been. I am still wearing my chastity cage, and she still wears the key. Spending a day together yesterday proved to be a bit of fun. I had to muscle around some items in my basement, and my Queen helped. She likes doing those types of things. She likes watching me do those things as well. It turns her on. Usually it results in sex. But not last night. Last nights macho activities landed myself into my submissive sissy role as her sissy princess "Rachael". I watched my Queen snap off each of her French manicured nails and grab a thing of super glue. "Come over here princess". I sat as she super glued each used nail to my masculine hands making them sissy like. "Now go get pretty". Off to her make up counter I went. Mascara, eye liner, eyeshadow, and her new lipstick. I return to my Queen as 1/2 Rachael, 1/2 me. What about wig and breast my Queen? "No, that's too much". "Now drive to the restaurant and pick up my pizza". It was with that she gave me a little kick in my sissy sack to remind me who is in charge. I did as told. Safely to the store and back with her pizza, I was allowed to eat and relax with my Queen. I sit here writing after a night of sleep in my pink robe sipping coffee with my ill manicured sissy fingers, and they eye makeup of a run down whore. I need to clean my face before the day starts. Such a wonderful night. @keyholdermel 8/3/19

[melsplaytoy]

Had Me Some Sex...

All I asked for last night was a little sex. She said “Sure, only for a few minutes, but no orgasm for you.” It was fifteen days locked, and also fifteen days since i was orgasming freely due to winning bets. Into the bedroom we go. I was allowed a taste of my Queens ladyspot for lube purpose only. I slid my uncaged penis in and off i went. Slow and easy. This is nice. Making love to my Lady. I could feel an orgasm coming, so i slowed down. We kiss. I lift my Queen and pull off her shirt. I feel her breast. I kiss some more and re-enter. So beautiful, making love to the love of my life. I am on edge again. I slide out and lower myself to her netherworld. I taste her juices from the love making. Delicious. She enjoys this. I continue to swirl and dance my toungue around. It has been far too long since ive had this pleasure. “Jesus, use your fingers” she responds! Man, she getting a little riled up. Inward goes the fingers. I reach for her sensitive spots. I countinue with my tongue. She was on edge for a bit before she screeched out “lower, go lower”! I knew exactly what she meant, the tongue.. But I took that as an opportunity to lower my hand and slide a finger into her perfect bottom. I could tell she was on edge and wanted that orgasm. There were no complaints.It was then that i licked and sucked while double penetrating her to two powerful orgasms. “You, I want you”! I climbed up and and entered my Queen again. This time to no avail. We kissed some more. We were both sweating while we made love. I could feel it building. She told me no orgasm but I could not help it. I was too close. “cum on my belly” I told her I couldn’t. I was frozen inside of my Queen. Ill clean you up after I promise. “ok then”. I exploded into my Queens body like never before. My God was it incredible! We stopped and laid together before I slid my spent little thing out. “lay down”. I did as told. I promptly sucked and swallowed my own juices from the very tunnel I introduced them into while she smotheredmy face with her used love. Recaged and cleaned up, we retired to the couch for some tv, and a drink. 7/25/19 @keyholdermel