not pro

trigger warning. this is my diary. this is how i manage my disorder and interact with people who understand me. this is my only outlet. please dni or block if you do not understand 🎀

[kgdiaries]

i want to be 90s/2000s skinny

[iamwillowingaway]

apparently my ED is only in my head cause I ain’t seeing results

[copingiguess-deactivated2023082]

Being irritable is a awful symptom I hate being off with people it's not their fault I'm living on 8 calories and a dream.

[ol1v14isst4rv1ng-deactivated202]

in a month from now, you'll either have a month of progress, or a month of excuses why you didn't.

[4nadoll-deactivated20230830]

Wait are you eating again? I thought you wanted to look pretty

[missstupidcupid]

Wish the human body had a calorie counter

[ol1v14isst4rv1ng-deactivated202]

slow progress is better than no progress at all.

[oph3d]

I hate that some of my best friends are skinnier than me, it feels as if I’m just doing the bare minimum to be skinny 😕

[ol1v14isst4rv1ng-deactivated202]

the more you ⭐️ve, the easier you get full when you eat actual meals.

why stop now??

[darlin-you-will-be-okay]

Every hour fasting your getting closer and closer to your goal, you can do it your so close now keep going 💖

[someonelessexciting]

Sometimes I’m like ‘is being skinny worth all this?’ but then I think..

How long?

How long am I gonna live in a body that I hate?

How long am I gonna keep wearing a hoodie in the summer?

How long am I gonna wait for love when nobody wants me this way?

How long am I gonna let my youth slip by and not enjoy it because my weight holds me back?

How long am I gonna wait before I finally feel pretty enough for cute clothes?

I can’t let another year pass me by wishing i was skinny.

I can’t keep saying I’ll start tomorrow because even that is too long.

I won’t let another day pass by where im not actively trying to reach my goals.

[ethernalpetite]

DON’T STOP

You have already started. This is the hard part, but don’t give up. You will regret it. Keep going, you will get there!!

[moagrrr]

just a reminder that consistency gives results <3

[blissfulwrongs]

imagine your cw dropping every morning. now that's what you call self-discipline~

[fatgirl4evr]

i have control. i can change myself any way i can. i can become so thin i’d scare others. i will look like a different person. the people i want will want me too. i won’t have to worry on if others like me or not because i simply like me. but that can only happen when you have full and total control.

[kgdiaries]

when the numbers on the scale are going down but i cant see any difference

[ethernalpetite]

Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

[kgdiaries]

we all get this 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 look after yourself