I remember the moment I was born
I remember forty of them, maybe thirty clearly.
I was born slowly as I watched you discover me,
Born all at once when you went away
I was born watching you realize you’d never know me, predict me, and can tap out my pulse on your faded jeans from across the world but guess my dinner order wrong every time
I watched you decide to trust me and I was born in the weight of it,
I was born deciding to be worth that trust
I remember waking up gasping, born in my subconscious
I was born when I realized betrayal can cripple the body and staystaystays in the attic of you
Another birth when I was so scared and kept moving
I wasn’t as alive as I am before I lost something I built myself on
Hearing someone list and detail and compile like souvenirs the men and women they’d sleep with to get where I wanted to go,
Watching them get there
Realizing it’s not a victory I want,
I was born in disappointment Born in having been used and disposed of Born on learning
Turning around and leaving my sacrifices behind
Replacing college with life experience and seeing the exchange rate
We all have debt
So much debt
We all have degrees
We’ve all been born, and then again; and then more
We’ve all passed away from who we were, what we knew, the dreams we had and the person in the mirror we wanted to do right by
I was born when I saw you for the thousand time and the way the tiny plastic light in the car struck your face and showed me another way to see the person I love
Born when I recognized you
Born when you weren’t who you’d been, and I didn’t recognize you
Born when you told me I’ve been reminding you of the one you knew before I broke
Born when I learned boundaries
Born when I learned to ask for what I need
Born when I did it alone,
Born in realizing we’re never alone
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