i do not understand

you got a lot of time to act your age you cannot write a book from a single p a g e hands on the clock only turn one way run too fast and risk it all can't be afraid to take a fall felt so b i g but you looked so small wish i knew back then what i know now wish i could somehow go back in time and maybe listen to my own advice

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jisxs:

IT’S ALMOST SUBCONSCIOUS, the way she gnaws on the plush of her bottom lip, taps her foot and twists the silver jewelry that adorns her fingers – nervous ticks she’d never quite gotten rid of. but can you blame her ?? the hallway’s wrapped in a thick blanket of darkness, etched in charcoal and ink ( she can’t really tell where it begins and where it ends ) and maybe it’s because of the horror movie she watched the other night, but jisoo could swear there’s some sort of noise not far away from her; something between dragging and stumbling and dear god, would they just open the door already —

for a moment, she thinks she’d rather deal with the darkness, instead of the blinding flash of white that hits her square in the face.

“ i came here for help, not to permanently lose my eyesight. ”  she whines, a hand coming up to cover her face; dark hues just barely peeking between slender fingers. she doesn’t mean for it to come off accusatory, though she realizes – albeit a bit too late – that it probably does sound that way. and so, jisoo tries again; straightens herself up and clears her throat, smiling sheepishly at the other.  “ help, yes – i don’t suppose you have, ah, extra candles lying around ?? or a flashlight, or a lamp or – anything, really, anything would work, just something that emits light ?? i’ve got an assignment for tomorrow that i haven’t even started and it seems like the power’s out in the entire block and i was freaking out too much to just stay there in the darkness – ”  she stops for a moment to catch her breath.  “ you’d be saving my life, seriously. ”

"oops." she mumbled quietly to herself. she hadn't meant to blind the girl at the door but with it being so dark she could not tell who had been standing at her door. her cheeks burned a dark red at how embarrassed she was. she shined her flashlight away from the other to the wall behind her, so that she could still see the face of who she was talking to. her eyes widened in recognition once she realized who had been standing at her front door. "jisoo!" she all but yelled. "come inside. it's too dark and scary in the hallway." she pouted as she grabbed onto the other's arm to bring her inside. once both of them where inside her apartment she slammed the door shut and locked it. "you said you needed help is everything okay?" she asked in concern. "hold on, i'll go make some tea. keep talking though, i promise i'm listening!" she told jisoo before she quickly goes the kitchen. it's when she's in the kitchen that she realizes the power is out so she has no way of making tea for the both of them. she pouts all the way back to the other and rubbed at her neck sheepishly. "sorry no tea. i just forgot the power was out." she frowned. she nodded along to what the other was saying as she listened. "i was actually just looking for a couple of flashlights. i don't have any candles because i'm scared of fire." she blushed again, sheepishly laughing once more. she rocked back and forth on her heels nervously, "you can help me look if you want? you probably don't want me to leave you in the darkness right now and i kind of don't want to be alone in the darkness myself right now."

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seunghwanpark:

her enthusiasm made him smile. he’s never met someone so happy about life but he was glad that there was at least one person in the world that could one day make a big difference. he chuckled, “i can read people very well. it’s something i learned a while back.” he raised his eyebrows at the mention of him being a student. “sadly, no. i’m here as a criminal.” in this moment he truly felt guilty. though, she doesn’t know what happened, it’s still no excuse.

heejin did her best to control her emotions and not let the smile slip off of her face. she's not one to judge others for what they do, however she is curious about what exactly it is that make people do bad things. she had been sheltered all of her life and going to hongdae was an actual step into a reality that she had no clue how to react to. "oh..." she said. "well that's okay! at least you're trying to do better, right?" she peered at him curiously. she didn’t think she wanted to actually know what he did because she’d probably get sick. hearing the bad things some people did usually turned her stomach inside out because of how weak it was. 

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hello! i will get to all replies sometime tomorrow. i've been working overtime to hel p out at work and everything should go back to normal starting tomorrow 

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✉ » heejin

sori: you're right :(

sori: i'd feel terrible if i couldn't help :(

sori: i'll have to pick one, then

heejin: well now you don't have to feel terrible since you're getting one!

heejin: pick a cute one and then put cute charms on it

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『SMS→heejin』

Mirae: I guess?

Mirae: I didn't think he would set the trashcan on fire though!!

Mirae: welcome to the club

heejin: who is this 'he' that we keep bringing up?

heejin: thanks i'd like to think i'm an honorary member of this club because everything's getting more and more confusing.

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bbyara:

WAS SHE COLD ? probably. the wind blew, moving loose strands of her hair against her face in a ticklish manner. ara could be home – she should be home, but she was stuck outside sitting on the hood of her beat up truck. the drink in her had was far more enjoyable and pleasant, the idle laughter, the people surrounding her as the night grew longer. she sat, legs crossed, a soft smile plastered on her face the moment someone stepped in front of the car. “ i didn’t expect to see you out tonight. ” she spoke, leaning back so her back is against the window. “ care to join me? ”  

Heejin wished she had brought a hair-tie to hold up her hair since the wind was blowing extra hard. She usually checked the weather app, but she was in a rush and had forgotten to. She had wanted to be back to her room before curfew. Walking past the cars, she hadn't even recognized the girl on one of the cars until she spoke up. "Yeah, I kind of had some errands to run." She smiled politely at the other, bringing her bag up into the other's view to show that she had been to the convenience store. With curfew, both of them probably should have been in their rooms. However, she didn't want to be rude to the other and just blow her off. "Sure," She said. She stared helplessly at the other before deciding to just jump up on the car with the other hoping that the other wouldn’t mind.

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« ♔ SMS → heejin »

jaden: you're getting on my nerves

jaden: stop asking you can go

jaden: i don't want you there.

jaden: can't you understand that?

heejin: me getting on your nerves is nothing new though

heejin: all i heard was 'you can go'

heejin: i'll pack my stuff up now!

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seunghwanpark:

“i’ve got psychology and then a few regular classes but, they aren’t something i really need.” seunghwan takes notice that she’s probably a regular student at hongdae and actually working towards a career unlike a confused seunghwan. “so, you’re a regular student?” he asks, “i’d be surprised if you weren’t but, you know what they say, don’t judge a book by it’s cover.” he smiled at her.

She nodded along as the guy spoke completely interested in what he's saying. She's always been interested in other's lives making her a great listener. "Yeah, I'm a sophomore." She answered before she slightly giggled. "You shouldn't judge a book by its cover but you were right about me being a student, so I'll let it slide." She teased. Heejin brought her hand up to swipe at her that had been in her face tucking it in behind her ear. “You’re a student too though, right? I don’t want to be the one judging a book by it’s cover.” She joked. 

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ofcnayoung:

Nayoung took a breath in, held it for just a moment and let the breath out. She didn’t want to be repaid for such a task as finding a lost dog but she had a feeling in her gut that if she kept denying then the other girl would keep insisted and if there was something she didn’t like it was going back and fourth of things. She much rather liked deciding on something and sticking with it. “Fine…” She said a moment later, “A coffee will do.” Something small was a good enough repayment if the other insisted on repaying her at all. “Good.” She grinned, happy to hear the dog would get looked after better.

"A coffee? You're in luck I know the perfect cafe. Luckily they're pet friendly too." She grinned brightly at the other. She was very glad that she did not have to go back and forth with the other girl because they would probably be here all day until Heejin got her way. She wasn't a spoiled brat very often. She rarely wanted anything, but when she wanted something she was going to get it. She beckoned for the other to follow her to the coffee shop as she began walking in the direction of it. "I don't think I've introduced myself. I'm Heejin!" She said.

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『SMS→???』

Mirae: who the fuck set the trash can outside on fire!?!?

Mirae: I told him not to do it

Mirae: then again, it's him we're talking about

heejin: i think you just answered your own question?

heejin: my question is: what's the point of setting a trashcan on fire?

heejin: i don't understand anything anymore.

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ofnayeons:

“WE’LL FIND THE dog, don’t worry about it,” she assured the other, mind set on finding the dog before the younger’s friend figured it out their dog was missing. “if you lost my dog i would’ve killed you too so yeah it’s a good idea if you don’t let them know.” shrugging at the gratitude, she ran her hand through her hair while she continued to look around for area. “he’s a cute dog, i’m sure someone’s probably cuddling him right now or something.” it couldn’t be that hard to find a dog, right?

She felt better when the other assured her that they would find the dog, yet her stomach still felt slightly uneasy. She just wanted to find her friend's dog and just take him back. She thought walking her friends dog was going to be a simple thing and she was not prepared at all for the hassle that came along with the dog. She should have heeded her friend's warning about her dog being wild, but Heejin was way too confident thinking that she had it all down since she had her own dog. She was totally wrong about that and had to suffer the consequences. She groaned loudly at the other, "that's totally not helping!" She pouted. "What if they think he's so cute that they take him?" She asked with wide eyes. She looked around frantically to see if any of the people outside had a dog in their hands that they weren't supposed to have. “I’m so screwed,” she groaned loudly. 

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mveying:

     seeing the corner of her lips curl upwards, warm eyes turning into such small crescents calmed the nerves in her tummy instantly. okay, at least she was still capable of being k i n d – even after everything she put her mother through. ‘ cheddar, ’ she repeated. maeying couldn’t help her own smiled that shone through vibrantly. what a fitting name to such a small and quirky creature. a light giggle escaped pink tinted lips the minute she saw him. ‘ no worries ! .. my name’s maeying, by the way. mae is fine too. so is pinky. he’s cheddar and you are – ? ’

she nodded her head in confirmation after the other girl repeated the dog's name. she grinned at the other's reaction to the picture of 'cheddar' that she had showed him. she placed her phone back into her pocket after the other girl had seen what he had looked like. she once again twirled her fingers through her ponytail as she listened to the other girl speak. "i think i'm going to call you pinky." she happily declared. "oh, sorry! how rude of me. i didn't introduce myself because i was panicking. i'm heejin. i don't really have any cool nicknames, but feel free to come up with your own for me!"

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✉ » heejin

sori: i've never thought of that

sori: it's indeed better than keeping a dead phone

sori: i'll consider getting myself one, really

heejin: well now you can think about it~

heejin: it is cause what if it's an emergency and someone needs to contact you

heejin: it'll be a win-win for everyone

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bavkhyun:

“MOTHER NATURE IS just jealous with me! that’s why she’s after me!” he yelled back, also waving at her. she looked cute, he would gladly admit that but baekhyun loved to tease her and the rest of his friends. teasing made a friendship better in his eyes. deciding that there was no need to keep yelling and he might as well go over to her, baek turned to walk in heejin’s direction instead of the coffee shop. he had to make sure not to fall down, the grass was slippery and muddy and he knew that if he fell he wouldn’t really be able to get back up again - he’d either hurt himself badly or he would just die of embarrassment. “i was heading out for a drink too, it seems like we were going in the same direction actually,” the blue-eyed lifeguard held out his arm for her to take. “might as well fight the rain together then. you seem very light so if the wind blows you away then i can keep you grounded. i’d hate to just see you fly away.” he chuckled, pointing up to the sky. “oh, that would definitely be funny if you suddenly went flying, you’d be doing the impossible.”

"Maybe she'd be less displeased with you if you actually recycled." She had always found the other's reactions to everything quite interesting and could never stop giggling around him. "She hasn't tried to attack me. Fingers crossed she won't." Heejin quickly turned to look up at the sky as if asking for the sky to take mercy on her and keep her safe. She definitely did not want to get almost struck by lightning like Baekhyun. She kept her eyes on him as he made his way towards her, hoping that he would not fall. She was ready to run over and go help him if he did fall, but luckily he made it to where she stood safely. She wrapped her arm in his gladly taking it. "I'm glad at least someone is getting a drink. I'd much rather be with someone than alone." She smiled up at him before laughing at what he had said about her. "If I'm flying away you're definitely flying away with me." She giggled. "I hope I don't fly away because then I'm never going to get my cup of tea that I wanted. If I fly away I expect you to come running after me." She lightly teased.

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yoorisk:

it wasn’t an exaggeration to say that she loved momo a lot, ( probably more than herself ) and while she would never neglect her fury friend, the current exams just robbed her off  her time which also meant that she couldn’t take care that much of momo as she would’ve like to. of course , she couldn’t simply expect from her dog that he would just take care of himself ( he was just a dog after all ) and not fully being able to focus all of her attention on her dog momo  nagged on her. that’s why she decided to ask her best friend heejin to take care of him and while she trusted her with everything, giving away her dog felt as if she was giving her first born away. all the time while she was trying to concentrate on force herself to focus on studying, the constant paranoia refused to disappear and left her with several worst-case-scenarios that were occupying her mind. she had to admit that it was useless to keep on studying and therefore decided to take a walk and although. yoori didn’t intend to snoop on her friend, but as soon as she spotted heejin she headed towards her, expecting to see momo as well. however, momo wasn’t there and heejin appeared to be somehow nervous when she saw her talking to a stranger and asking about a friend’s dog she instantly knew that that friend was her and that the dog was her dog momo. without even caring about being impolite, she suddenly took few steps towards them and interrupted their conversation. ❝ what ?❞ she said, swallowing the anger, yet her tone was harsh. ❝what are you talking about, heejin ? where is momo ?❞ 

Heejin saved cursing for the worst moments of her life. She would consider one of these moments to be the worst, so if she accidentally let 'fuck' slip between her lips it was totally not her fault. She hadn't meant for Yoori to find out that she had lost her dog. She hadn't expected for the other to even be leaving her books because she was studying. She was hoping to find Momo before Yoori even realized that Momo had ever disappeared. It was as if the other had a sixth sense for everything that related to her dog. She knew she was completely screwed and that there was no way of getting out of this one. Slowly, she whirled around to face Yoori. "Hi, how are you?" She smiled politely at her best friend hoping to slowly ease the other into finding out that she had lost her dog, even if the other girl had figured it out since she had overheard Heejin. Her lower lip quivered as she smiled at the tone of the other's voice. Never had she ever heard the other's tone be so harsh towards her. "I didn't mean to," she sniffled. "I was just walking Momo, and then I tripped over his leash, and my grip on his leash slipped, and then he was taking off after some squirrel he saw." She said not holding anything back. Since her friend had already confronted her she decided to just be honest and tell her the whole truth. Not that she would have lied anyways because didn't want to cause an even bigger riff between the two of them right now. "Everything's going to be okay though. I'm going to find him for you and it's going to be as if it never happened. In the future, we'll obviously just laugh this off as another one of my stupid moments." Heejin rubbed at her eyes willing the tears to go away. She had never seen her friend so disappointed in her and it upset her beyond belief.

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« ♔ SMS → heejin »

jaden: stop trying.

jaden: i found someone else.

jaden: try following me and i'll sue.

heejin: well they always say the more the merrier!

heejin: why are you always trying to sue?

heejin: that's not very nice.

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seunghwanpark:

@kheejins

[ morning of the fire ] 

seunghwan looked at the bright menu, looking for something to fuel him up for the day. giving up, he ordered a biscuit with tea and paid. he then moved to the side waiting for his number to be called. he looked at the people in line and then saw someone order then walk over to him with a bright smile. he’d be lying if he said that wasn’t the cutest smile he’s ever seen. an absolute angel, he thought. “good morning,” by the looks of her stuffed backpack she was probably a student at hongdae “i assume you’ve got class in a bit.” 

Heejin stood in line at her favorite cafe ready to order. Since she had come in so often the baristas that usually worked already knew her order. All she had to do was pay and her drink would be waiting for her. However, since it was so packed they hadn't had time to make her order and she was forced to wait for her tea. She didn't mind at all and was still smiling as she made her way to stand next to another person that seemed to be waiting on their drink as well. "Good morning!" She grinned. "Yeah, i have chemistry, followed by stats, and then physics. I need this caffeine to keep me energized." She sighed, although she wasn't really bothered by her heavy school-load. She actually quite enjoyed her classes and her professors. "Any classes for you after this?" She asked, since he had asked about her classes she assumed that he also went to Hongdae.