and when at  L A S T you find someone to  w h o m you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in  S H O C K at the words you utterâ they are so RUSTY, so u g l y, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the ( small ) cramped dark inside you so long .
again iâm so sorry for not being around, my grandparents are still here but i will be online tomorrow and finally do some replies as well reply to my ims // edit: my grandparents will stay a little longer so it will be difficult to be around while theyâre here
so my grandparents are over till wednesday which  means i wonât be able to be online that often, i will try to do some replies when i have time and be in my ims (i still have to reply to all of them iâm sorry iâm not ignoring you i swear !!! )Â
             â* HER STEPS GOT BIGGER WITH EVERY SECOND, and she didnât know if it was the adrenaline rushing through her veins or simply her quickened pace that caused her heart hammering against her chest. since she had left left the dorm, ten minutes ( which felt like an hours ) had passed and the feeling that someone was following her still clung to her not showing any sign to let go soon. she knew that since the accident  she had gotten a little overcautious , ( perhaps even paranoid ), and at times she would even get startled by a bird simply rustling some leaves. however, the thought that it wasnât simply panic that put her into that state, sent a cold shiver to her spine. thatâs why as soon as she spotted someone standing only few metres away from her she immediately grabbed their arm ( that hard that her nails were piercing their skin ) muttering something to them, her words wrapped with fear . â just act naturally and keep walking. âÂ
Kwangsu looked up, blinking in confusion at the response he got. He wasnât really expecting anyone to verbally respond in the first place, let alone the girl that seemed way too focused on her own phone. Yet, she had and he was at a loss for what to say. Blinking a couple of times, he gave an awkward laugh. âHa, no, I was justâI was talking about me. I should have that app,â he said, feeling more awkward as he clarified the situation. Pressing his lips together, his dimples deepening as he tried to smile but stopping midway when he realized how unnatural it felt. âIâm sure everyone could find a purpose for it though at some point.â
              â* HER BODY STIFFENED WHEN THE HEAT COLOURED HER CHEEKS SCARLET. of course she would blindly run into another embarrassing situation even when she was simply trying to distract herself a little. â why ? â she asked, her head falling to the side when her gaze wandered over him to find any sign of the other being drunk. â you donât appear to be drunk, not even the slightest.â she wondered, thinking about very own and rather embarrassing behaviour when she would be drunk.â youâr right, but i wish people would spend their time on more important things, that would contribute to something instead of getting drunk.â
             â* DESPITE OF THE BLAZING HEAT, A STICKY COLDNESS CLUNG TO HER TREMBLING BODY.  dark hues followed the once so familiar silhouette and more than just shared memories burned intpo her mind -- remembering her of everything she had lost on her way. it had been exactly three days since she had seen and like the other four times her hands were still shaking at the sight of him. during the past years she hadnât changed a bit and the heavy lump still sit deep in her throat, choking the words, the truth, that wanted to escape her lips; and it seemed as if someone tied down stones to her feet, that made her unable to take only a step towards him. yet, it was only FEAR , fear that tied her down and the fear that sealed memories would put her in the place she had merely escaped. however, this time she was determined. determined to tell him the TRUTH, not in a dull text message but in person. and although her legs were still heavy, she continued walking towards him, pushing away any thought that occupied her mind. even then another cold shiver met her when she placed her hand on his shoulder only to immediately pull it back, she swallowed down the lump and opened her mouth to speak. â hi. â she said lamely, letting a few seconds of silence pass, before she lifted her gaze that had been stuck to the ground during these seconds that felt like hours. it was hard looking at him without guilt clenching her heart. probably something that sheâd NEVER get rid off again. â we need to talk. â Â
so, due to my little hiatus iâm probably late with the revamp thing, but i thought i should post this anyway. so regarding lina there are not really any changes, despite of some small things. however, i changed up some things for yoori (to make her suffer) that i will explain under the cut. so please like this post for plots and i will jump into your IMs !!!Â
For all the book knowledge Kwangsu possessed, he couldnât help but feel helplessly stupid most of the time. As he scrolled through his messages from the early hours of Tuesday morning, he sighed deeply. Chewing on his bottom lip, Kwangsu read each drunken text to his eldest sister, calling her a âbum bumpâ and claiming she was so unfeeling she probably couldnât even enjoy her husband anymoreâthe smiley face and the endless string of âkkkkâ following it only made the message seem worse. âI wish they had an app that stopped you from drunk texting,â he mumbled, not meaning it for anyone else, but it traveled to the surrounding area.
             â * HAVING MADE HERSELF COMFORTABLE NEXT TO THE OTHER , SHE BARELY PAID ATTENTION TO HER SURROUNDING. her concentration was fixated on the little screen which illuminated her face, when her fingers were awkwardly swiping over the device as she still had to get used to using a smartphone. only when the other spoke, reality hit her and shattered her concentration causing the phone almost slipping from her hand due to the slight shock that came with the realisation that she hadnât been alone. â but, iâm not drunk ? why should i need an app like that ? â she said, blinking in confusion.
irritation seeps into her lifes blood more oft than not these days, a permanent scowl written across conventionally beautiful features that allows the shadow around her to loom ever closer. she is not amused, not a bit, and itâs not for the faint hearted to approach the elegant woman, reclining ever so slightly against the wall. âyou picked a bad day to come see me, I think.â she knew, the other surely was also aware. âmy workmates are idiots and I want to just torch this fucking place.â complaining wasnât going to fix anything, she knew at least this much. perhaps they would indulge her just a bit. âI donât suppose you brought me an alcoholic beverage by any chance?â she wanted to merely drown out her sorrows.
              â* HER STRAIGHT BROWS ALMOST MET IN THE MIDDLE, AS SHE SQUEEZED THEM TOGETHER. a hint of confusion crossed her face, before indifference replaced it in the matter of seconds.  a beautiful face adorned with unnecessary rudeness werenât a rare combination ( unfortunately ),  and for yoori it would always remain a riddle why people found such an ugly trait to be worthy for being part of them.  nevertheless,  she ran into these kind of people a little too often and she was forced to learn dealing with them, rather than making a fuss over it. â it might be always a bad day to come and see you.â the usual softness in her voice died down and a distant cool laced her words instead when she spoke.â of course not, but i doubt it will fix your attitude, you should try picking up trash instead it will make you calm down. â she said, stretching her arms behind her before her eyes fell back to the crumpled paper in her hands.â anyway,this guy asked me to deliver this message to you, i think itâs some kind of old-fashioned love letter. â
so, due to my little hiatus i'm probably late with the revamp thing, but i thought i should post this anyway. so regarding lina there are not really any changes, despite of some small things. however, i changed up some things for yoori (to make her suffer) that i will explain under the cut. so please like this post for plots and i will jump into your IMs !!!Â
tw: death, murder, miscarriage
this little bean is a criminilogy (how ironic) major and was arrested for attempted arson (yes, she canât even do that)
-regarding her background, yoori is the second child out of three children. she has an older sibling (if anyone wants a dumb sibling message me) and a younger sibling
-her family is neither poor nor rich, her mother works in a small restaurant and her father is an indepedent journalist. her parents never really payed much attention to her and gave all their attention to her older and younger sibling. often she would wear her older siblingâs old clothes ( but well at least they were comfortable ? )Â
- though she knew that her parents prefered her siblings, she never really acted up? she was just accepting it and tried to get their attention with good grades but well even that didnât work but she was glad that at least she had more freedom because her parents were like constantly focusing on her siblings.Â
 so in the second year of high school her life took a dramatic turn. due to an accident yoori got pregnant and of course her parents werenât very about it and yoori as well. they didnât have money to raise another kid and yoori wasnât ready to raise a child. nevertheless, she decided to keep it. it was a very difficult time for them and
her father was a rather unknown journalist back then which meant they had to be careful with their spendings.  thatâs why he was constantly looking for new stories to push his career and one day he found a really interesting story which could actually ruin someoneâs life. this story was about a scandal happening at a big and well-known company in korea and if he published that story they would be ruined. thatâs why her father tried to blackmail them  (his family didnât know) and demanded a huge amount of money. however, the head of the company refused to give him the money and tried to get rid off this problem with a different approach.
so one day yoori, her father and her younger sibling took a ride home. the day had started really well and yoori convinced his father that she would keep the child. so far so good, but of course after some peace something had to happen (blame me). while they were getting back, they noticed a car following them and her father immediately knew what it was about. still, he couldnât escape and a huge car âaccidentâ (we all know it wasnât an accident) happened. her younger sibling died before he got to the hospital and her father and yoori were badly injured. although yoori survived her unborn baby didnât.
since then everything seemed to go downhill. her parents couldnât deal with the loss of their child and yoori was just angry. angry about the loss of her unborn child and her younger sibling, that her father ruined everything due to his greed and that the company got away without any damage, just because they had the money and connections.Â
her grades started to drop because she was was obsessed for revenge and of course her social life suffered as well and one day she just snapped.Â
 she had this very twisted idea that she needed some revenge, she wanted to take something from that person (the ceo) , she just wanted to hurt him. so one day she woke up in the middle of night and decided to burn this personâs house down (because why not??). but before she could even do it the police was already there (this is vague but lets say someone saw her??) and she was arrested.Â
 -thatâs why she is now a part of the program and she decided to choose her major in criminology because she wants justice. also her parents had never forgiven her (and yoori hates her father for ruining their life indirectly ) and said that she ruined their life and reputation (what reputation lol ?) . they donât even know that sheâs attending university and just act as if she never existed (as youâve may noticed they were assholes since the beginning?). nevertheless, she saw being a part of the program as a chance and decided to do it on her own.Â
now to her personality:
-yoori is a very dedicated person, basically that someone who would rather skip sleep for three days instead of skipping studying and not doing well? she might seem a little detached at times, actually sheâs one soft-hearted and awkward dork who is just overwhelmed by life? sheâs a huge cry baby but acts as if she isnât and seriously takes everything to heart (but well sheâs trying to be cool). she might be a little blunt but she doesnât realise it and just pours her heart into everything. sheâs like the biggest pushover when it comes to her friends and will always blame herself and feels like she doesnât deserve them. however, she is very secretive and didnât tell anyone about her past, so most people will believe that sheâs just some regular student picking up trash in the middle of the night. yes, she picks up trash because she loves the environment. it started after she began attending hongdae because itâs some kind of defence-mechanism. she isnât proud of her past and trying to protect the environment somehow soothes her guilt, because sheâs doing something good, right? so sheâs just a huge dork, who actually irons her socks, is very old-fashioned and still has a flip phone and reads newpaper because she hates change. but if you hurt her sheâll most likely never forgive you.
some plot ideas would be the father of their unborn child (GIMME THE ANGST) ( itâs up to the player what he thought about it and to make it even more dramatic he couldâve been the son of the ceo), a friend who knew her before the accident, someone who witnessed the âaccidentâ, her best friend she could always lean on during this phase of her life, someone who remind her of her younger sibling or perhaps a friend of her sibling, just give me anything and i will love you! but i also have a connection page so you can check this out for ideas as well !
Iâve stopped being sorry for all my soft. I wonât apologize because I miss you, or because I said it, or because I text you first, or again. I think everyone spends too much time trying to close themselves off. I donât want to be cool or indifferent, I want to be honest.
Azra.T âDonât Wait Three Days to Text First.â (via cultivate-solitude)
wookbitz: Â itâs just most people now have smartphones so itâs a surprise!!
wookbitz: Â you do look good
wookbitz: Â why do you never believe me :(
wookbitz: Â WAIT THAT SOUNDS BAD
wookbitz: Â you should take it to a vet!!!!!!
wookbitz: Â thatâs probably toxic??? omg iâm worried :(
wookbitz: Â kovu once ate paint and he was sick for days :(
yootree: *protagonist voice* but i'm not like MOST people
yootree: because youâre a guy with a shiba inu. shiba inu guys shall not to be trustedÂ
yootree: and because youâre nice and nice people lie all the time....
yootree: i DONâT HAVE A CAR !!! AND IDK WHERE TO FIND ONE??
yootree: iâm scared, momo is trembling and just lying there... refusing to drink anything !!
yootree: he was fine only seconds ago!!!
yootree: and what did u do with him?? did you give him some medications or ..Â
yootree: but heâs fine, so the dye wonât be that bad....?!??
    bionerd96:  i have neither the hair dye or the skills of a hair dresser
    bionerd96:  and as a friend
    bionerd96:  i dare you to get rid of it
yootree: what the...
yootree: whatâs this???!!!
yootree: where did u got them from???
yootree: iâm scared... throw it away
Na.young: what happened to not wanting to talk to me?
Na.young: I would move the phone up a little bit more if youâre trying to get your face in it.
Na.young: I think it looks cute.. but then again who cares what I think since itâs your hair and entirely up to you.
yootree: i didn't mean to message you so ...
yootree: and i forgot to delete your number
yootree: just ignore it.
yootree: oh and i didn't mean to show my face.
yootree: thank you... and yeah i don't care.
yootree: wow that's so awkward -
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