justin doesnât have a tumblr anymore so i can now vent on the internet again about sad gyal things. yall. Its been a rough few weeks. iâm fat again. because thats what being in europe does to you it makes you fat. lots of beer, and cheese and bread. open relationships are trash. yet here i am. doing the 20-something tradition of making lots of dumb fucking mistakes. and iâm hurt.. and its all my fault which is dope! uhm. ugh. i have no words because Iâm here doing a lot of amazing things. and seeing many amazing places and wanted time to grow and kiss and idk be a young adult ???? and now heâs gonna go hookup with someone and it sucks but its only faIR i guess. and. I just hope my 20s donât fucking kill me . why am i sad??? adn my laptop is acting stupid. and you know I wish I could talk to my mom about these things but i can't and my face is ugly again and just. damn. i don't even know what to say yall! !!!!!! i just know that I didn't want to physically write this in my journal because that would make me really sad. I just ordered food. but i feel like I canât order food because Iâm ugly and even though Iâm really sleepy I couldve worked out. And.. hmm maybe in the morning Iâll feel better and Iâll get a lot of sleep and Iâll do my hair. and I âll put on makeup and. I guess what Iâve learned from this shit is: donât fix it if it ainât broke. and trying to fix something may damage it beyond repair.Â
