NOBODY CAN SAVE ME

everybody wants to change the world but no one, no one wants to die rp blog loosely inspired by ff7 & concepts from my chemical romance

[killjoyeras]

#killjoyeras || rufus shinra from final fantasy 7 -- based on original compilation, though perhaps best viewed as an original character inspired by canon.

this blog is low activity. i get pretty busy and have a habit of hopping on tumblr, doing a bunch of things at once and then disappearing for another week or longer.

written by dean. (truthless recluse) [agender/nb. they/ze] 20s. perpetually exhausted biology enthusiast.

1.21.2026 -- i started my college classes again! so my activity is gonna be even more of a dumpster fire but i am finding that passion again!!

"i dig my fingers into my own flesh trying to dismantle and repair the creation i call myself. will i ever be fixed? am i too far gone?"

links. rules rufus memes opens

other blogs oc multimuse ff7 multimuse aleix (oc) power rangers sideblog

credits + additional (under the cut)

icon art

notes: it seems easier to call my rufus an oc inspired by canon.

will also include links to assorted videos essays and posts influencing my rufus. once i find them,

[techsavvytanuki]

I'LL SAY -- WHATEVER DOESN'T MAKE ME STRONGER KILLS ME

(how did we survive?)

original character by dean. (lost template source)

[techsavvytanuki]

I'LL SAY -- WHATEVER DOESN'T MAKE ME STRONGER KILLS ME

(how did we survive?)

original character by dean. (lost template source)

[techsavvytanuki]

I'LL SAY -- WHATEVER DOESN'T MAKE ME STRONGER KILLS ME

(how did we survive?)

original character by dean. (lost template source)

[killjoyeras]

okay, idk, i made a new blog for a longggg time oc because i cannot focus! here's the blog (temp url maybe)

and here's a google docs for bandit bc i cannot be trusted to start anything for the blog atm

[killjoyeras]

autism/adhd is funn bc i've been thinking of THREE NEW BLOGS. BUT I HAVE SHIT TO DO. i love lying to myself and saying i wont make more blogs.

anyway! bandit time... once i settle on a url

[killjoyeras]

autism/adhd is funn bc i've been thinking of THREE NEW BLOGS. BUT I HAVE SHIT TO DO. i love lying to myself and saying i wont make more blogs.

anyway! bandit time... once i settle on a url

[killjoyeras]

hi hello, i live at work and visit home, which is pretty impressive when you remember i'm supposed to only be part time.

also! i'm,, probably not wrong about the seizure thing. i've been super exhausted lately on top of,, everything else. very tired. cannot wait for the snow to melt

as always! happy to give out my discord, but it might be a bit before im consistently back online! aaand.. im debating going back to my origins with original characters. like full on OCs, not characted based or anything, idk.

[killjoyeras]

its still funny to me that my last post was basically "ope i've been having seizures" and then i just vanished. my bad yall

[killjoyeras]

hi hello, i live at work and visit home, which is pretty impressive when you remember i'm supposed to only be part time.

also! i'm,, probably not wrong about the seizure thing. i've been super exhausted lately on top of,, everything else. very tired. cannot wait for the snow to melt

as always! happy to give out my discord, but it might be a bit before im consistently back online! aaand.. im debating going back to my origins with original characters. like full on OCs, not characted based or anything, idk.

[killjoyeras]

its still funny to me that my last post was basically "ope i've been having seizures" and then i just vanished. my bad yall

[killjoyeras]

hi hello, i live at work and visit home, which is pretty impressive when you remember i'm supposed to only be part time.

also! i'm,, probably not wrong about the seizure thing. i've been super exhausted lately on top of,, everything else. very tired. cannot wait for the snow to melt

as always! happy to give out my discord, but it might be a bit before im consistently back online! aaand.. im debating going back to my origins with original characters. like full on OCs, not characted based or anything, idk.

[killjoyeras]

"why is my gender behind a FUCKING paywall."

[killjoyeras]

“now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to answer this phone call. It’s probably my father calling to tell me to go fuck myself–”

[killjoyeras]

"why is my gender behind a FUCKING paywall."

[killjoyeras]

i have open starters and the next two days off work, feel free to go nuts

[killjoyeras]

gentle update -- sorry! my health has been on its bullshit again, very suddenly. after a sinus+respiratory infection combo, i've been having an apparent increase in nosebleeds and absent seizures (which, the seizures aren't common, but the nosebleeds are daily and theyre vvv annoying)

[ohnohesbeenimpaled]

“Your funeral.”

Resident Evil Village Karl Heisenberg Independent RP blog written by Kevin Mostly headcanon based

He still doesn’t have Uno.

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[dainuhmite]

❛  i’ll blow ya to pieces.  ❜ he smirks.

[killjoyeras]

"that's kind of hot." so, so stupid.