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I realized that the information I was able to include in my previous analysis wasn't enough to truly dive into this iceberg. So now we'll truly delve into Higgs's lore like never before. I also want to dispel all the misinformation swirling around the Higgs and his history.
Content:
1. Name, theatricality and history.
2. Did he kill himself on the Beach?
3. How is his mecha-body constructed?
(Extra)
4. Connection with Fragile before the events of ds1.
Chapter 1. Name, Theatricality and History.
His name would seem fairly obvious, but for many it remains unclear. Higgs's real name is Peter Englert. We'll start with that.
Peter is a rather curious and quiet boy, comfortable alone, and quite socially awkward. He has virtually no empathy due to his childhood and the lack of social interactions, but this doesn't stop him from being altruistic and helping people. The death of a friend won't be a harsh reaction, he accepts these events as they are, without emotional overtones or grief. Because he's seen death before, faced it head-on, when he plunged a knife into his adoptive father's neck to prevent him from strangling him.
Sitting all night next to his father's corpse was an experience that profoundly impacted his perception of death in the future. He was still a kid, perhaps around 14-16, when it happened. And while Peter clearly understands that death is a negative thing, he doesn't fully grasp the value of life, so he deals with such events more simply than others. Because of his level of empathy, one might mistake Peter for a psychopath, but that's not true. Psychopaths have only superficial emotions, often being antisocial and cold, which doesn't fit his behavior. Childhood isolation, physical abuse, and neglect have broken his empathy system, but he's still capable of emotional reactions. This is evident in his sarcasm, even self-pity. He has an inner need to be understood, whereas a psychopath doesn't need to be understood. It's more a sign of trauma than psychopathy, something like complex post-traumatic disorder. Peter is a person who has a problem understanding other people's (and his own) emotions due to a lack of normal support and communication.
And in this state, the young guy was found by a woman named Coffin, amazed by his ability to sense BTs as if he had DOOMS. But Peter never had DOOMS. Anyone who knew about Peter's ability (and even Peter himself) noted that it wasn't quite DOOMS.
Coffin spent a lot of time with him, teaching him, and mentoring him. Ultimately, she became so close that she could practically consider Peter her son. And she dreamed that her daughter, whose name she did not tell Peter for some reason, would lead the way and can make a better world together. She saw them as brother and sister.
Peter empathized with Coffin's ideas for rescuing BB from Bridges's clutches. And the truth she told him shocked him. Even though Coffin always took him with her, thanks to his sixth sense for the presence of BTs, she didn't take Peter on her final mission, instead sending him west. He was to serve as a porter, but as a cover to recruit new members to their organization. This was Coffin's last interaction with her adopted son, she died without delivering her final message, which revealed a profoundly personal message about him. Peter never knew that for the first time, he was truly loved by someone enough to be called a son, and he will never know what Coffin wanted most from him - to care for her daughter, Fragile.
Realizing Coffin had disappeared, he wondered if they would ever meet again. Ā«In a dream, maybeĀ» was his thought. This spoke of his exceptional attachment to this woman. He may not have considered her an adoptive mother, but she was certainly dear to him. He also wanted to do right by her daughter, should they ever cross paths.
Around this time, Peter began to doubt his abilities, which were fading, preventing him from fully feel presence of BTs and leaving him feeling helpless. The longer he worked as a porter, the more he delved into the workings of this world, the more convinced he became that his efforts were in vain. He gradually stopped thinking about a better future for everyone, becoming fascinated with philosophy and science. He found answers to many of his questions in Egyptian mythology, which inspired him to wear a golden mask to conceal his face. This marked the beginning of his transformation.
When Peter realized being himself was becoming insufferable, he immersed himself in writing, having long loved books. He created a character named Higgs, impulsive, dominant, extroverted, full of theatrics and pathos. Higgs knows no fear, no pain, he's a true psychopath. And Peter latched onto this image, making it his defense mechanism, his mask. He decided to play this role, to try to become Higgs, to become stronger and more confident.
It was Higgs who was considered a "damn good leader" by some porter in the Western region, and it was in this role that he first met Fragile. But the further he progressed in his story, the more twisted the nature of his new role became. With virtually no interaction with other people outside of work, his asocial nature took over, forcing Peter to completely immerse himself in his new role. It was perhaps then that the first markings appeared on his body, as well as his habit of wearing Egyptian-style eyeliner. As Higgs, he was unable to maintain cooperation with Fragile and became obsessed with controlling Homo Demens. Thatās when the incidents of weapons and bombs being smuggled via Fragile Express began. And Peter had no idea he was harming the only person who could have become close to him - his half-sister.
Higgs is the image in which Peter allowed himself to become the embodiment of what caused him pain. Demonstrative, controlling, and powerful. He laughs when he should cry and kills when he should retreat. He literally takes his own trauma and dons it like a suit, saying, Ā«If I can no longer be loved, I will become someone to be fearedĀ». If we compare them, Higgs is not a complete persona, he is just a function to hide the vulnerable person inside. And if Peter simply wanted to be noticed, Higgs would have said directly, Ā«If you don't notice me, I'll destroy your entire world so you can't help but noticeĀ». That's the difference between them.
This is where his tragedy begins: Peter created a personality that protected him from pain, but it was this personality that would destroy everything that could become valuable to him.
Finally, his first meeting with Amelie. Higgs saw her as Ā«the one who completes himĀ», as she gave him hope and proved herself capable of anything, even filling the void inside him. Along with hope, she made him feel important and valuable, completely dulling his critical thinking. Seducing Higgs with miracles was easy back then, as Peter had practically given up, trying to exist and interact with the world through a personality that never existed. When Higgs received the DOOMS, he was blinded. However, he couldn't control it, for DOOMS offered vast possibilities that Higgs had yet to explore and harness.
And while he was training to use his ability to create things from chiralium, rumors began to circulate of a man nicknamed King Midas. At one point, while Higgs was creating an object, he suddenly discovered the ability to Jump, and he did so in front of others. To outsiders, it appeared as if he had simply vanished, which also became part of the story of the new Midas. Around this time, he betrayed Fragile.
Even after receiving everything he'd ever needed, Higgs couldn't stop feeling like it was all in vain. And when Amelie told him the truth about the world, about extinction, about the death stranding, his sanity completely crumbled. Because Higgs had given up. He no longer saw meaning in anything, and thanks to Ā«his new roleĀ», he'd become so alienated from people and everything Ā«earthlyĀ» that he simply had nothing left to cherish. There was nothing holding him back in this world. And if the world had no meaning and was slowly approaching its end... why wait, right? That's what Higgs thought.
With Amelie, he dreamed of ending the entire world, of sixth extinction, to cease to exist, to escape the pain, to run even further away from Peter, whose eyes he could no longer look in the mirror. He did everything she told him, acting as her hands in the world of the living, which she had no control over. Thus, under her control, Higgs's hands carried out further terrorist attacks, but he didn't realize he was simply being manipulated, and he believed his actions were correct. Amelie needed Higgs no more than leverage over Sam, whom she had chosen to be the one to decide the fate. Sam would either agree with Amelie to orchestrate the extinction and remain with her on the Beach, witnessing the end, or he would stop her. She had foreseen this in advance, so she allowed Higgs to exert power over her at many points, if only to convince Sam that she was the victim and Higgs the villain. Amelie manipulated them both, making Higgs believe he was bringing about extinction and Sam believe he was saving America by stopping him.
This intricate plan was difficult to decipher, so Higgs didn't understand his true role in the whole story until the very end. He wasn't destined to hasten death stranding. And when Sam defeated him, Amelie had robbed him of DOOMS so Higgs wouldn't interfere with her plan. At that moment, he was left devastated, alone with Fragile, who couldn't kill him, even as revenge, and simply abandoned him on the Beach. Which, in fact, was even worse for him than death.
Chapter 2. Did he kill himself on the Beach?
Fragile allowed Higgs to make one last order after leaving him on the Beach. It was probably her idea as a gesture of goodwill, as suggested by the pizza's flavoring - cryptobiotes. This is clearly her symbol, given how she devoured them throughout the game.
After Sam delivered the order, she took the pizza to Higgs's place on the Beach and then left him there, trying to never again remember everything they once shared. She could return to him only by using his mask and the BB doll as guides. It's rather strange and inconsistent behavior, but it's the only explanation for the pizza order.
Alone on the Beach, at some point Higgs's powers returned. Perhaps this happened when Amelie closed off her Beach from everyone. Was this another of her precognitive visions?
With boundless DOOMS at his disposal, Higgs couldn't fill the resulting emptiness and loneliness, even by creating anything. Time passed differently on the Beach, so hours in the real world felt like years to him. Eleven months - tens of thousands of years. During this time, with the weapon left by Fragile in his hands, he contemplated suicide numerous times to end his endless suffering. This is even hinted at in his speech when he finally meets Sam in person, not through a mecha-body:
- Well, let's just say I'veā¦ died on the Beach before. You of all people should understand. The loneliness. Tens of thousands of years of justā¦ wandering. Without you... Fragile... Amelie... anyone... I couldn'tā fuckin' take it.
But despite the words and gesture of Ā«shooting himself in the headĀ», Higgs didn't do it to himself. For some reason, in a state of utter despair and hopelessness, he still clung to life. He died morally, psychologically, burying his personality and everything that made him himself, but he didn't die physically. His gesture only shows how it felt. If it had been a real action, he wouldn't have chosen to say Ā«well, let's just sayĀ», trying to express something figuratively.
If Higgs had killed himself on the Beach, we would never have met him in the game. If you die on the Beach, you never come back, you're gone forever. And his body color is far from gray, like that of other dead people (Fragile, Deadman). This is confirmed by his words, spoken once in DS1:
- And this place, this fucking Ā«BeachĀ»... There's no repatriation here, no. One of us dies, that's it. He goes to the other side. Nice, huh? Lucky loser gets to put an end to this rinse-and-repeat bullshit once and for all.
So no, Higgs didn't kill himself on the Beach, but he desperately wanted to because he saw no other way out. And it's entirely possible that the long-awaited death finally came to him at the hands of Tomorrow at the end of the game. This is his first and last death, and there's no indication he ever killed himself.
Chapter 3. How is his mecha-body constructed?
Mecha-Higgs's body is custom-made, and it differs greatly from other mecha-ghosts due to its detail. There are no internal power sources, only tar, as this body is controlled directly by the Ka infused within. Dollman moving on the same principle, he doesn't require any special mechanism to move, but his legs are immobile, perhaps attached to his body in some other way, preventing his soul from accessing them. Higgs feels no pain in this body, but likely senses touch, allowing him to play the guitar. He can also sense the damage done to his face, as evidenced by his confusion after each blow.
His head is a mannequin, with doll-like hair. His face is transmitted via chiralgram. Many believe this is the same technology used to communicate within the Chiral Network. So, there's a common belief that this face is intangible. However, I have a different theory.
Like all mecha-ghosts, Higgs can operate outside the chiral network, but he doesn't do so while in his coffin. Perhaps the reason why he doesn't really leave the coffin anywhere is because Higgs doesn't want to be seen without his face. Quite typical of him. After all, a face here is the same technology as the Chiral Bridge and can't be projected outside the network. Therefore, he even has a mask in case he does have to operate outside the network.
It is also forbidden to place buildings outside the chiral network, one of which is the chiral bridge. Higgs's face works similarly to this bridge. This is suggested by the identical glitches:
Higgs also never appeared during rain, and the chiral bridge doesn't work in the rain. The chiral bridge looks like a chiralgram, but it's physical and can be interacted with. The same goes for Higgs's face: notice how his expression changes when he's hit. If he were just a chiralgram, he wouldn't be physically affected, like other people. When Tomorrow grabs his face, she's grasping the chiralgram layer, not the mannequin.
You can physically interact with his face, otherwise your hand would pass through it and it wouldn't be distorted by hit
Look at their foreheads. The mannequin layer is lower than the projection layer, and the hand lies specifically on the projection, which means it is physical
I'd also like to mention that drool flies out of his mouth at a couple of points after the blow. Perhaps this is also an important aspect to prove that his face is partially Ā«realĀ»?
It's entirely possible that the technology used in his face is something entirely new, just like the mecha-ghosts themselves. But it's very similar to the operating principle of a chiral bridge, so it's possible that's what it's based on.
Chapter 4. Connection with Fragile before the events of ds1.
The following information may seem unpleasant.
Neither character ever says a word that would confirm what truly happened between Fragile and Higgs before the events of DS1. Yet, the game contains enough scenes, gestures, and phrases to linger on, because their understatement clearly hints at the depth of their personal rivalry. So what really happened between them?
The first conversation, when Sam asks Fragile about Higgs:
- Seems like you know a lot about him.
- Used to work together. Guess you could say we had a contract.
- Did you do business with terrorists? Whoever Pays, huh?
- He wasn't like that back then.
As she utters this last sentence, you can see the irritation in her gaze. It's as if her reaction simultaneously defends the memory of Higgs's past and is pained by the realization that everything has changed. This is confirmed by the next sentence, when Sam asks the question again:
- So what 'sā your angle? You wanna save the world? Or you wanna screw it all up like him?
- I wish Iā¦ I just wish things were different, alright?
She stutters at the beginning of her sentence, revealing for the first time just how much the subject about Higgs truly hurts her. The phrase itself hints at her disappointment that things turned out this way. As if she were saying, Ā«I wanted him to stay the man I knewĀ».
The next time Fragile brings up the Higgs topic again, she gives even more:
- We were the only people making deliveries out here. This was our territory. Until Higgs fucked it all up. Me, the Express, our reputation - all of it.
You can catch on to the way she mentioned that she broke down first because of Higgs, and only then Fragile Express and everything else broke down by him. She set these accents and priorities for a reason. In the following dialogue, her emotions make her accidentally say a little more than necessary:
- Look, I gotta ask. I've been hearing things. About you.
- Ā«She's in bed with terrorists, don't trust her? She's just another dumbass Higgs fucked over?Ā»
Fragile grew angry, and her words spiraled out of control. Here, she could have accidentally confirmed a possible intimacy with Higgs. While we don't know all the rumors circulating about her, we can say with certainty that no one had even the slightest idea Fragile had slept with anyone. She said this, accidentally revealing more than she intended. The emotional tension of the dialogue conveyed her real experience, which she had disguised as a fictitious rumor. Her words combined aggressive self-irony and an inadvertent confession. Their relationship was close and meaningful, and now it makes her angry.
In the following dialogue, when Fragile talks about her father, she mentions her past with Higgs, giving away even more hidden context:
- I was a wreck after he died. That's when Higgs made his pitch. Ā«Together, we can run packages from sea to shining seaĀ». Back then, he had a monopoly west of here. We both stood to gain a lot from a partnership. Business was pretty good at first...
***
- We were just cogs in a terrorist machine. Higgs was behind it all .
***
- Could've been different if I wasn't so fucking blindā¦
***
- I tried to get the nuke out of the city. But Higgs was one step ahead. He took his pound of flesh and then some. Some wounds, they don't heal. Whatever time I've got left, the rain took.
***
- I don't give a damn about Bridges or putting America back together. But I'm not about to let Higgs and some terrorists take my father's legacy and shit all over it.
Fragile is angry with herself for being so overwhelmed by trust and emotion that she failed to notice what Higgs was doing behind her back. She's angry at herself for allowing affection to cloud her judgment. At letting him get so close. She tries to redirect her resentment, finding new reasons to take revenge on Higgs. While they may be genuine, they don't truly reflect the root of her pain. The fact that her body has aged due to the timefall or the rumors hanging over her father's organization serve as additional motivation and merely help her justify her revenge, but they are not the cause.
Fragile's words about not caring about Bridges and America are the first direct hint that her disappointment and anger are not directed at ideals, but at a personal sense of betrayal. The following dialogue takes place after Fragile tells Sam about the timefall episode:
- Well, now there's only one person left for me to Ā«saveĀ». I'm going to make Higgs regret he ever crossed me.
***
- But promise meā¦ Promise me you'll leave him alive. There's something I wanna ask him to his face.
- I didn't think you were capable of torture.
- Am now. And I want to know why he betrayed me.
Fragile makes it his priority to talk to Higgs at any cost, choosing the reason Ā«want to know why he betrayedĀ». And this encodes not only the shame of the Fragile Express, caused by Higgs, but also something personal, connected to their close communication. Higgs must be alive, otherwise she will not know the truth. His death would be nothing more than an escape from a past that will not give her what she seeks. And then, before sending Sam to Amelie's Beach, she says:
- Promise me. I'm the one who finishes him off.
She considers herself the one with the right to decide his fate, demanding exclusive rights, but without overt cruelty. If Higgs were simply a business partner who betrayed her and committed many cruel acts, Fragile would hardly have spared him. The desire to hear excuses would have disappeared if that were the case, and then the retribution against him could have been more merciless. But much suggests that they were so close that now, even looking back on all the hurt and pain, she cannot harm him. Somewhere deep down, he still matters to her, not the Higgs he is now, but the one she once knew in the past. The scene on the Beach further reveals this, when Higgs comes face to face with Fragile, unable to escape or use his powers:
- Fragile?
- Guess I left a lasting impression.
When Higgs sees Fragile come for him, his voice drops to a whisper. Is this how you treat someone you hate? It's as if he can't believe they've met again, accidentally revealing his vulnerable side to her, which doesn't surprise her at all, because she's seen him like this before. Saw him when they were closer. He looks confused, trying to avoid eye contact.
- This time, you're the one who's going to break.
- Is that right? I think you'll find our bond is made of stronger stuff.
Higgs's words don't reveal any details, but they make it clear there's a history between them that's far more personal and profound than simply their collaboration within the organization. And it's clearly not about the timefall incident, for while it may have bonded them through resentment and pain, there's something far stronger. Something that existed between them long before all this. And this Ā«somethingĀ» is so difficult to let go that even now, as enemies, they speak as if sharing something intimate. Until Fragile says something that triggers his inner resentment towards her, and he tries to provoke her in return:
- Oh? What's this? You're already broken.
- What the fuck!? I'm Higgs! I'm the particle of god that permeates all existence. What are you? Honey, you ain't nothing but damaged goods!
This time, Peter is trying to convince himself that he's still Higgs. He's trying to assert his status as a particle of god (Amelie's) to regain his confidence and control over the situation. He's defensive, because Fragile's words hurt him not as an enemy, but as someone she once knew. And he tries to hit back, belittling her importance to him, implying that all that history between them, which remained behind the scenes, means nothing to him, but that's not true.
In this scene, Fragile stands over Higgs in a strangely intimate position, leaving him lying on the ground between her legs. She wouldn't have positioned herself like that if he were simply an enemy who had ruined her life. This only makes sense if the person beneath her is someone she knows well on a deeply personal level, and she now exerts psychological dominance to put him in his place.
When she removes her glove and reaches her bare hand toward his face, Higgs's expression changes. His expression shifts from mocking what had happened between them to one of confusion. And when her hand gently touches his face, he becomes completely vulnerable. With this gesture, Fragile intended to mock him, for the brief touch was followed by a punch to his face. However... how did she know that touching him would make him vulnerable? How did she know that touching his face was so special to him? She could only know if she had done it before. This is further confirmation that Higgs and Fragile were closer than just business partners.
She leaves Higgs on the Beach because she doesn't know what to do with him. Her pain and desire for revenge conflict with her memories of affection, and she decides not to kill him. Words to Sam directly they hint on this:
- Wait. There's something I have to tell you. I didn't shoot Higgs. Couldn't pull the trigger. So I let him choose. Death or eternal solitude on the Beach.
Now let's talk about flashback.
- So, as punishment, he strips me down to nothing.
When Higgs caught Fragile with the bomb, he chose to force her to undress instead of doing anything else. He could have shot her, thrown her from a height - any kind of cruelty to anyone who interfered with his plans. But he chose to undress Fragile, and then didn't even glance at her body, as if he'd seen it before. This act was too personal, too intimate, hinting at a past physical intimacy.
This whole stripping situation becomes more obvious when Higgs talks about his face:
- You see, the truth is, I don't much care for my face. That's why I hide it. Oh but youā¦ooh, you just love yours, don't ya? I bet daddy was real proud.
He talking so off topic about his appearance, and then compares himself to Fragile, as if hinting at some moment in the past that left a negative imprint on him. As if she once said something about Higgs's face and it hurt him. And now, by undressing her, he's taking revenge for what happened between them in the past. Any her comment made about Higgs's appearance could have deeply wounded him, given his isolation, childhood trauma, and low self-esteem. For Higgs, who never had his own self-worth affirmed, such a remark could have felt like personal humiliation or rejection. And he uses this resentment to justify what he does to her. Presumably, if they were in a relationship, the breakup didn't happen on a positive note, as Higgs's goal to mutilate Fragile's body suggests, as if he doesn't want anyone else to see her but him. He doesn't want her to be possessed by anyone else after him.
Then Higgs licks Fragile's cheek, another way to humiliate her, to show that he can do whatever he wants to her since she Ā«treated him this wayĀ» (referring to his resentment over the breakup). And this hidden reason, which he doesn't talk about, makes him feel like the punishment is just. He's always had trouble empathizing, and living as Higgs, his internalized resentment, and low self-esteem make it worse, creating the grounds for him to justify absolutely anything that comes to mind, as long as there's a reason.
- Now, don't worry. I won't mess it up. See, I want your face to be a kind of testament.
But even with a grudge in his head, he can't deny that he still likes Fragile's appearance. And even if no one else gets her body, making Higgs likely the Ā«last possessorĀ», he decides not to spoil at least her face. It's another intimate gesture, because the face is public, everyone can see it, but the body... Fragile's youthful body will be only in his memory, he's literally appropriating her youth for himself.
- Why did you do it? Why did you betray me?
- Because I found someone who completes me.
Higgs didn't immediately answer Fragile's questions, as if choosing his words carefully. His answer wasn't direct, more of a way to change the subject. Because the real answer is resentment, but he wouldn't admit to something so vulnerable. It's easier for him to come up with an excuse. Moreover, this phrase is another way to put pressure on Fragile, to humiliate her once again. He's saying Ā«there's someone better than youĀ», devaluing her importance to him. This humiliation is only effective if Higgs truly mattered to Fragile. He wouldn't have tried to hurt her with such a phrase if they hadn't been close in the past. Fragile's questions could also hurt him, because if she asks them Ā«it means she doesn't understand the pain she's caused himĀ».
In Higgs's shelter, just above his bed, you can barely see the inscription Ā«Fragile, forget you ever met meĀ». It is unknown at what point it was written.
This inscription underscores the gravity of their past relationship and the feelings Higgs can't cope with. The text suggests he wants to distance himself from everything that connected him to Fragile, to erase memories and emotional attachments to protect himself from pain. It's as if it was written after their breakup, before all the other negative events.
This inscription also confirms that their connection was deep and meaningful, since Higgs left it in such a prominent place. Ultimately, he finds himself in a state where it's easier to forget than to experience all these terrible, destructive emotions. Maybe it's not guilt, but a kind of regret that everything turned out this way. So he asks Fragile to forget, too, because he considers it all one big mistake.
There is another interesting dialogue in the game:
- I had a little chat with Higgs back on the Beach. Didn't take much to make him talk.
- He say why he betrayed you?
Fragile closed her eyes and paused before answering Sam. Whether Higgs had actually told her about his grievance was unknown, but the difficulty she found speaking at that moment suggested the conversation hadn't been easy. She'd relived an old trauma and recognized his pain, which might have been the reason she'd agreed to that Ā«last pizza orderĀ».
- He said it was part of her plan.
- What?
- Ā«SheĀ» was their leader. The terrorist voidouts, the whole extinction agenda - Amelie was behind it all.
***
- Higgs turned on me after he met Amelie. At first he was looking to expand his territory, and I had a power he could use. At least, that's how he ended up working with me. He was no terrorist, he just wanted to reach more people. But then she shows up with abilities that put mine to shame. Hell, she could even control BTs. So Higgs decides to go with her. And that's when she turned him into her agent of extinction.
She replaced the word Ā«betrayedĀ» with Ā«turned on meĀ». It was as if Fragile now viewed the situation between her and Higgs differently. As if her words held a little more understanding and less hostility than before. Which hinted slightly at what the conversation had been like on the Beach.
Bottom line: Higgs is a role shaped by Peter's pain, low self-esteem, and loneliness. Fragile, on the other hand, tried to preserve herself after losing everything. They share memories of a closeness no one else acknowledges, a closeness both would like to forget. They were together, but at some point, something upset Higgs, damaged his self-esteem, and they were forced to end their relationship. Then Amelie came into his life, and he severed his connection with Fragile completely, now leaving a scar on her life.
been thinking about metalocalypse a bit recently so here's my thoughts on AOTD turning 3 years old soon
(spoilers for the klok opera movie andĀ AOTD)
been thinking about this movie recently and it doesn't feel real that it's been almost 3 years since it cameĀ out.
it came out my very first day of university and i had to wait until the weekend to see it. it was no where to be seen online, but luckily someone on tumblr had downloaded the movie and gave it toĀ me.
i was super disappointed in the klok opera movie and held my head half-way when this movie started, but by fucking god was i a wreck when it wasĀ over.
magnus hammersmith was a character that stuck out to me during my 2nd rewatch of the series to prepare for AOTD due to my own struggles as a mentally ill person, and it made me realize how hypocritical people could be as if there weren't various moments through out the show that the rest of dethklok were just as, if not, way worse thanĀ him.
what really brought me to an emotional realization is magnus' suicide at the end of the klok opera movie and how it's the VERY first thing that's brought not even 5 minutes into AOTD. i thought with the way adult swim ended metalocalypse, magnus wasn't even going to be remembered. but he was the first to be remembered when it came to the most important things to nathan's decisions - and is even brought up when murderface is rescued. "i'm no better thanĀ magnus."
i saw a tumblr post i still yet to find again that talked about how despite what magnus had done, dethklok (minus toki) still mourn and miss him dearly because he was their brother; a brother who they loved and wish got better because if he did, maybe the events of the movie would have neverĀ happened.
magnus had so much potential to be something greater but it was crushed by the hands of corporate greed - but it makes the endings of his story and this movie all the moreĀ tragic
magnus hammersmith, you will always be famous toĀ me.
-> When someoneās fictional other is someone they remember dating within their kin media.
id: a rectangular flag with 5 horizontal stripes. from top to bottom the stripes are coloured orange, pastel orange, off-white, lime green and pastel green. in the very centre of the flag is an off-white circle with a heart symbol made of two arms in a hugging formation. The inner arm is lime green, while the outer arm and outline are orange. /end id
