{i'm sorry to have to do this now, after only being on this account for such a short period of time, but i have to say my goodbyes again for the second time this week. i used to really like coming online because krp seemed like such a magical place. i longed for an escape from my reality, from my real life. i used krp as a means of getting away, of fulfilling my dreams and my fantasies. but i've come to the slow realization that living in these fantasy lives has done nothing but make me hate my reality even more so. and when it comes down to it, things here become too real, too close, too painful too. i seek escape from my fantasies because i know they are meaningless, but if i've tried to escape from reality and now from my fantasies, where is there left for me to go? what is there left for me to do but die?
in order to better myself from this type of mentality, i'm going away for an indefinite amount of time. roleplaying just isn't something that makes me feel better anymore. we all have to grow up and leave this fantasy world at some point, and perhaps now is my time. perhaps i will be back at some point in the future, new and improved. who really knows, who really cares?
ellinor was just in her prime and i had a lot of ideas for her, but unfortunately i have given up trying. let her live on in your memories as someone you once knew, same as my chanyeol, same as i.
goodbye, and thank you for everything.
