it's only over

Kimi Bennett, 27 years old, Ciccone Coffee shop owner, how can I help you?

[kimibennett]

Lounging Suprises | David & Kimi

Kimi glanced at her watch as she walked down the halls to get to this lounge to meet David. Was she late? She couldn't be sure, considering he hadn't really given her a specific time, but then again, maybe he had, and she'd forgotten. That happened to her a lot, forgetting things. She sighed, and bit her lower lip, trudging her way past people she didn't care to know the names of and walked down another hall.

How far away was this lounge? Was it even the right lounge? Maybe she'd gotten them mixed up... No, he'd said TV's, right? Yes, he had. Kimi sighed, pulling her hair up into a messy bun. He'd have to accept her the way she was if he wanted to do anything with her, so her wrecked appearance only matched her inside emotions. Wrecked, that was a new one.

She walked into the room swiftly, glancing around for the boy who'd asked for a date. Why had she said yes? Perhaps because she knew Logan and her were over, for good. She sighed and shook her head, losing focus on the boy she was meeting and beginning to drown in her sorrow.

[david-wilkes]

Lounge? Yes. Lounge. 

[kimibennett]

Lounge sounds like the correct term here, yes... yeah, I'll just, uh, meet you there then.

[david-wilkes]

Well good then! I’ll meet you tomorrow in the uh- area with the TV’s. 

[kimibennett]

Area with the TV's... I think it's pretty sad that I know exactly the place where you're talking about.

[david-wilkes]

I don’t ditch dates and I’m not backing out. Why are you so hesitant? You’re beautiful. Don’t you get asked on lots of dates? So… do you like surprises?

[kimibennett]

No... I don't get asked out on dates a lot... and yeah, surprises are okay, they're fun, anyways.

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

I’m not enough of an asshole to go and do something rude enough. It hurts because I cared so much, but know I’ve learned trusting leads to heartbreak. I looked for you, Kimi. But I know that it’ll be easier for you to move on than it will be for me. Since you’re already pushing me away by putting words in my mouth.

[kimibennett]

Logan, you don't even know how hard it would be for me to move on, so don't say it wouldn't be hard. I'm not even pushing you away! I'm saying I'd understand if you didn't want me anymore, Logan. Do you realize what I'm saying? I'm about to cry, I just. I'm so frustrated with myself, and I can't even begin to say what I would give to just have you back in my life. I just didn't understand what was happening to us Logan, and I have issues Logan, I just have personal issues with relationships.

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

Don’t…don’t pull that shit with me. Excuse my language but I’m sick of everyone and their damned pity parties. I chose you to take up with me. And eight years from now I still felt the same way. But it doesn’t matter anymore. You’ve shown me that much.

[kimibennett]

Logan, you obviously don't get it, because I realized it does matter. Yes, eight years from now, we ended up together, and yes, that scared me, but I came to realize that I was really liking you, and if I liked you still eight years from now, something must have gone right. Logan, I still like you. But I wouldn't expect anything less then a 'goodbye' and a 'screw you'  at this point.

[david-wilkes]

Yes you! Lets go on a date. It must be the second option then. Who is it? We could make him jealous. That’s a hell of a lot of fun. 

[kimibennett]

It's not... I don't even think he'd take me back, honestly. Or take me, because we aren't really even a thing or whatever and... it's complicated. Are you sure you want to go on a date? Back on now or ditch the date later.

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

Yeah! Because the future is affected by multiple things, and if you dwell on it then it affects your life even more. And it also didn’t scare me because I knew that if I was with you the rest wouldn’t matter!

[kimibennett]

... Really? It wouldn't matter? Because I really wouldn't want to wish a person like me to end up with someone as great as you are Logan. I'm a wreck, I wouldn't wish me into it.

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

No, I’m not even talked about the stupid future. If I asked a girl out and she didn’t get back to me for days then I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. But whatever, just do what it is you want and leave me out of it.

[kimibennett]

So you're saying that future didn't scare you? That you were ready to just forget it happened and go along with whatever it was that was happening? 

[david-wilkes]

You’re funny. I can’t tell if you don’t like her or you’re interested in someone else. I was hinting that I was talking about you actually. 

[kimibennett]

... A date? Me? No, I don't dislike, I don't even know her. I am actually just throwing girls at you, David. I was going to suggest Lorri next... You want to take me on a date?

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

No. I don’t want apologies. I wanted a damn explanation to why you just left.

[kimibennett]

Look, here: I was scared. Do you really think after that whole... whatever, future thing, I'd be ready to just let you in? I'm still terrified, Logan. I don't get how I could even, how I could just... let it all happen. I suddenly had a sister and a boyfriend who I didn't even remember dating except our one date. Do you think I was just going to settle and be like 'oh, so this is my life now, and Logan is going to be apart of it'?

[david-wilkes]

Well I can’t be sure I have it back just yet. Maybe a date with a pretty girl would fix that?

[kimibennett]

... Why don't you go ask that Bonnie girl? I'm sure she'd be up to it.

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

You know what? Don’t say anything.

[kimibennett]

Logan, wait, I just... Please just let me explain. I'm so, so, so sorry.

[ripleysarchive]

That’s fine. I’m.. doing alright. Been feeling a bit as of late but nothing you should be worried about, I’m mostly fine.

[kimibennett]

What's happened? Something bad?

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

Hi? That’s all you’re going to say?

[kimibennett]

I- Logan. What do you want me to say?

[logan--bates-deactivated2013052]

Are you serious?

[kimibennett]

... Hi.

[ripleysarchive]

Don’t talk like that, Kimi. You have every reason to come back. If not just for Logan for the rest of us that care about you.

[kimibennett]

Right, right! Oh my god, I forgot about Sophia... and you for crying out loud! How are you? Is everything alright with you? I haven't even asked, sorry.