Destructive Thoughts

my mind

[kimmyjane3118]

Why did I do this to myself?

I wish we never met.

If I could be strapped to a chair

Terrified of all things unknown

The cold metal bars and itchy straps

Electric shock me from those days.

Days that meant nothing.

Days that mock me to question my reality.

Some fucking spell. Not even the good kind.

I don't know why you were so scared

You implanted thoughts that weren't true

You shared my deepest secrets with the world

Using them against me to get your fame

I hope Hollywood recognizes you and wrings you out so dry.

All the great things you value about yourself.

Will be gone.

I'm not your fan girl.

I'm not your song.

I'm not your relinquisher

It's all over now baby.

Just wait for it to come

You will see the pain I saw

When I gave you it all.

Original poem by Kimberly LaReau.

[kimmyjane3118]

The only person you will always have at the end of the day is your self.

If you don't love yourself you have no one.

😶

[kimmyjane3118]

Bruh you got me fucked up 😂

[kimmyjane3118]

Kimmy Jane toked the world in her bong. 😂

[kimmyjane3118]

They called me perfect

They called me psychotic

They called me crazy

They called me crippled

They called me negative

They called me fake

They called me stuck up

But they never bothered to understand before judging

Depression is not crippled.

I can take medication.

Depression is not self help.

I would love to meditate if I could.

Depression is not psychotic.

I have insecurities.

Depression is not crazy.

I care too much.

Depression is not perfect.

I stay out of trouble because it's my decision.

Just because I try to look good doesn't mean I'm confident.

Depression is not stuck up.

I don't talk because I simply fear saying the wrong thing.

Depression is not negative.

There is a voice inside my head that took control.

Depression is not fake.

My identity crisis is because I want to feel loved or liked.

Please remind me how I use depression as an excuse.

It's just how I am. Please stop making me feel like there's something wrong with me.

I am human like everyone else.

[kimmyjane3118]

We are crippled to our Devine worth.

We take and we feed what is easiest to perceive.

We grow and prosper on the known but never the unknown.

We delinquish our thoughts through captivating screens.

We distort our image with perfection of sin.

We embellish our desires with our own alter egos

We prey upon the weak

We praise the deceived

We want what we cannot have

we throw away what we already have

What we have is never enough

And never enough is infinite

Time is a command

While relations are rushed

The moment is forgotten

The bad is remembered

Flaws are a competition

Yet so are expectations

Expectations are outnumbered while humans are downgraded

If theyre negative we let them suffer alone

If theyre positive we consume their energy

We are the future burnouts

But more than likely we are the delinquents to unsolved psychology

Perspective is absurd

Self absorbed is allured

We think and struggle to express

We never finish the unfinished

Communication is never

We listen to talk

We don't hear to respond

We run away from our problems

We stress over the simple solutions

And develop our own misguided resolutions...

[bbeautifulsinss]

For you

Do you remember when we were young?

When the world seemed so small, but the adventure was so big

Running in circles or maybe hiding in the porch

Do you remember the time we first met

My best friend introduced me to you

Time flies and you’re gone

And I’m wondering when you’ll ever come back

Or back again

Singing songs and looking at the sky

Leaves beneath our feet

Sparks at our fingertips

I wish you knew the amount of love I had

I wish I knew what I could have done

And the truth hurts when you fall for someone so hard only to find out that dream was crushed.

Maybe I’m crazy or maybe you were my light at the worst.

I would explore the world with you by my side

Our one big adventure continues from the day we sat on your skateboard ramp

The day you made me smile so wide

I wish I knew how to give you it all

I wish I knew how to forget

I wish you knew… That my feelings were only on pause… Till I saw you again…

But now… It’s a broken tape stuck on rewind

I miss you so.

[kimmyjane3118]

Stupid girl

She was the kind of girl that wore her heart on her sleeve

Trusting the world with her heart

Days later she is all alone wondering why

Shes a stupid girl

Stupid girl why did you try

Why did you open up your insides only to disintegrate

They saw your weakness

They watched you grow

They took the training wheels off your bike

They let you go

You went so far until you flew down a hill

And you fall so hard

You looked back and they were gone

Dont be a stupid girl.

They took your training wheels but you dont need them

But you do need your heart back

They stole it when they pushed you on that bike

Your cripled little heart, now left with only a brain

A brain to decompose your emotions in the darkest depths of pain

You stupid girl

Don't go wearing your heart on your sleeve no more.

[road-t0-paradise]

I just wanna cuddle and listen to the rain

[bbeautifulsinss]

Invisible

It sucks when you think about someone all day. You expect to see their name on your phone. You hope they think about you too. It never happens though. You waste your days away being in love with someone who doesn’t even love you back and then they returm to you out of nowhere with their captivating words, and then they disappear again.