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Afternoon Breezes (Hitoshi Yazaki, 1980)

lilithmaze1998

every single social interaction i’ve ever had feels like wearing a giant flashing neon sign that says “I DON’T BELONG” in all caps and everyone around me can see it

hereiswhatremains

"The world is happening in a room that I can't enter, life is happening in a gathering I am not invited to. Being unwanted is a language I am fluent in."

— Fatima Amir Bilal

mypersonalventaccount

the urge to disappear everywhere online even though that's all you have because you're never good enough for anyone, let alone a part of anything, nobody really cares if you're there or not, there's always someone better than you and all it does is trigger you and make you feel worse.

it hurts so bad.

sanctuary-angel

Gosh yes 😭

Even though I already took a year an a half off, maybe it wasn't long enough 💔

feral-ballad

Since childhood, I have existed with a profound sense of longing, a longing that I construe to mean that I am somehow predestined to loneliness. When such a chronic sense of brokenheartedness finds itself honored in the unfulfilled promises of a lover, all that is left is the humiliating confirmation that one’s deepest fears are indeed warranted. I was right to be suspicious. It was too good to be true.

Shon Faye, from Love in Exile

sapphicscribecafe

Fantastic by KingPrincess requires a trigger warning. I was talking with a friend yesterday, and we agreed on the conclusion that is so addictive is actually insane. Because, wdym I can recall the whole caitvi sesbian lex scene (WITH EVERY FUCKING DETAIL) as soon as the song starts??? Please tell me we are not alone in this lmao

My soul is consumed by sorrow but I'm just here trying to keep the mask in place...

I don't think I'm doing a good job...

Hello again... It's me

Sadness has sunk its claws into me again...

Pulling me back into that dark hole I've climbed out of many times...

It looks like I'm gonna be here for a while...

Okay it got to me... And now I'm spiraling...*sigh*

I should not let the judgement of an ignorant person get to me

I feel the mania clawing its way to the surface...

I want to live... I'm tired of being in a cage... I'm tired of not having any control over my life... I don't want someone else dictating to me how to live... I feel like a puppet on strings and life is just passing me by...

I feel like you're pushing my head under the water everytime I resurface...

I want to breathe... I want to break free of my shackles... I want to run...

I need freedom

I need to breathe

#independence #freedom