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12/10/24

Just listened to the old voicemails that you left me. I’m so lucky to have one of you saying “i love you and I miss you so much. I’ll be back soon and I want to see you”

I don’t know if I’m hopeful that I get a message like that because it feels like there’s not much hope to be had. But it would be nice

8/10/24

I don’t know whether to kill our Snapchat streak or not. I know you’ve said like 4 times that you want to keep it going but it hurts to not be able to have a conversation with you. I just want to talk to you, what is this connection doing for you? Why do you want to keep it?

12/10/24

I hope your surgery goes alright. I know you must be so nervous and I wish more than anything that I could be there for you and help you through this. I love you so much. I wish I could call you I hope you reach out soon

12/8/24

“When they come back, and they always come back, remember how it felt watching them leave”

Two weeks ago I watched you take all of your clothes out of our closet and put them in bags,

Two weeks ago I watched you move all of your bins from our basement outside on the lawn,

Two weeks ago I watched you cry and hold me closer than ever before,

Two weeks ago I watched you get in a u haul and drive down our block for the last time.

Two weeks ago my whole life changed because you decided you couldn’t handle it anymore. You couldn’t handle the stress of living in another state without your friends, family, and a steady job. You couldn’t handle how mentally sick I got from all of the pain and stress in my own personal life. You couldn’t handle it so you packed your things and left me here alone.

Just a month ago I would wait at the window and watch you drive down the street to work and would be there waiting again for when you came back home at the end of the night.

But two weeks ago you did it for the last time and I’ll never get to wait by the window for you again.

I am so grateful that I got the chance to live with you and got the chance to try this life thing out with someone that I loved so much. I wish you didn’t leave but I understand why you had to go. I’m sure there will be a part of me that longs for a second chance for a while. I don’t know if that chance will ever come, I don’t know what life has in store for me, you, or us. At the end of the day, I guess I genuinely just don’t know anything.