Silly me, I thought I was good enough.
In just a week I received so many turn down and rejections. So I started questioning my abilities. I thought I was good, in fact I think I`m great in what I do. But now, I don`t know anymore, I`m always confident in whatever I do because I know I always did my best. Now, I`m just a person who`s asking herself, “What are you good at?”, “What is your goal”, “What is your dream?”. Because after all those rejection, I don`t know if I`m really good in what I`m doing and then is it really what I want?, what I dream of doing? As I keep asking this, something starts crawling inside of me, another question, a much bigger question. What is my purpose? Everyday as I wake up, I watch every person inside my circle. Observing, thinking, Do they have a goal? Do they have a dream? Do they already know their purpose? It just began with rejections after rejections in a span of 1 week, now I'm always in my thought of “If I wasn`t good enough in the thing I thought I`m best at, then what is? What is my goal? What is my dream? What is my purpose? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- And if you can`t pick what you do or think about, then maybe you aren`t really real, you know? Maybe I`m just a lie that I`m whispering to myself.
----- Turtles all the way down (John Green)