Kitta's Gossips

what's in my head? and what it looks like.

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If you've got love for me, then I'm gonna have love for you, period. . . . . . . #bangalore #love #ethnic (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWQW1-6PrNv/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Beautiful mistakes 🥂 . . . . . . . . . . . . #bangalore #swipeleft @ankithakottai thankyou🤭❤️ (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWOKZE5vzLW/?utm_medium=tumblr

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"Ain’t no more beefing. I’m just keeping to myself. I’m my own competition. I’m competing with myself.” • • #coorg #liveinthemoment #levis #bestlife #blessings Gumma💗 (at Coorg Madikeri) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLir5s8jPJ6/?igshid=1xuo67jxyu592

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The truth is some people will never hear you no matter how loud you speak and it has nothing to do with whether or not you’re articulate but rather where someone is on the other end of listening and what they are willing to take in and hear. We can not convince others of what we think to be our truth all we can do is live it. - - - - #love #truth #iger #instagood #nykaacosmetics #nykaa #bangalore #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CEvuI8Jj5Bv/?igshid=lf237s8yo3vp

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Who would you be if you lived a truer version of yourself?👺 anxiety and depression is caused by chemical imbalances, PTSD, etc., many people also deal with these issues because they feel forced to live in ways that they don’t want.Many of us might be so conditioned to repress our Truth in favor of maintaining the status quo that we don’t even truly know who we are anymore.The problem is that many are afraid to be honest about their soul-deep needs because they’re scared of losing what they have. What i know is eventually, just about everyone reaches a point where fear of pain or failure takes a back seat to the pain of living an ill-fitting life. Try not denying yourself of your own experiences, no matter how tragic or painful they were. (trust me, some people will tell you to "forget and move on cause what's happened, it's in the past." You should know the amount of hurt and suffering belongs to you. When you cover-up your pain within yourself, you are suppressing your best chance to grow. Respect your pain and honor your pain. Those scars are your stripes and badges of honor. Those injuries are a part of your sacred story. Don't hide from your truth. It is in what you have hidden, that you will find what you have been so desperately seeking. In the heart of your deepest wounds and losses is the essence of your greatest hope. What you thought of as dreadful or shameful was always your greatest treasure, for it has cultivated your deepest understanding. Your pain has brought forth the pearl of your wisdom, compassion and strength. Be proud of who you are. YOUR TRUEST SELF. - kitta - - - - - #love #pain #loveyourself #edits #iger #instagood #writings #mentalhealthawareness #bangalore #staysafe (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CD5-PHsjD7Q/?igshid=1m1udf35lseh

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What do you see? What do you see when you look at yourself? You see the way your thighs rub together. You see the way your jeans dig into your sides and the way your stomach hangs over the waist of your pants. You see the way your teeth don't go in a straight line. You see the way your nose curls up a little at the end. You see the way your ears peek out from behind your hair. You see the way your skin has bumps and blemishes and isn't smooth and clear. You see the disappointed look in your eyes. They're looking at this imperfect figure in the mirror. You hate what you see. But why do you hate it? What are you comparing yourself to? The girl with the flat stomach? The girl with the perfect teeth? The girl with the perfect nose or the girl with ears that don't stick out behind her hair? The girl with the perfect skin? To who? Why do you compare yourself to somebody else? Why don't you like what you see in the mirror? Did somebody make you feel like you weren't good enough? Why can't you love yourself? What do you think would happen if you looked beyond your physical characteristics? What would you see? Would you see the way your mind spins with stars? Would you see how genuinely you love and care towards others? Would you see how many people are captivated by your electric personality? Would you see all the beauty within yourself? Probably not. Why is that? Why do you only see the little things you hate about yourself? What does perfect even mean? What are these standards society has created? Everyone has flaws. Learn to love yourself and the people around you. Don't try to fit into the boundaries of society. - - - - - #love #loveyourself #iger #instagood #aesthetics #artist #flowerhead #nykaa #nykaacosmetics #bangalore #beachwaves #goodenough #stayhome #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CDTgD21jPdo/?igshid=f2mxpo0glkr7

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I told myself to stay. Just for a little longer. Just to see. So I did. I sat silent amongst my friends, searching for a way to speak. I stopped leaving my house. I swapped sleeping for staying up all night, staring at my bedroom walls. When someone came into my room to talk to me, I never responded. But I stayed. Because I thought, if I plan on dying in a few years anyway, what do I have to lose? And some days I didn’t feel like I was being swallowed whole. Some days I listened to a really great song and felt understood, if only for a second. I stayed. And still I thought about tall buildings and hammers to the head. And swallowing acetone to cleanse my insides. But slowly slowly slowly I began to understand that it was okay to cry, and shake, and feel anything but okay.But now I tear up my lists of potential ways to die before I complete them. I replace prescription: pills, rubbing alcohol, & razors with memories of the good days.If you feel the same way, stay. For the good days,the sunsets,your pet and the people out there who understand. - - - - - #loveyourself #stay #fight #iger #instagood #lettinggo #aesthetics #art #nykaamakeup #nykaacosmetics #bangalore #longhairdontcare #staysafe (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDN6gQ3Dk78/?igshid=1hd34473x1ozz

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Those moments, the ones when you're hanging around in a room with those two or three dumbfucks after college, where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It’s those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don’t care. You don’t care about school/college, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts OR you do but for once you feel like you're not alone. Who you care about are the people sitting next to you. ‘Cause it’s all we really need, isn’t it? Those dumbfucks next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points. - - - - - #love #iger #instagood #grunge #art #aesthetics #tumblr #hoopearrings #moments #bangalore #writings #stayhome #staysafe (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDLOkEiDtCC/?igshid=tsinjjo2gm99

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Try not to suffer just to seem like you’re unbreakable. You are important too, stop putting them before yourself. No matter their response, good or bad, you’ll have it off your chest and off your mind. The unknown will stop killing you and the content of closure. So go and tell the love of your life how you feel, go and tell that friend that they’re more to you than they’ll ever believe, go and tell the people you miss that you miss them, or go tell that one person you’ve been angry with and haven’t spoken to what you think. Take it all off your chest. Getting that heavy weight off your back feels better than you think it would. So stop leaving words unspoken; if you have something to say, say it. Don’t be afraid. You have nothing to lose, and so much to gain. - - - - - - #blackandwhite #aesthetics #bangalore #instagood #iger #love #stayhome #staysafe #betterdaysarecoming #womensupportingwomen #womenempowerment #empowerment @pujobin ✨ https://www.instagram.com/p/CDJlaygjHHt/?igshid=6apdnyyyrrjc

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The truth is that we guard ourselves and we hide important pieces of our lives to avoid getting hurt. But really, if we don’t put our whole selves out there, even though it means exposing ourselves to potential pain, we don’t have a right to complain that we failed because technically, we didn’t even truly try. See we do this thing where we hide half of ourselves from the people we care about and then wonder why we’re not enough. 🛡️ - - - - #love #instagood #iger #edits #bangalore #aesthetics #art #detachment #notenough #connected https://www.instagram.com/p/CDGNy_YDOLA/?igshid=m9ydoh557dg3

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See, I can’t help myself, deep down I’ve developed this theory that if I try hard enough, someday someone will try as hard. Maybe, just maybe, if I love hard enough, if I give all of me, someday someone will mirror my effort, and learn to love me the way I love them. For I am a somebody who demands the utmost level of love, for I have died slowly, over and over again, from leading a life of never having nearly enough. I'm sorry. - - - - - #love #iger #lost #longhairdontcare #curls #wethairdontcare #bw #instagood #bangalore #hoopearrings #betterdaysarecoming #staysafe (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCQYGL6jNey/?igshid=1dfyh2q49zz3a

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Trying to keep up with all the aquarius in me♒ Being an Aquarian is like having a split personality. (all the aquarians out there haven't you felt it too?) XD And dealing with all the personalities this is the one I feel sad for ; She's the type of person who is in love with the idea of love, a person that gives you love but also lacks love. She can love deeply and immensely and at the same time feel unwanted. One day she'll be the most confident girl ever and the next day she'll think the opposite. She's convinced that she caused everything, because that's all she's known for, for ruining things, not being "the best", not being the most fit, just not good enough. When someone tells her that she's beautiful and that they love her, she doesn't know what to say because she's never gotten so much attention from one person. Be patient with her though, show her that you love her, kiss her on the cheek once in a while, don't be ashamed of holding her hand, put your arms around her so she feels loved and appreciated. Even if she's done you wrong and you just feel like giving up on her, you know for a fact that no one will ever love you like she does, no one. (Forgive yourself, you• love you,you•) *fuckin' idiot* #live #loveyourself #love #zodiac #aquarian #horoscope #aquariusmemes #iger #instagood #blue #bangalore #staysafe #tumblr https://www.instagram.com/p/CCDJ7Utj9cz/?igshid=y9a0v3x52514

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How do you do it? How do you forgive someone who broke you? You forgive them by giving yourself time to heal. This doesn’t happen all at once. This doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a slow progression. You take two steps forward and four steps back. Sometimes it won’t make sense. But you grow a bit stronger, a bit more resilient, every single day. Even if you don’t always see it. You forgive them by focusing on yourself. Stop pouring your energy into toxicity. You unplug. You unfollow. Practice self-care. Reread your favorite books and go out with your best friends, laughing and remembering how good things can be when you surround yourself with positivity. Tell yourself it's okay. You forgive them by removing yourself from the situation. The longer you dwell in it, in the heartache, the more it festers. It’s difficult, but you have to leave it alone. Honor your emotions. Honor your feelings. But don’t keep circling back. Don’t keep obsessing over what occurred. Let it go.Tell it goodbye. It can’t hurt you now. You forgive them by accepting what they did. That doesn’t mean the pain is erased. That doesn’t mean you suddenly think it’s okay or you’ve let them off the hook. It doesn’t mean they aren’t responsible for their actions or that you’ve forgotten what happened. It just means accepting what’s done is done. It means admitting there is no rewind button. You can only move forward. You forgive them by regaining your life. Because there is so much more than just one person who broke your heart. There is so much more to YOU. - - - - #love #iger #instagood #bangalore #writings #loveyourself #youdoyou #letitgo#healing #aesthetics #tumblr #betterdaysarecoming #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CBu0ZoCjJet/?igshid=1iukwvljb4y3k

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Someone very close to my heart was explaining this bollywood movie called "Motichoor Chaknachoor" and then asked me what i understood so, the movie is basically about a husband that loves his wife whose single purpose in life was to marry a foreign-settled groom.once they tie the knot things get messy but eventually things fall into place when both of them realise certain values. And my reply to the question was "bad timing"! but when i gave it a thought bad timing doesn’t exist. The people your heart chooses at what it thinks is the wrong time, are simply just the wrong people. They are simply just the ones who were meant to get away: They were simply just the ones who were never meant to stay. Because at the end of the day, the right people fight for you. The right people show up. The right people care, not only when life is convenient, but when it is difficult and messy, and it aches all over. The right people take the chance, they choose you just as confidently as you choose them. They hand you their heart. They bet on you. They believe in what you share with a ruthless conviction, with a hope that spills out of them. Have the courage to wait for these people. Do not settle for half loves, do not settle for someone who does not see the value in holding your heart. The people who walk away from you because the timing is not right; are simply just the people who are not willing to put the right amount of time into you. Let that be your closure.Also, time does change people perhaps when you wait a little longer for the one you love it ends up being worth it after all. - - - - - #love #loveyourself #queens #betterdaysarecoming #bangalore#instagood #iger #stayhome #staysafe #goodvibes #writings #aesthetics https://www.instagram.com/p/CBn2ffwjniU/?igshid=brvovdae6x5u

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Are you my person? I have always liked my people a bit damaged. A bit rough around the edges. A bit difficult to stereotype. A bit stranger than the normal crowd. I like people whose eyes tell stories and whose smiles have fought through wars. If you’re perfect, chances are, we aren’t going to get on. If you’re one of the cool kids, chances are, you won’t like me. I hate small talk,  i wants to talk about the meaning of life, atoms, death, aliens, sex, witchcraft, the dark-web, intellect, faraway galaxies, music that makes you feel different, the lies you've told, memories, your flaws, your childhood, what keeps you up at night, your insecurities and fears, i like people with depth, who speak with emotions from a twisted mind. You see, what I want is authentic. What I want to see is your purity, I want to see the way you wear your scars, I want to see how brave you are with your vulnerability, how emotionally naked do you let the world see you. Your damage may not be beautiful, but it has made you exquisite. It makes you original, different - and one of my kind of people because people like you are the most incredible things about this world. - - - - - - #love #bemyperson #bangalore #iger #aesthetics #tumblr #instagood #stayhome #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CBIjFt3jA8M/?igshid=1jv5lubmcer41

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ON/OFF relationships?  They’re the perfect song, on a broken record. They’re a great book, possibly the greatest, but with key chapters missing. They’re breakfast in bed on a powder blue morning, and then days in bed, without eating. They’re breakups that you don’t know how to mourn, because you can’t fathom that this one, this is the last. 
They’re drunk break-up sex and drunk make-up texts at 3am. They’re feeling cheated and feeling guilty. They’re feeling loved, they’re feeling special. 
They’re intoxicating. Because you keep making the same mistakes, over and over again, because you keep falling into the same pattern, falling for the same person, same traits. They’re familiar and safe, and like a home you come back to - no matter where, or how broken - it’s a home no less; they know you and you know them. At some point you realise that love should be more than drunk-3am-s that make you afraid that life will never be that perfect again. At some point you no longer want love to be a roller coaster. 
Or so I’ve heard. I hope it’s one of those myths that people force themselves to believe. Tell me sometimes ending it can also be a mistake, Tell me that sometimes going back home is all you need. Cause right now, if you called and asked me to - I’d go back, I’d do it all over again. - - - - - - #love #bw #betterdaysarecoming #bestrong #iger #instagood #grunge #artist #stayhome #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CBDEXaJj3fY/?igshid=1vpyhego7zd90

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JUST DO IT. My genuine advice would be to DO IT. Do the thing that you are staying up thinking about at 4am. Talk to that person you can’t get out of your mind. Go to that place that you wish you would’ve gone to the other day. Say the words you wish you would have had the courage to say. It’s okay to be passive but not to the point where life passes you by. Move fast, be confident, and know your worth. The world is yours and life is beautiful. And you are beautiful, you are so beautiful. - - - - #loveyourself #love #longhair #curls #writings #justdoit #iger #aesthetics #bangalore #stayhome #staysafe https://www.instagram.com/p/CA-OG1BjVYb/?igshid=ts3pqabyw03r