The Slow Regard of Silent Things

26 She/They Books, coffee and art linktr.ee/sketch_scribbles

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*gets excited about big opportunity*

*tells family*

*receives zero interest in response*

*immediately loses all excitement or interest in big opportunity*

Now i'm just sad.

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I need a sugar mama I don’t have the mental fortitude to handle all these shit ass managers, I’m gonna lose it one day istg

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She threatened to fire my coworker for handing someone their drink and then threatened to fire my shift manager for letting my coworker do that. THEN my new coworker who’s a snitch went outside to listen to my two off clock coworkers conversation and came back inside to tell my manager what they were saying. Like this place is so shit and it’s entirely my awful managers doing. I hate it here

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My coworker that was handing out drinks got fired for saying piss 😐 I… need to leave

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I need a sugar mama I don’t have the mental fortitude to handle all these shit ass managers, I’m gonna lose it one day istg

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She threatened to fire my coworker for handing someone their drink and then threatened to fire my shift manager for letting my coworker do that. THEN my new coworker who’s a snitch went outside to listen to my two off clock coworkers conversation and came back inside to tell my manager what they were saying. Like this place is so shit and it’s entirely my awful managers doing. I hate it here

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I need a sugar mama I don’t have the mental fortitude to handle all these shit ass managers, I’m gonna lose it one day istg

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My dad got me a kitten 😭 sir it’s been 3 days 😭

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He is here. He’s very sweet, and is already demanding uppies. He’s 4 months old and his name is Baron. Welcome to the family little man. I’m sorry you have to witness me ugly crying every couple hours 🥲

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My dad got me a kitten 😭 sir it’s been 3 days 😭

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I really wanna read an urban(?) fantasy book by an Arab or Indian author, like The Adventures of Amina Al-Sirafi by Shannon Chakraborty or A Master of Djinn by P. Djeli Clark. Does anyone have any recommendations? I’ve been really enjoying learning more about the folklore and cultures that way

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I probably won’t have a cat soon. I am not doing well

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She is gone and so I think, am I

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I probably won’t have a cat soon. I am not doing well

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I got a commission framed and I really liked it then I got the second commission in the mail today and realized I can’t frame it without cutting the top of the characters head off so I wasted 150$ on getting one framed while the other can’t be and even if I just buy a frame from the store and go for the mismatch look it’ll still look bad because it’s different FUCKING GLASS. I CANT DO ANYTHING NICE FOR MYSELF WITHOUT IMMEDIATELY REGRETTING IT I FUCKING HATE BEING ALIVE. Why did I have to be fucking ✨fancy✨ what a fucking waste and now my enjoyment of the nice frame is dead and I honestly just want to cry.

OH AND the framer mounted my print on foam board so I can’t reframe it in a regular frame either! YAY

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All these “working to live” vlogs of people having 9-5 40hr work weeks and still somehow having the energy to exist and do hobbies or hang out with friends, or go places?? Where are you getting the energy for this from? How. I can barely get out of bed on my days off and I sure as shit don’t do anything after if i work in the morning/early mid. I work 25-30hrs a week and I can barely function. I have read all of 9 books since I got this job, have not finished a single piece of art, not played any video games, I can sit and watch cartoons or YouTube and IF I can muster the energy I might go to a movie with some coworker friends(we went to see Barbie and Mutant Mayhem) and then I’ll be out of commission for the next 3-5 days. What magic elixir are you snorting!?

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It’s hard being an artist that hates drawing. The act of drawing is so tedious and annoying and I absolutely hate doing it. I love painting but the only media I really enjoy is watercolor, and the type of art I like to make is illustration which requires a lot of drawing in order to get to the painting part. Additionally I am in the process of writing a webcomic, something I’ve wanted to do for literal years, which will require both drawing and using digital media. I LOATH doing digital art, the colors don’t work correctly, the blending is awful, and without a screen tablet I can’t draw properly after YEARS of practice. I don’t even like being creative anymore because I can’t MAKE the things I come up with. I’m starting to really hate being an artist and I really wish I didn’t.

[laskulls-deactivated20250318]

person: reanimating corpses for use in battle is unethical

necromancer: I am recycling

person: now someone has to go and fight the corpses

necromancer: I am also, consequently, creating jobs

[laskulls-deactivated20250318]

you laugh, but some necromancer is out there setting up a PowerPoint presentation

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I do not feel real.

I have a body, and I have a brain. And they are by definition me. But they aren’t mine, they simply exist and I happen to use them, but I myself am not real. I do not exist. I am just… conscious. “I think therefore I am” no, I think therefore I know I am not.

Does that make sense? Probably not

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Realizing how much I genuinely despise being in the office is really making getting any work done absolutely impossible. I don’t have space just for myself outside of my bedroom and it’s slowly killing me.

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I’m going to start working on my comic soon ✌🏻 hopefully I don’t have an existential crises half way through (it’s a common problem unfortunately)