I remember looking into your eyes and I saw so much perfection in you and you just gave me this look back, and you could tell we were happy. Right then and there you asked me to be yours, without taking my eyes off you i held your hand tighter and I couldnât kiss you fast enough, I felt like the luckiest girl that walked these old Tucson streets but how cruel it is to look back on, the feeling of your hand in mine no longer is an option, knowing that I was yours was such a comfortable feeling, to be quite honest I havenât felt that since you left with empty words. You told me something along the lines of âit was good while it lastedâ, it made me feel so numb, like there was no way, but it sank in you left me. Well Iâve been hurting since.Iâve been a broken wreck. I remember laying with someone else for the first time, and it wasnât you but I laid my head along his chest and closed my eyes and nearly cried because I tried so hard to convince myself it was you and it was you I was holding and it was us again, I know itâs so awful to be this way with peopleâs feelings and Iâm sorry for hurting the ones I did when I was hurting and all I wanted was you. I knew this wasnât mutual, I knew you werenât hurting, but I still let myself keep everyone out hoping youâd come around again. I really donât know what it is about you but for some reason I fear Iâll always miss you.
Iâll always blame myself for you leaving (via kittyykaatttt)
