I Pulled out of TAPIF
Right now I should be at Auckland airport boarding a flight to London.
But I’m not, I’m at home.
So yes I pulled out of TAPIF a week ago. It was the hardest decision that I’ve made in my life. Many things came into play.
1. I didn’t get the region I applied for.
I applied for Lyon or Strasbourg, yet I got put in Versailles. I probably could’ve coped with anywhere in France except Paris...but I got Paris. I know Paris is the dream but it isn’t mine. When I visited Paris in January it was great but I couldn’t see myself living there. I’m not a big city person, I’m just from the largest city of a small country. I felt at home in the Rhone Alps.
2. The French Embassy told me for 3 months that I needed a visa when I didn’t.
I wrote an entire post about this but yeah. Who knew being a NZ/UK duel passport holder would confuse the french so much and create such a headache.
3. I was placed in the most expensive part of Val d’Oise.
When I finally found out where I was placed at the end of July I found out I was placed in Montmorency, which looks great but is expensive and the closest train station 30 mins walk away with a bus once an hour. I couldn’t really commute from a cheaper area easily.
4. My school led me on a wild goose chase about housing.
First they said they had a newly renovated apartment for me, then said that it wouldn’t be ready at all while I would be there. They then put me in contact with a lady who hosted previous assistants. She wanted €450 a month. That was meant to include meals, but the previous assistant said she ended up buying her food and when I asked the host she was very sketchy about how much food was included. Also no one had ever applied for CAF when living with this lady. In the words of the previous assistant “the rent was reasonable”. Since when is €450 reasonable when you’re only earning €800 and having to buy your own food on top of that.
5. I was going to have to work a second job to live comfortably.
This I could do legally as I’m on a EU passport but when I told my school that I would be working a second job they weren't very supportive. Why the hell should I have to work a second job so I can live without living on soup and lentils.
With all of this my mental health started to take a dive, something that I have had stable for over a year now. It got to the point where I didn’t sleep several nights last week due to stressing about everything. I even had to call in sick due to not sleeping and having bouts of hysterical crying and anxiety. My parents were really supportive, they even said that they would try to work out a way to send me money and fly me home. But why should I have to rely on my parents when it’s only been a couple of years since they were budgeting every cent just to get by. I spent endless nights on appartager and roomlala trying to find somewhere cheaper to no avail.
I wasn’t excited about going, in fact I was dreading going. Something just wasn’t feeling right. Why did I have so many problems, yet my friends had none?
There were also other things. It would’ve been my fourth winter in a row and having a fifth winter when I would’ve come back home ,and my second Christmas in a row away from my family. I also have been loving teaching and would love to actually start my career.
So last Saturday I called it quits. I’ve lost about $2000 nzd in flights, trains and travel insurance, but I don’t care. I feel like a weight has been lifted.
So things I wish I knew before applying to TAPIF
1. You may not get the region you apply for.
I thought getting Lyon was a given because all of my other friends had got their first choice. I was wrong.
2. Your salary is only enough to live on just.
I think if you’re outside ile de France you should be ok but if you’re anywhere near Paris good luck. You need savings. The more the better.
3. It isn’t easy if you’re from the southern hemisphere.
The embassy here struggled to get applicants this year. Now I know why. It is incredibly disruptive. Due to me being a teacher I couldn’t get a permanent job this year and I wouldn’t have been able to get one when I came back at the end of the program due to it already being term 2. Also you need way more money than the guide book states. I was planning to go over with $5000 nzd ( € 3000) but once I had taken out the cost for the flight home and the start up costs I wasn’t going to have much left. I would recommend aiming for €5000 especially if you planning on doing a bit of travel.
I hope this helps someone. I don’t want to put you off but let you know the reality.

















