TO BAE OR NAH TO BAE?

D-baggery at its finest. No, not really. I look like I'm 15, but I'm old enough to rent a car.

[kixtine]

Scientific slimming let me regain the freedom of love!>>>TsrhPwP

[kixtine]

Scientific slimming let me regain the freedom of love!>>>MwVKlLY

[kixtine]

Just need a very short time, can have the most beautiful self!>>>sGJeSZA

[kixtine]

Let more people understand its charm, solve your distress!>>>RsaeyXy

[kixtine]

Let more people understand its charm, solve your distress!>>>BmadLQx

[svshvkorpi]

[kittehnoir]

hang in there, little tomato. 

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[emmy4keri]

[weather-peen]

love this guy

[kixtine]

More often than I should, I still think about the shit that went down the summer of 2013. I left a DM on IG, but then after a day of thinking about it... I retracted my message despite it having been seen already. I guess... being left on read was enough confirmation that some things are better left unsaid and left closed. There was no need for closure, people moved on, and there was no point in revisiting the past. It was overwhelming how fast and deep the friendship developed. The downfall was also exacerbated. But for some strange reason... my mind always wandered to that point in time and it gives me a sinking feeling every time. I like to tell myself that things happen for a reason, but I can't help but wonder what things would've been like if I had gone a different route. Despite everything, despite all the decisions I've made in my past, I made a decision nonetheless and it's led me here. Although I think I have my mental illness under control, I worry about the day I might lose control. Relapse has always been a concern for me, especially having relapsed so many times. For the last few months, I've been okay just getting by on my own. As long as feelings weren't involved, I was better off on my own. I feel alone for the most part, and in my lonely thoughts... I feel indescribable feelings... but feelings that are far from happy. I guess I feel like I'm mostly just coexisting with everyone else. Just trying to find my place in this confusing world, trying to keep myself from wanting to jump off a cliff. I don't use tumblr as an outlet for emotional distress anymore. It feels strange to blog and journal. I don't know what else to rely on as an outlet, but at least I have my therapist and psychiatrist to express whatever it is on my mind. But other than that... I feel pretty lifeless. At least I don't feel numb? Unless that's a feeling that I might succumb to. Mm. I dunno man.

[haha-posts-blog-blog-blog-blog]

i hate when guests stay over too long…..like no offence but get out

[onlytwitterpics]

[the-absolute-funniest-posts]

100% truth

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[reblogable-memes]

classic twitter

[thequotejournals]

I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life.

Voltaire (via wordsnquotes)

[kixtine]

Fanfiction: the orgasm ripped through her violently

Me: is the bitch okay???

[kushandwizdom]

You got to learn how to vibe alone. You can't live your life being dependent on other sources of energy. You have the ability to be self sufficient so tap into yourself once in a while.

[thelovejournals]

It takes a special someone to see darkness inside of someone and not condemn them.

Shannon Messenger, Everblaze: Keeper of the Lost Cities  (via wordsnquotes)