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Confession #22

ratking713

so you just self harmed

and you’re probably feeling pretty worthless

like you’ve let everyone down

but you didn’t

and you’re probably wishing you cut deeper

because the pain in your brain

had more to gain on the flesh

so you just self harmed

and you’re probably wanting to go back online

search up triggering posts for you to scroll through

and ask strangers how they do it

because no one loves anything more

than a vicious circle

and you’re fighting with your mind

knowing this is not the time

but all common sense has been left behind

so you just self harmed

and now you’re probably imaging death

romanticizing the images and glossing over details

while drowning you are at peace

not war

while cutting, you are calm

not crying

when you’re mother finds you, she is quiet

not screaming.

weighted-hearts

One thing that scares me are needles. My mom doesn't understand because I self harmed a lot when I was younger. But the thing they dont understand about cutting is the control factor. I liked causing myself pain, but I dont like it when it comes from anyone else. NO ONE CAN HURT ME MORE THAN I CAN HURT MYSELF. I can control how deep I go, how slow I drag the blade, and when and where I do it.

kilg0

“Does this type of sad last forever? Does it ever go away? Will I ever look at a knife and just think it’s a knife. Or will the urge to hurt myself always be here?”

Source : Me Tillie (Kilg0)