imagine this: me, around 16-17, had both a really good year and a really bad year, it's spring after the summer i had a psychotic episode but i reunited with an old friend after 3 years plus my new class in high school is great, i am also failing said high school, currently me 16-17 years old is having the talk about my failing grades with my parents and i say through tears that i want to kill myself and saying this feels so fucking fake and dramatic but whatever, and my mom which i understand was meant as a consolation the sort of everyone has worse days says to me "everyone does", and its of course a refresher, the type of crazy thing you need to wake you up sometimes but still, i think about it lately now as i am 24-25 because of course not everyone wants to die but i do its no big deal yk its just whatever everyone does. not everyone does but it doesnt matter that i do, as if id ever actually go through with it
