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Are you Elbert? Welcome to my own paradise of thoughts and emotions! Have fun scrolling down. ♥

[knicknackiees]

"Curiosity kills the cat."

I stalked his account and came across many versions of this man I love and eventually read this spanish post he wrote years ago. Since he posted a lot about school stuff and life thoughts, I decided to have it translated. To my surprise, it was about someone. Yes, it was to my surprise jud because it did not cross my mind that the 🧽 term could be used an endearment. But then, I told myself that it is okay. It is better to know that he has loved before than never have loved someone special at all. I reminded myself that when I opened my life to this person, he is already a product of past experiences and various exposures. He has loved and has been loved. I was too. And it's okay. This is our version now. It's important to honor the past that shaped us to what we are now and it is much more important to embrace this gift of present and the promise of the future. It's safe to say that curiosity didn't killed the cat in me. The unexpected caught it off guard but it remains standing still and always and ever will, loving him deeply. :))

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[knicknackiees]

Exactly!

[adeadcreator]

Guesss who’s backkkkkkkkkk

[knicknackiees]

Anyway, talking about something back, I am so soooo happy to be back. I lost my access to this gem for a long time and finally, I am back! I think I will lose an inch of my sanity if I'd not get a hold of this anymore since I know I've invested a lot of my feelings writing here what my introvert ass cannot say upfront or out loud... well, at least for now. I don't think I am emotionally constipated but I am truly pouring my heart here when I write. I do not even care that much anymore if I am telling my story with correct grammar or spelling. Lol. I just know I am glad to be doing this. I hope he gets to find this too and see how much I've carried my love for him through the years (most posts are hinted on my adoration towards that beautiful soul, my beloved, Elbert, that I sooo much love). For now, let me fill this up with my thoughts though random posts of my interests, flex, and so much more. So once again, tumblr, hello hello... Tadaima.

[knicknackiees]

Hello. I miss you!!!

[embers-braincells]

you know what? fuck this.

i love my life. i don't like a lot of what's in it, what with the loneliness and bigotry.

but my life, as is? i love it. i love breathing, walking, eating. i love being alive on so many levels.

i love being cells, little tiny protein robots that, by themselves, are little more than combustion engines running on glucose, but build up to a (comparatively) colossal being.

i love being terrestrial, feeling the dirt under my feet, the air in my lungs, every grimy bit of being on land.

i love being animal, eating and sleeping and being gross in every disgusting, happy way that animals are

i love being human, having such a big brain that i can truly revel in how vast the world is, and yet how small.

i love life. i don't like a lot of stuff in it, but i love life and living.

[traverse-our-universe]

Mari Jääskeläinen on Instagram

[knicknackiees]

You're so pretty, I could cry smiling.

[beauty-funny-trippy]

Aurora Borealis (Lapland, Finland)

[datgreenmonstah]

My view of the Aurora on Friday when it hit, had some crazy shapes and colors, crazy night

[knicknackiees]

I wish to see your beauty someday, Aurora.

[gnome-punk]

Image text: "I'm so sick of living life on survival mode. I want to live in creative mode."

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Orange Peel

(Photo grabbed from google images)

I was scrolling down inside the Tiktok app when I came across a video talking about the Orange Peel Theory. It's my first time hearing about it so naturally, my curious side got the best of me and I paved the way in learning more about it. From what I've gathered and seen, it's a Tiktok trend wherein a partner in a couple is being tested. Partner A would ask Partner B to get an orange and/or peel it for him/her (mostly, her) then when Partner B does the job, it would then mean that what they have is a strong and healthy relationship and that Partner B is a green flag. If not, then it's all red.

Many tried this trend and a lot of the partners, though I can't say for sure if it's scripted or not, successfully received a peeler orange while there were also a few ones that had their requests being denied.

And so I thought for a sec. What if I try this too? It was actually so silly of me to even think of it coz in reality, from the moment I saw what the trend is about, I already have a good feeling that I would get the naked orange. I am 100% sure that Bert will do it for me. And so it warmed my heart even more. I giggled at the thought that I never need to try it for I already know the answer. I am really loved and yes, lucky!

Then, I thought, what if the role gets exchanged? Tested or not, will I peel an orange for him? Fun fact: I do not like oranges. I don't hate it but it's kinda getting close to that point. Lol. I do find myself fond of challenges but oranges are the ones that I do not dare engage myself with because I dislike the feeling of the juice coming down my fingertips whenever I try to peel it. It's like we exist to become like the north pole and south pole... Or maybe I just do not know how to properly. Hehe I just know that right now, I'm not, even a bit, interested in learning the rright steps. So, would I peel it if Bert asks me to? Well, I also didn't think of it long and hard. Like him, and for him, I would. No oranges can stop my love for my man. 🍊

[knicknackiees]

This happened yest 11.30.23, but only writing about it now 12.1.23 03:51am coz I'm still up (prolly due to the white choc mocha I drank at 12mn.lol) and I'm in the mood to share some things. So...

Yesterday, there were some highlights. It was EOM so I went full serious mode at work that I barely got up from the chair and even got to the point of ordering just a burger instead of rice meal for dinner because I really have to patch things up before the clock strikes twelve and Nov goes buhbye. So yeah, I was busy and focused in doing my job when the breakup news re: kathniel (a Fil loveteam that I'm fond of) was trending. As much as I want to hop into that bandwagon while the tea is still hot (mm yes, I'm that marits sometimes esp on stuff or ool I'm interested in! Hehe), I gotta give way for my job. In the end, many memes and theories and rumors and confusing details were spewed out by so many marits like me, some even becoming like mother marits – the bringer of chikkas. So when I was finished, I immediately grabbed my phone to sip the already warm teas and saw that my langga sent me a PM, so instead of opening fb, I opened his message and got this. So the context of this is, despite the kathniel breakup trend, some netizens posted that true love is found in boys with less hair or with none at all. And with the collaged pic, my beau sent me this picture of us when he had the semi - kalbo haircut. I know it'll come off as corny or meaningless for some but hey, this is my bf and this really made my day. Plus, I never expected he was updated with this tea, too. Haha I guess he's also a teato as I'm a teata, huh? 😏 Anyway, his message really painted a smile on my face and even made me laugh. I appreciate the effort and his thoughts on this. Cutieee! If true love looks like this, I'll agree to the claims 101%! 😊😊😊

Thank you, langga!

Yesterday was an exhausting day but you made it a whole lot better. I love you! ❤️

[knicknackiees]

I can't believe it's been a year since I last posted. JK, I can actually believe it! Hmm, it's funny how I thought I was prepared for a higher level of relationship last year and this year, though I won't deny that I still dream of it, I'm also starting to ask questions — not about our relationship but of my readiness to really take the higher floor. I've always known that money holds a great influence in a person's life, that's why I wanna make sure that when I'm ready, it would be an image of me not only being financially literate but being financially stable too. And this is definitely not who and what I am right now. I've been comfy for too long that I've become lazy and just outgoing. I am acknowledging that I have to place boundaries or limits to this craziness. Because though I'm pretty sure I'm not hurting anyone along the road, in the long run, I'm gonna realize it's me I'm hurting and it would be too late. I have to save and be out of the chains that financially bind me. I don't wanna get into a bond where I'm penniless, so I gotta work my ass off and be responsible. I strive to be stable and be dependable. I have lost lots of opportunities and potential savings this 2023 but I will give my all to be focused this 2024. I must be able to provide. I gotta fix myself before I can flaunt a cute accessory. I can do it. I'll give everything for this.

[knicknackiees]

Jap lunch date at Barikata, with Langga.

For a moment there, I thought my round pupils have shifted to heart-shaped ones. Lol. Grabbed the chance to try their tantanmen for the first time. It was just what I needed! Eatadakimasuuuuu ~

[knicknackiees]

He bought me this with the hope of me being able to transfer our pictures and videos during our anniversary escapade in Siargao to my phone. I hope when he sees this, he'd remember that not one of all that he gave me are not appreciated. If someone would ask me for an example of a thoughtful person, I'd definitely bring up his name. This (white product in the pic) may not have served its purpose well but your efforts are seen, langga. My heart is touched. Thank you!

[thoughtkick]

“I used to dislike being sensitive. I thought it made me weak. But take away that single trait, and you take away the very essence of who I am. You take away my conscience, my ability to empathize, my intuition, my creativity, my deep appreciation for the little things, my vivid inner life, my deep awareness of others’ pain, and my passion for it all.”

— Unknown

[knicknackiees]

Actually, yeah.

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10/16/22 El queso. 💛💛💛

The cheesiest feast with the cheesiest person in my life. Thank you for bringing me here and letting me experience the wonders of these cheese-filled meals. So grateful to have youuu, langga! Thanks for everything that you do – not just today but even for the previous days. I love you!