Please pretty please 🙏 if u may so grace me with this ask being answered. BEN drowned who is DEEP in the closet falling for his best friend turned lover. But hes still so in the closet. Lover is chill and patient for it (and also the dominant one in the relationship) but just general BEN gay awakening panic???
i can make anyone gay. i did headcanons bc that's easier but lmk if you want elaboration on anything!!
also i've never written ben in my life. not even when i was a teenager on quotev writing creepypasta boyfriend scenarios. so! forgive me if this is bad.
under the cut because there's some nsfw (if you are under 18 do not look at this)
I don't think Ben gave much thought to his sexuality before meeting this best friend. He assumes straight is the default for everyone, and why wouldn't he be the same? Ben likes what he likes and until he'd started looking at you differently, it'd always been women.
To be honest, I think it'd take you coming out to him in some way or another for him to even consider it. Ben wouldn't make a huge deal about it, whether or not you sat him down and were super serious about it or just offhandedly mentioned thinking a guy was hot.
You: [Rambling about some male celebrity or character you find hot.]
Ben: Yeah, I guess. Wait—that's, that's kinda gay, dude.
You: Are you stupid?
And well, duh, he supposes your internet history (that he'd most certainly snooped through) makes much more sense now. He's stupid and his stoner brain lags sometimes.
Ben starts dropping "subtle" questions:
"How did you, like, know?"
"So… have you kissed another dude before?"
And, because it's Ben and he has no filter, probably:
"Are you a top or bottom?"
That final question is probably what tips you off because like, why the fuck does a "straight" guy need to know the intricacies of your sex life? Knowing terms is one thing (especially for someone as terminally online as Ben) but straight up asking your preference?
Definitely googled "Am I Gay Quiz" on a couple of lonely nights.
You obviously want to give him his time to come to terms with things, but after a couple months of him obviously struggling you decide to give him a hand and just ask.
He sputters out an excuse when you finally drop the question, claiming he was just trying to make you feel comfortable enough to talk about things with him how he does with his straight friends. And don't get me wrong, that's a sweet gesture, but it's Ben. He might not be as outwardly cruel as someone like Jeff but he's still not considerate enough for that.
You leave him that night with an offer: if he feels curious, in whatever way, whenever, he can ask you and you'll answer honestly. Not that you weren't before, but you not so subtly hint at helping him "experience" what he's missing out on if that's what he's craving, too.
Ben takes a few weeks to take you up on the offer. You two are just lazing about, smoking and shooting the shit, when he goes quiet. You're so sure he's about to ask you to do something—to kiss him, or hell, even suck him off or something—when he chokes out some stupid stoner question. It's clear he's stalling, so once again you take the lead.
You: I don't think that's what you were going to ask.
Ben: What? I—of course it was, dude. What else would I be asking?
You: I think you were about to ask for what you've obviously been beating around the bush about for awhile now. Are you going to be good and spit it out, or do I have to do it for you?
Ben has literally never been so hard in his life and you haven't even touched him yet.
That night you wind up in his lap, tongue tracing along his teeth while he pathetically bucks up against you. If he's extra good, maybe you even let him cum in his pants?
You don't put a name on your relationship for awhile, but it ambles along. Ben hints at wanting something but refuses to say what until your voice goes firm and his cheeks flush at the sound. He won't initiate for a bit (unless he's like, really high) but the second your lips are on his? Ben is leaning into your warmth and opening his lips to let you do as you want with him.
Surpisingly, Ben is the one to make things "official." He figured it was the least he could do after you've been so patient with him.
In my interpretation of Ben, I like to think he's pretty agoraphobic. It's not like you'll be going out on dates or being seen in public often, if at all, so you don't have to worry about public scrutiny. He is, however, worried about the other members of the house finding out. Which like, fair, some of them (JEFF) are assholes.
I'd like to think you never exactly say it out loud to anyone, but everyone kind of just… knows? What other reason would there be for you staying over multiple nights a week, or for Ben to suddenly be looking like a lovestruck puppy every time you're brought up?
jack is such a kitty demon to me…. thinking about his big ol’ lion tail and how it’s stronger (and heavier) than he realizes. of course a little human like you can’t withstand the force of it’s blow whenever it accidentally knocks into you
and trust me, it knocks into you a lot. sometimes it’s him wrapping his tail around you to pull you closer/out of harm’s way. other times it’s his body betraying him in his excitement and forcing him to do something oh so humiliating such as showing physical signs of excitement like wagging.
jack is rather touchy with his tail, all things considered. before he was willing to touch you with his hands (my ej is definitely touch averse on some level until he’s comfortable lol) it’d be his tail brushing against you to alert you to his presence, which only served to scare the shit out of you. he learned to make noise beforehand when approaching you. you’ve become accustomed to the unmistakeable swish of his tail through the quiet night or him purposefully making his steps louder by stepping on loose floor planks or crunchy leaves in the fall.
once you settle into your dynamic a bit more, you find it wrapped around your wrist or ankle often. not even in a (necessarily but definitely sometimes) possessive way; jack just truly loves being able to feel where you are in relation to him. he’s like planet circling your circle of gravity, tail brushing along the backs of your legs as he walks across his room in search of supplies.
I have no excuse for this. I just got high and needy and decided to inflict it upon Jeff in something short and simple.
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CW: Drugs/Intoxication play? Kind of. Jeff is mean, so slight degradation.
Jeff likes you like this, all needy and soft, he realizes. Not that he'd ever admit it, but sometimes it's nice to be able to blow smoke in your face and listen to you giggle instead of getting the death glare you'd normally shoot his way. Don't get him wrong, it's his fault, and it's hot seeing you get so mad, but a change in pace is nice sometimes.
A hidden away part of his mind might even go as far as to say you make him soft, but he quickly banishes the thought from his mind.
It's especially nice, though, when you're panting like a dog in heat into his ear, hips grinding so flush against his thigh he can feel how wet you are through the soaked fabric of his pants.
"I'd have gotten you high before now if I knew it'd make you such a fuckin' whore."
You only whine in response, jaw slack where your face is buried in his neck. Jeff bounces his leg in a way that drags against your clit just right, and you don't even realize you're moaning until it's halfway out of your mouth.
"J—Jeff," you plead, eyes fluttering open as you pull away to look at him. "More?"
Jeff smirks down at you, a cruel expression only made harsher by the permanent smile etched across his cheeks. The sight should scare you, but as the joint held between Jeff's thin fingers comes back up to his mouth, embers crackling as he takes a long drag, you can't find it in you to care. His free hand shoots out to grip at your face, fingers digging into the hinge of your jaw so hard you have no choice but to open up for him.
"Open wide," he demands, voice raspy from the smoke currently pouring from his lips, and not a single bone in your body even thinks of denying him.
You're practically shaking with anticipation as he takes another inhale, hips stuttering as they buck against his firm thigh. You want him all over you, his hands, his mouth, anything he wants to give you. Much to your chagrin, Jeff looks to be dragging this out while you practically wither away in desperation.
"You're mean," you whine. Your limbs feel as if they're weighed down by cement as you attempt to squirm out of his grasp and take what you want.
"That so?" Jeff laughs, fingers digging harsher into the soft skin of your jaw. Another rough bounce of his leg very nearly leaves you slumping into him, only held up by the hand holding your face. "Your cunt seems to enjoy it despite your bitching."
Before you can bite back, Jeff presses his lips against yours and exhales. The earthy taste of smoke clogs your senses, and it takes everything in you not to cough and ruin the moment as your throat burns. Jeff's tongue laves over your own before he's biting down on your lip. A metallic tang coats your tongue once he does, the sting only registering in your cloudy mind once Jeff has pressed his tongue against the wound.
You only realize you've been drooling when Jeff finally pulls back to let you suck down some much needed air, crimson blood and spit mixing on your chin as your chest heaves. Jeff lets you go unceremoniously and before you know it you're collapsing boneless against his front. The sharp sound of his laughter at your helplessness cuts through the room and sends a delayed shiver down your spine.
You tilt your head to the side to glance at him just in time to watch as Jeff takes another long inhale. It's soothing, almost, staring down the embers burning between his fingers. You're content to lazily buck your hips against him and admire the glow against his pale face, at least until Jeff opens his godforsaken mouth again.
"We're smoking all of this before you finish tonight."
Like my previous post about Jeff, these are my general headcanons for EJ!
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He's a demon, so of course I love playing up the more demonic/animalistic aspects of Jack. I personally like to imagine him almost batlike? A mouth full of sharp teeth, claws, and most importantly: big ol' bat ears to echolocate with!
As I just mentioned, echolocation is a thing he can do. Jack doesn't see in the traditional, human sense. I always flip flop between him seeing with thermal vision or just... entirely different in a way that's hard to describe because it's nowhere close to how people see.
Either way, his hearing is fucking amazing. This can be a point of contention for him at times, only because he can quickly get overwhelmed by too much noise. Jack is my autism brother to me so forgive me for projecting that onto him.
But don't be surprised if you hear Jack making freaky, inhuman noises while trying to find things. Chittering, screeches, growls—all of these and more are what you sign up for waking up to in the middle of the night when you date Jack.
Despite all his bat traits, I do love imagining him with a big lion tail. He's a demon, things don't exactly have to make sense. The tail is cute until he's got it wrapped around you in bed and you're unable to get out of bed and pee.
Jack is tall and broad shouldered. He's well over 6'0", and while I haven't exactly settled on a height for him, I usually think of him as somewhere in the ball park of 6'5"-6'8" (195-203 cm for my non-Americans).
Jack almost always has music of some sort playing; if not that, then an audiobook. It helps numb out the other sounds around him that tend to be a bit overwhelming. He's definitely more accustomed to his hearing than when he first came to after the transformation, but it's tiring hearing every little thing in the general vicinity.
While he might not outright say it (not unless you ask), he definitely would appreciate you singing or humming along to whatever he's listening to. Hearing the sound of your quiet voice echoing off the walls and feeling it vibrate in his ears would become something of a comfort to him. Jack would be open to you putting on your music for him, too.
[NSFW] Jack definitely has a knot. And some freaky long tongue(s)? I always go back and forth over if he has more than one tongue. Either way, it's long enough to reach deep, deep inside you.
Just some general thoughts I have about Jeff! While I personally write Jeff with all this in mind, obviously feel free to imagine him according to your vision in my works!
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I love LOVE interpretations of Jeff where he has albinism! Unfortunately for him, this means his skin and eyes are far more sensitive than he'd care to admit. While I can't see him going out in public much in the daytime anymore anyways considering his whole... deal, he'd burn in the sun wayyy more than necessary because he'd insist on just covering up instead of, y'know, actually using sunscreen like a responsible adult.
I think he'd technically have glasses? But the prescription is outdated and he refuses to update it (as if he even could, lol) because he just wants to tough it out. He needs to grow up.
On the topic of Jeff and his albinism: he definitely dyes his hair. Fortunately for you (or any victims that he invades the personal space of), you get to see the pretty contrast of his pale eyelashes while the deep black of his hair curtains you both! I always imagine his natural color being a really light blond, but with a hint of red — almost a strawberry blond?
Due to his burn scars I think his hair is... kinda patchy and stringy? Jeff definitely shaves part of his head. He claims it's because he likes how it looks, but really it's because Ben kept calling him bald and ragebaiting him into thinking he had a receding hairline.
AS FOR PIERCINGS (THE BEST PART BTW)... Aside from a shitload of earrings he probably did himself, I personally see him with a bridge, septum, snake bites, and a set of Jacob's ladder piercings... I am simply living my truth.
[SELF HARM TW FOR THIS SPECIFIC HEADCANON; SKIP TO THE NEXT IF THIS MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE] His mouth and scars are almost always kinda... crusty. Sometimes when the primal need for violence and blood settled in his gut and worming it's way through his brain gets to be too much, he takes it out on anyone he can, whether that be a victim or himself. He reopens and picks at his mouth wounds for a quick fix. While Jeff certainly doesn't see it as self harm, I'm sure we're all inclined to agree it it is.
His lips are chapped as fuck too. I don't know how he healed his snake bites. Like, I think they're so chapped sometimes they bleed and peel mid-makeout session. When you kiss Jeff, it's going to taste like blood most of the time.
NU METAL KING!!! I think he can appreciate most alternative music but fucking loves nu metal especially. He's like your childhood friend's annoying older brother who you lowkey have a crush on.
don't interact with me/my blog if you're under 18. i'll block minors and ageless accounts.
keep it to around 3-5 charas per request ^_^
i won't be using y/n or any variation of it!
will default to gn!reader unless asked otherwise.
if i don't know a character well enough to write them/inspo doesn't strike me i'll just skip over em and write for the other characters
i can turn down whichever requests i so choose. you know the drill.
there will be horror/dark themes on my blog! i'll try and tag accordingly/as i see fit but if you don't fuck with that it's fine. feel free to leave if it's too much.
i dunno. glhf
i will NOT write anything with the following:
explicit rape or non-con. CNC/dub-con is fine because like... i'm writing about killers. they will probably be pushy
underage characters or adult x minor.
incest.
scat. i can be convinced on piss and puke though if you ask sorry. will tag it if it's requested!
i will probably not write from a f!reader pov (and def not a cishet male pov lol) unless you're requesting something with a woman or you want like, a challengers thing going on. no straights here.
i WILL write:
fluff
angst
nsfw! i actively enjoy writing it. if it's something i'm not comfy with i'll tweak it or just ignore it lol.
horror! and erotic horror!
toxic relationships, especially stuff dealing with stalking/obsession/possessiveness. i actively enjoying exploring these themes (should be obvious considering i'm, ya know, writing for horror characters) and i will be up front and say i do NOT think most of the characters i write for are nice and/or normal lmfao.
TRANS CHARACTERS!! both reader and canon characters. i love t4t. just make sure to include it in the req ^_^
AUs, though that's dependent on the AU.
monsters/monster fucking. i like weird thangs so long as they aren't animals.
i'm chill with writing poly stuff depending on the characters. unfortunately i do not think most of the characters i write for could handle that but feel free to include it in a request
if you have any other questions i didn't cover here just shoot me an ask. yay
