goddess of insecurities

sekkura/akito II 29 II afab genderfluid - he/him, they/them and il/lui/iel II biromantic II multistan II kpop, jpop, animanga, video games, cars II just your average dude trying their best to fit in with everyone.

[knightlyempress]

introduction post! (it will be the last one i promise ;_;)

hello, my name is akito! 🙇

i'm an afab genderfluid person! 🏳️‍🌈

my other nicknames are novalis and sakina! my pronouns are he/him, they/them and il/lui/iel!

i speak french, english and japanese fluently! 🇨🇵🇬🇧/🇺🇸🇯🇵

here, you'll see various lists, two for my favorite j-pop groups, two for my favourite k-pop groups and the ones that i listen regularly, one list for my favourite anime series and one for my favourite video games series! 🤍

my ults/bias and kamioshis/oshis are also written on those lists! 🤍

aside from all of that, here are other of my interests :

cars and motorsports in general 🚗🏎️ (Mercedes and Peugeot are my favourite manufacturers!)

i am a huge fan of the Transformers series even if i don't talk about it a lot! 🤍

the Back to The Future movie series (loved it as a teenager and even now)

i love cute things in general too! anything from sanrio, snoopy, sumikko gurashi, kirby, pusheen, miffy, molang, etc...

i also love musicals! my favourite musicals are Romeo & Juliet and Mozart l'Opéra Rock! i also love Takarazuka and 2.5D musicals! 🤍

with that, i hope that we'll get along! 🙇

(si vous êtes francophone, n'hésitez pas à venir me parler en français! 😊)

[knightlyempress]

Japan really is a paradise for me... Blue Lock x Uniqlo, gachapon with cars (it was the Honda one this time), Mermaid Melody and MF Ghost goods that i can easily buy... 🥹🥹

bonus : my daughter Temari (from Gakuen Idolm@ster) in Akihabara! 💙💙

[knightlyempress]

sorry for the double post!!!!

just needed to do a little post to gush over this tokuryoga doujinshi! (and yes after getting to various doujin stores, i finally found one but just one... 😭)

it's so freaking cute i love it so much! i don't regret spending 660 yens on it, it was just so cute! 🫠 i still pray to find other tokuryoga doujinshi... 🙏

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got one of the clear sheets from the campaign with Lawson for the game! i just need the one with Yukimura and the one for DokiSaba/Gakupuri for my own sake!

still... when i look at the clear sheets, i just can't believe those two are junior high schoolers and not high schoolers... 😭

[knightlyempress]

finally found a little Rin plushie that i can bring anywhere for a good price... 🥹🥹 he went with me and my favorite little bastard aka Ryoga to Mister Donut! 🤍

(i also have a little plushie of Rina from Mermaid Melody but i forgot to get it out... 😅)

[sandreeen]

Character Poll Game

Tagged by @shamera. Thank you!! 😆

rules: make a poll with five of your all-time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. see which character is everyone’s favourite.

Top 5 Blorbos

Aragorn (Lord of the Rings)

Cale Henituse (Trash of the Count's Family)

Atobe Keigo (Prince of Tennis)

Fuji Syusuke (Prince of Tennis)

Hibari Kyoya (Katekyo Hitman Reborn)

Voting ended onMay 24

(Since it's similar, let me also do this other game I was tagged for by @kadextra! thanks so much for tagging me! 💞)

Who are your top 6 fav characters from any media you like?

Tagging @knightlyempress @pknumba1 @loki-lee-blog @miloucomehome @meduise and whoever else wants to do them! You don't need to do both games; you can just do one of them😂💕

[knightlyempress]

hello @sandreeen! thank you for always tagging me! 🙏 i hope you're alright! for my part, everything is going well in Japan!

i will only do the first game since i don't know how to search for gifs and i don't know how to create gifs... ^^"

also the characters i will put in the poll might be a little niche... ^^"

rules : make a poll with five of your all-time favorite characters and then tag five people to do the same. see which character is everyone's favorite.

Top 5 of my all-time favorite characters

Marty McFly (Back to the Future)

Lucifel (El Shaddai : Ascension of the Metatron)

Marth (Fire Emblem series)

Echizen Ryoga (The New Prince of Tennis)

Usagi (Chiikawa)

Voting ended onMay 18

just for info : the 1st and 2nd characters had a huge influence on me discovering my genderfluid identify because my main headcanon on both of them is that they both could be cis men or trans men (a woman becoming a man). and as i struggled to know whether or not i was genderfluid, keeping this headcanon on those two characters helped me accepting that i was masculine-leaning genderfluid. maybe this explanation seems fucked up but it helped me in a way i can't clearly explain.

3rd and 4th are huge fictional crushes i had throughout my life. and 5th is just the cutest character in the world for me and i won't change my mind.

thanks again for tagging me @sandreeen and have a good day!!!

anyone who wants to do one or both can do it! (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

[sandreeen]

Character Poll Game

Tagged by @shamera. Thank you!! 😆

rules: make a poll with five of your all-time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. see which character is everyone’s favourite.

Top 5 Blorbos

Aragorn (Lord of the Rings)

Cale Henituse (Trash of the Count's Family)

Atobe Keigo (Prince of Tennis)

Fuji Syusuke (Prince of Tennis)

Hibari Kyoya (Katekyo Hitman Reborn)

Voting ended onMay 24

(Since it's similar, let me also do this other game I was tagged for by @kadextra! thanks so much for tagging me! 💞)

Who are your top 6 fav characters from any media you like?

Tagging @knightlyempress @pknumba1 @loki-lee-blog @miloucomehome @meduise and whoever else wants to do them! You don't need to do both games; you can just do one of them😂💕

[knightlyempress]

after days of searching!!! finally!!! i found MF Ghost goodies!!! and to top it off, it's Michael and Koki, aka my favorites and my crushes also!!! 🥹🥹🥹

there was also one for Ren but i was so happy to find Michael and Koki that i didn't take Ren, but i will definitely take hers next time!

[knightlyempress]

sorry i wanted to make this post earlier but i always fall asleep fast the night so i couldn't...

anyway!!!

little game : (difficulty is extremely easy) can you guess which character is my favorite Blue Lock character and can you guess which Tenipuri pairing is my favorite based on the photos...?

concerning Blue Lock, i also found two dream novels, one with Kaiser and one with Rin!!! 🥹🥹 (they're R18 dream novels though)

also bonus in the picture : a key holder of Remnan from Gnosia and a ブロマイド of Hazuki Kei from Tokimeki Memorial!

[knightlyempress]

the haul i did today is criminal... it's probably the highest number of DVDs i found since i arrived here... and this also motivates me to complete my DVDs collection, especially for the anime.

[knightlyempress]

guys sorry for not posting more earlier i'm just living my best life in Japan... 🥹🥹

i'm not going to put the tags of all of the fandoms because i'm really tired ngl... 😅

[knightlyempress]

not my computer finally dying at this time... 💀 thankfully, i've saved quite a lot of money since i started working after university, so i can overcome this difficulty easily. i've already bought my flight tickets last week with a part of my savings, and concerning the housing in Tokyo, my best friend told me about the sharehouse she was staying at, it really is pretty and the rent isn't too expensive! i hope they'll respond to me, and that the payment process will go quickly, and then everything will be fine!

ah, and basically with my nature of not spending my money everywhere every time (someone like that lives in my parents' house and i can definitely tell you that i am not like this at all... 💀), i can buy a new laptop without any problem! 👍 (that was the main point of my post but i completely digressed...)

[knightlyempress]

hello everyone!!!! it's been weeks since i haven't posted but i was busy with my visa demand... AND I GOT THE WORKING HOLIDAY VISA!!!! WHICH MEANS THAT IN THE END OF APRIL I'LL FINALLY BEEN IN JAPAN AND I'LL STAY ONE YEAR THERE!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

still, before i go, there are some details that i need to take care of (but it'll be fine) so i might be absent like those last weeks... i apologize in advance if it's the case... 🙇

anyway, the pressure went down, and now the strongest emotion i feel is the excitement and the happiness of FINALLY going back to Japan and of spending more time than just one month there... 🥹

anyway that's all for now!!! here are some goods i found during these weeks of absence!

[sandreeen]

Thanks for the tag @heartkade❤

Favorite color: Depends on the day ig, but generally solid colors

Last song: Don't You Worry 'Bout A Thing by Tori Kelly (thanks to Ami Nakai's ex in the Olympics FS Gala lol)

Currently reading: Opening a Shop in the Nightmare World (kinda an unlimited flow novel, except MC isnt quite part of the games but enters instances to get items to sell in his shop) and Reaching Polaris, a Itoshi Sae/Hoshino Ai crossover hurt/comfort fic

Currently watching: Closing Ceremony of the Olympics lol. I only have 30 minutes left to watch!!

Currently craving: A sweet dessert. Something like a chocolate dream cake, or even just a chocolate donut... I want...😭🍩

Tagging: @pknumba1, @knightlyempress, @shamera, @tezooks, if you guys are up for it :D

[knightlyempress]

idk if i should say it atp (of course i'll do it every time because of my overpoliteness) but thank you so much for tagging me @sandreeen!!! it allows me to post something to not seem dead and i can see what the others are up to so it's great!

anyway, here i go!

Favorite color : Pink, dark blue and black are go-to colors.

Last song : Hold My Hand by Stray Kids' HAN. pretty much a song that i'll sometimes get obsessed with, but it's such a great song that i understand why my weird self can become obsessed with it...

Currently reading : ...did i already say that i suck at reading...? more seriously, one of my objectives of this year is to get back into reading by reading at least 1 to 3 books in the year. it can be on an electronic device or just paper, and it can be short or long, i just need to get back on reading. as for fanfiction, i do read some from times to times but i don't have one that i'm currently obsessed with.

Currently watching : if we're talking now, a japanese let's play of a game called Roadside Research. the game isn't what interests me tbh, the reasons i'm watching this video is : i train my japanese oral understanding by listening to it and i like the let's player voice... (o///o). aside from that, on Paramount+, i'm currently binge-watching Transformers Earthspark. then there are the seasonals animes i'm watching.

Currently craving : ...i don't have any particular craving. my amount of excessive cravings have been decreasing lately thanks to the meds and psychological counseling, which is incredible tbh, so yeah no craving for now. might change tomorrow though. 🤷

anyway, that's all for me! i might do a little post tomorrow about my psychological counseling bc i really want to express myself about it to my moots here!

also, i didn't expect learning that a Itoshi Sae/Hoshino Ai ship fic actually existed... for some months, i was obsessed with Rin (i still am tbh let's not lie) so yeahhhh learning about a fic where his brother is shipped with Ai... the world of shipping is incredible for that... 🥹🥹

ah anyone is free to do it, tagging isn't my thing at all... 😂

[knightlyempress]

i know no one will read this but ahhh i need to let it out

i am ngl i'm literally in love with Sawatari atp but his "relationship" with Sana really makes me uneasy... i don't know if i'm the only one who feels like this but we have a 21 year-old man dating a 17 year-old, that's just really off-putting... especially their interaction in the episode 30 (or the sixth episode of the season 3), it really really was off-putting... 💀

i feel like the best ending for him would be to break up with her and find someone around his age or a little older. i know the canon reason of why he likes 17 year-old girls but ehhhh it never convinced me so yeah.

anyway, no need for anyone to read it, just needed to let it out!

[knightlyempress]

Tag people you want to get to know better! 👀

tagged by @sandreeen! thank you so much for tagging me again!! i hope that you're fine! :)

anyway, here i go!

Reading :

sadly, i am very very slow at reading so i can't write anything here... 😭

Last series :

last week (i think?) i finished watching the latest season of the Simpsons.

on Netflix, i'm currently rewatching 2 Broke Girls.

as for animes, aside from the seasonal animes, i'm watching Gintama, i'm rewatching Saint Seiya Omega (i need to advance) and i plan on watching Sailor Moon because one of the streaming services i subscribed to has it in their catalog now!

Last Film :

on streaming services, the only movie i watched was 10Dance on Netflix. i loved absolutely everything about the movie... also the tension between Takeuchi Ryoma and Keita Machida's characters, incredible... 🥹 on Netflix, i'll try to watch the Wild Robot this week!

at theaters, i saw three different movies during those last months : Wicked 2, Kokuho and The SpongeBob Movie: Search for SquarePants. these three movies are completely different but i loved all of them! 🤍 next week, i'll try to see All the Long Nights (the movie by Sho Miyake with SixTONES' Matsumura Hokuto and Mone Kamishiraishi) and Dive in Wonderland (an animation movie based on Alice in Wonderland)! 🔥

Last songs :

"Because" by SKZ's Changbin and Felix, "Want So Bad" by SKZ's by Lee Know and Han, "In your Fantasy" and "Lemon Drop" by ATEEZ.

then a lot of Eurobeat, notably "Prayer" by Ducky Chix and a lot of songs from Norma Sheffield.

then it's mostly anison.

Coffee or Tea :

i love any kind of fruit juice. i am a sucker for fruit juice. also including water in this point.

concerning coffee, i can drink any kind of coffee as long as it isn't too black.

for tea, i love any kind of tea. except those with peppermint, it's not an aroma i like... 😅

also i LOVE matcha, whether it has milk or not. i just love it! 💚

Working on :

if we talk about adult things, i'm currently preparing my file for a Working Holiday visa in Japan! i'm strongly wishing for it to actually happen so that i can finally come back to Japan! 🤍🤍

and then, if we talk about fandom things, well... the only thing i can say is that i'm currently writing fanfiction for my yumeships... (but they suck, and most of them aren't finished, so please don't ask to see them!) and really that's all.

anyway, i'm finished!!! it was really fun to do! thanks again @sandreeen for tagging me!

as for others, anyone who wants to do it can do it, i don't mind!

[knightlyempress]

Michael... (>///<) Koki... (>///<)

sorry i just haven't realized yet that MF Ghost is actually back... and even though those two haven't got much screentime in the last episode (especially Michael), just seeing them was enough to make my heart go kyuuun.