Just Breathe

You'll never be what they want you to be anyway

[perrfectly]

“Overthinking does kill your happiness”

— Unknown (via neckkiss)

[mycastleofchaos]

“Remind yourself, you are not allowed to fall in love with him.”

—

[just-plain-beautiful]

True love

I thought I had known true love before you.

But now, laying spooned into you, warm and content.

I realize… what I have with you is something I’ve never experienced before.

My love, you’ve finally opened my eyes to what true love is.

My heart and I hope you never leave.

~Body and soul babe I love you forever ~

[tristamateer]

[smspoetry]

i dye my hair purple and i put a needle through my nose. i fix the computer that has sat broken for a week and i make everyone pancakes and coffee. i, of course, don’t have any. there’s way too much to be done. it’s 10 in the morning and i haven’t been to sleep yet but i decide to go running. now, i have never been a runner but i decide to start today because i finally have the energy. also, everyone has been telling me that exercise will make me feel better. i come home and i put blue lipstick on my lips. it makes me feel like the universe. so, i decide to get a tattoo instead of buying groceries. i deep clean my house though and you wouldn’t believe just how filthy it is behind the stove. i call everyone in my family - just to chat. i’ve been ignoring their calls for weeks now but today i feel like talking. i ramble so fast and i have such an excitement in my voice that certain words are spoken while i’m breathing in deep to catch my breath - it’s a lot like this sentence. i pick up smoking again. it’s better than an ativan habit, i rationalize to those that scold me when they see that orange glow at the end of my lips. i wish it were ativan. i want to shave my head. i hold the clippers in my hand but decide to write instead. i reward myself with a bottle of wine. it doesn’t mix well with my medication but i don’t care. now, i’m crying. i’m lonely. i have no one. i decide to go out with a friend. 30 minutes in, i want to go home. why did i do this? take me home. i don’t want to be here. i don’t say this, of course. i fall silent. they ask me if i’m okay and i yell. i come home and i don’t try to kill myself. but, i do pray and wish to whatever and whoever is listening that they take me in my sleep. but, no one thinks that i need help. they applaud me for finally being productive and living life to the fullest instead.

smspoetry (bipolar)

[knotperfect99-blog]

Do you miss me?

[quotes]

The best love is unexpected. You don’t just pick someone and cross your fingers it’ll work out. You meet them by fate and it’s an instant connection, and the chemistry share is way above your head. You just talk and notice the way their lips curve when they smile or the colour of their eyes and all at once you know you’re either lucky or screwed.

[amazzzing-vee-blog]

I actually fell for you before i even realized i did ❤

[tearing-myself-apart-x-deactiva]

[knotperfect99-blog]

I hate my heart

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

[thatlinearttho]

[knotperfect99-blog]

Fuck

I’m starting to regret ever going to treatment

[itsonlyyforever]

The Road Between

[a-lovely-thought]

I wanna see you again. So bad. You’re miles away and I miss you. The worst part is, I don’t even know when and if I’m going to see you again. Even though I’m trying not to care, it’s killing me. I wanna see you again.

L.N. | when will i see you again? (via a-lovely-thought)

[thoughts-memories]

[poemswords]