there are no heroes

Katie Matlin. Grade Twelve. Degrassi Student. I'm an imperfect perfectionist, a pessimistic optimist, and a realist with her head in the clouds. Essentially—a contradiction. ~~~~~ "True champions aren't always the ones that win, but those with the most guts." -Mia Hamm. I track the tag 'knowingkatie' AIM: ktmatlins [Degrassi Floater Roleplay Account. I do not claim to own anything, nor am I really Chloe Rose or Katie Matlin. This is all an illusion.]

[knowingkatie]

accidentally logged onto this account....whoops.

[knowingkatie]

So, I’ve been randomly logging on to this account from time to time lately just out of pure nostalgia of missing playing Katie. And honestly? I’m done. I don’t know who the vicious bully is who is still leaving me really horrible anons is but the fact is, I haven’t posted on this account in /months/ and the fact that I can’t even log on to read old stuff bc I’m getting asks so horrible it literally makes me cry, is really distressing. This is basically a goodbye post and I wasn’t even going to make one bc, you know, I haven’t been posting on here anyways so it’s been pretty clear that I wasn’t intending on coming back. But any hope I had of someday roleplaying on here again has been crushed by whoever this disrespectful asshole is.

I’m not going to delete this account just as I couldn’t delete my other Katie but I just wanted to let the anon know that they won. And I really hope they find a more productive and less destructive hobby than BULLYING SOMEONE ON A DEAD ACCOUNT.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: Because that's what you wanted! I wanted to make you happier than anything! I thought that was obvious with everything else. But then I realized, giving up my happiness for the sake of yours? If you really loved me nearly as much as you seem to think you did-- we wouldn't be having this conversation right now.

Imogen: The fact that you think just because I didn't have some ring around my finger meant I'd cheat goes to show just how much you cared yet again. It's funny, you ended up marrying someone that cheated on every girl he ever dated. You really made a wise choice there.

Katie: I never wanted you to give up your happiness. You seemed to have made the assumption very early on in our relationship that I wasn't going to change my stance (which I didn't) and you weren't changing yours, so then why did you stay? I'm beginning to come to the conclusion that our entire relationship was completely pointless—just like all my others.

Katie: I don't necessarily think that'd you'd cheat. I just think it was a little fishy that you were against taking that next step. I understand, you don't believe in marriage. Though, you say you wanted to be with me. The only viable reason to forego marriage, in that case, is because you think it'll inevitably end up in divorce.

Katie: Jake only ever cheated on me? It was a mistake, Imogen. People make them. As I stated previously, we were just dumb kids. I'm sure you did things in high school /you/ regret.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: What does any of that have to do with how you wanted me? You knew where I stood! Where my values were on the topic of marriage, but you only wanted me the way you wanted None of this even matters does it? I'm sorry I wasted your time. I'm sorry that I wasted 7 years of your life.

Katie: Then why did you stay? You could have left, you know. You had the perfect opportunity when I asked you to marry me. You could have said no. You didn't, though. You said yes. I don't need an apology. Honestly, your sorries mean absolutely nothing to me anymore.

Katie: All I ever wanted was you. I just learned that it hurt a hell of a lot less to have someone who wanted me too. Let's face it, Imogen. You didn't want the commitment. I couldn't handle being cheated on again by anyone. Especially you. I had you on this pedestal... It really was my mistake.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: I still don't believe that for one second, Katie Matlin. Actions speak louder, right? At least that's what you used to harp on me about constantly. I guess that only applies to everyone /but/ you, eh?

Katie: How was I acting like I didn't want you? We lived together, Imogen. We slept together. I told you I loved you constantly. I proposed to you. What wasn't I doing right? Please, enlighten me. I'm at a total loss right now, honestly.

[knowingkatie]

Text || theatricaltori

Tori: Fine, but I'm not getting defensive. I just don't want you making a mess of things! I've put a lot of time and effort into this wedding already. I don't need you screwing it up. I mean I don't even need your help at all, but she's your sister. We don't always get what we want. Obvi. I'm learning that more and more when it comes to you.

Tori: You're leaving the morning after? Wow, you're really not wasting any time. I'm glad though, I don't know if I could stomach putting on this smile much more than necessary.

Katie: Oh yeah, because I'm going to completely ruin everything. I resent that. I have perfectly sensible taste, thank you very much. I never said that you /did/ need my help. Maya just asked. If you have such an issue with ll of this, take it up with her, not me.

Katie: I love how you're still playing the victim card. Aren't you getting a little old for this whole whining routine?

Katie: You don't have to pretend to be happy that I'm here, you know. It doesn't bother me in the slightest. Also, just so you know, I'm not leaving for your benefit or even because I want to avoid you. I'm leaving because I got an opportunity to interview with a prestigious newspaper as a field correspondent which, if you recall, is my dream job.

[knowingkatie]

text || knowingkatie

Zig: You might as well be. I'd be surprised if you actually weren't whoring yourself. So, quit then. If not because "you like" then for your sister who is super worried about you. I don't care if we're friends, because why would I be friends with you? The girl I wanted to be friends with is gone.

Zig: Haha, you're so funny. Ouch, that actually almost hurt, but it's hard to take someone seriously he can't go day without getting high, probably an hour.

Zig: If that's what you want, fine. I will.

Katie: Excuse you, I have enough self respect not to do that. Maya had nothing to worry about. If she comes to me, I'll stop. You seem to think that I don't have everything under control which is absolutely absurd. I'm the exact same girl I was when you met me. You just had different expectations.

Katie: I'm not high right now.

Katie: You're bluffing.

[knowingkatie]

Text || theatricaltori

Tori: /Pretending/ to hate you? Wow, you're pretty delusional if you still think I have a shred of like for you left. Pretending that you don't exist is a bit more accurate. Anyway, why'd she give you all that stuff? I'm her maid of honor after all. Whatever though, what do you need me to do?

Tori: I mean what does Maya need me to do. I'm not doing this for you, and i don't want to see you.

Katie: She probably gave it to me because I'm her sister and we're living in the same house right now. Don't get all defensive, it was probably just more convieniant to give it to me. She originally gave the list to my mother but she just laughed in her face and called her crazy.

Katie: Don't worry, you don't have to see me until the day of the wedding and then I'm leaving the next morning.

[knowingkatie]

text || knowingkatie

Zig: You /are/ a junkie!

Zig: I'm not overreacting! You're just crazy now!

Zig: Yeah well, that was before he saw you turning into... this.

Katie: You make it sound like I'm whoring myself out for drugs and falling into this pit of despair or something along those lines. One, I can quit whenever I like. Two, none of this is any of your business anyways. We're not friends, Zig.

Katie: I'm not going to evaluated by someone who is nearly homeless.

Katie: So then show everyone the tape you have of me. If you're /so/ concerned, show everyone the /real/ Katie Matlin.

[knowingkatie]

Text || theatricaltori

Katie: I know you still hate me or you're pretending to hate me or whatever the deal is but I need your help. Maya gave me this list that's nearly a mile long and I'm trying to wrangle up all of the relatives that are flying in early next week, plus trying to juggle work and social obligations. As much as I really wanted to avoid coming to you, I'm in over my head and need some help.

Katie: I promise, you won't have to see me at all but do you think you could give me a hand? For Maya.

[knowingkatie]

text || knowingkatie

Zig: You mean because you're a junkie now?

Zig: Uh because like I just said, you're a junkie. She knows something is up. She thinks you're taking pill again or something. Surprise! You're probably shooting up heroin now!

Katie: I am /not/ a junkie.

Katie: Stop over reacting. I'm not shooting up.

Katie: You know, you used to be fun. Text me when /that/ guy comes back.

[degrassipl]

[knowingkatie]

text || future gf

Zig: Whoa, the bigger Matlin's blunt, how endearing. Of course you do.

Zig: Straight to the point? I thought we were having a nice conversation so far..

Katie: The pleasantness or unpleasantness of this conversation is all relative. I repeat, what do you want?

[knowingkatie]

text || knowingkatie

Zig: Your sister is worried about you.

Katie: I thought you were done talking to me.

Katie: I don't see why she would be worried about me, though. There's nothing to be worried about.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: You keep talking about /just/ wanting me; however, we're here. It makes the whole statement a bit unbelievable, no?

Katie: I'm not going to have this argument with you. We're just going in circles, Imogen. I wanted you and only you, whether you believe it or not. My plans changed, though, when you didn't want the same things as I did. I wasn't going to sit around and wait for us to come to a compromise because there was a chance that it would have never happened.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: Oh you act as if my immaturity has ever been something unknown. That's why we're not married, remember?

Imogen: No, that's not it at all, but we all know you wanted the perfect life. 2.5 kids, a white picket fence out front with matching his and her cars. Okay the last part is an exaggeration, but now you've got all that.

Imogen: Finding Nemo was hardly about finding Nemo... it was a porn spoof.

Katie: We're not married because /you/ didn't want to be. If you want to blame your immaturity, then that's on you.

Katie: You act like I'm a Stepford wife. I didn't want all of that stereotypical stuff. As I said before, I just wanted you.

Katie: That's foul.

[knowingkatie]

text || ex-cannoli

Imogen: Whatever.

Imogen: Congratulations on that, really. I'd give you this whole spiel about how you and I both know that's not true, but you're living that "perfect" life like you've always wanted.

Imogen: ... you're really really daft right now.

Katie: How mature.

Katie: I never said my life is perfect nor did I ever specify that I wanted a perfect life. Sometimes I think you make things up simply to make me seem like the bad guy.

Katie: I don't have time for your insults right now, Imogen. I obviously didn't get the joke.