“Revenge of the Nerds”
(With pieces from Lena Dunham’s “Famesick”, Leonard Cohen’s “Let Us Compare Mythologies”, Dodie Bellamy’s “Pink Steam”, William Burroughs’ “Nova Express”, Kathy Acker’s “Blood and Guts in Highschool”, Eve Babitz’s “Slow Days & Fast Company”, Joan Didion’s “Slouching Toward Bethlehem”, & The Kabir Book)
I was complaining of a pulled neck muscle at six, a bad knee at eight, sciatica at 16 like a hanging gimmick.
I was the Venus mob. The vegetable people.
A death in orgasm. A time rocket of arousal.
Respond, release, regret, repeat
That is what it is all about, isn’t it?
Some people resist, some people don’t want to know
Their anxiety to be right embraces & penetrates everything
Even though I am not as thin as George Harrison, it is going to be all right.
My happiness is mine
My happiness is colored beads in the doorways, crayoned flowers on the walls, paper things for the wind.
Each time I visit her I talk to my inner lover and I say: The moon bird’s head is filled with nothing but thoughts of the moon.
Nerds fuck whenever they can find it, they fuck like me—with abandon and gratitude.