Kokana

im only here for freak circus <3 wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/Kokana81

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Some unfinished TFC oneshots

Pierrot x MC

You were not ill: only susceptible to the passage of time in a way he wasn’t.

“Don’t worry. Doctor said I’m recovering.”

“My love, how can I not worry?” He places a tender kiss under your eye. “Your soul, once bright, now flickers. I’m scared your passion will consume what’s left of you.”

You smile. “It’s okay, Pierrot.”

His breath stutters at your resigned tone. He shakes his head.

“It will never be okay, my lady.”

Resting his chin on your stomach, Pierrot closes his eyes, savoring the way it rises and falls. Counting every abnormal heartbeat, noting every shallow breath.

“Whatever happens,” he eventually mutters, “please stay with me a while longer. I.. cannot imagine what I’d do without you. Or if I’d be anything at all.”

“Haha.. don’t say that.” 

“It is the truth! I.. I have only ever been honest to you, my love.”

You take a deep breath before lifting an arm and gingerly petting his head. “I’ll stay as long as I can.”

Pierrot’s eyes open, his face flushing, but the color drains from his face with the tremor of your hand. He takes gentle hold of your arm, supporting it, and leans into your touch. 

Doctor x MC

“Did you know? I am in love.”

You blink.

“Another one of the foolish, irrational emotions I thought were impossible for something like me. Yet, it appears and announces itself in a way I cannot ignore. I once considered feelings to be separate entities from me, but now I itch to embrace them; I itch to say what I shouldn’t. I must admit it: I.. I am scared.”

Of myself. Of losing you. Of these people that are me, but not me, who act illogically in my body. Yes, I am afraid. Not unlike the fear I experienced way back then, with her. 

He tilts forward slightly, unconsciously. 

Say you felt the same? Tell him that you understood, that you reciprocated, that it was not foolish to act on impulse.

But the way you peer up at Doctor—glossy, vulnerable—makes his shoulders tense. Hesitantly, he mutters:

“If you are scared too, I cannot blame you.”

Slowly, his hands reach to your sides. You squeeze your eyes shut—

Click.

The cuffs come undone. Doctor slowly backs away.

“…If you wish to leave, then I will not stop you.”

I also have a harlequin one but I might post that on my wattpad once I finish. check my profile out at https://www.wattpad.com/user/Kokana81

(also if someone can tell me how to format on ao3 then that would be great.. idk how to do it)

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First of all, I love the game so much!!! And secondly, do the circus members have birthdays?

Glad you love it! This was already answered in a Patreon AMA that has been cross posted here. I'll still answer this one but please do make sure to read the AMA's for popular questions like this! It's also available on the new masterlist!

Pierrot: May 18th

Harlequin: May 26th

Ticket Taker: June 28th

Jester: September 29th

Doctor: October 30th

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Askbox FAQ

Hey all! First off, we want to thank everyone for sending in asks when the ask box is open! It's so encouraging to see how many of you have deeply connected to The Freak Circus and want to express that in a positive way for both the fandom as well as Neko. It's a shame that all asks cannot be answered (as we regularly get around five to six hundred at a time) but we appreciate the love all the same!

That being said, there are some asks that will simply not be answered, and are often deleted instead of being answered for a few reasons.

Below is a list of the types of questions we see many times that will not typically be answered by Neko or the team, so please avoid asking them at risk of your question being deleted immediately:

How would [character] react to an MC who has [specific trait, sexuality, style, gender presentation or specific sex]?

How would they react if MC did [action, habit, mistake, ect]?

What if MC is suicidal or as a specific mental illness?

All the circus members are capable of loving MC no matter what they look like, who they are, or what they do. These types of questions have been answered many times in the past, and it can be extremely difficult to answer each specific variation.

MC is a stand-in for you as fans to explore how they interact with the world and other characters. You do not need us to validate your idea of what you want to consume as a fan, but if you want to see it, we do encourage you to write it! Fiction is a wonderful way to express yourself and can even be cathartic.

This is also because there are many life experiences that we on the team don’t share, and we don’t want to misrepresent a culture, religion, sexuality, gender or mental health illness because of our lack of familiarity or connection.

Some of our mods may be able to connect with certain things, but please be aware that if we cannot offer a better answer than ‘yes, you would be accepted and appreciated’ then we will not answer the question due to the sheer volume of asks that we receive!

What if MC was [specific sexual orientation or gender]?

Again, the clowns will love you no matter what. This could be another opportunity to write or support your fellow fans by commissioning writing of the specific things you want to see!

Sexuality and gender presentation can be an incredibly intimate and personal thing, and exploring that is healthy! We appreciate the full spectrum of the human experience and think it is wonderful when fans explore that with the characters— you don’t need our permission to do that!

What if MC were aromantic/ace/lesbian/etc?

There is a protagonist route, so you don't have to romance the clowns if you don't wish to. Some people love the idea of exploring a platonic connection with these characters, and there is a lot of room to do so!

When will Day 3 come out?

You (as well as us mods!) must wait for Neko to make posts about Day 3 and any other updates. Please remember he is writing, coding, creating, and working on the game all by himself. All we mods help with is this blogs management.

"Hey Pierrot, how would you react if--?" -or- "Hey Harlequin what do you think---?"

All asks directed to the characters themselves will be deleted immediately. This is a perk of Neko's Patreon AMA style questions only!

For better clarity:

“To Pierrot: What foods do you like?” <- This is a character question and will not be answered.

“What kinds of foods does Pierrot like?” <- This is a question that may be answered.

How do I romance Jester/Ticket Taker/Doctor/Boss?

At the moment, you don't. The only options as of now are Pierrot, Harlequin, both of them, or neither of them. If any more options for routes will be added in the future then they would be as add-ons or DLC, but this isn't decided yet. Neko's gotta make the game first!

We love that you are so deeply invested in the characters and want to know how they would react to your specific situations, but that isn't feasible to add or answer every possible option available. MC is only following the story of The Freak Circus visual novel, it is up to you to fill in who MC is to you!

Thank you again for your understanding and support!

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Hello there,

First time using the ask box.

I want to ask a question on the fools design. I noticed each one of the fools have similar design to each of the characters.

Is this a way for determining which fools belong to one of the characters?

Pierrot tear drops

Jester diamonds

Ticket Taker tear streaming drop

Doctor The cross

Harlequin Triangle?

If this question has been answered That's all good! Just letting you all know that the story and visual novel are enjoyable to follow. Looking forward to more hidden lores!

If this was answered

Hello! Neko here! Yes, you're right! The fools wear masks that reflect who chose them, and the fools who work closest to their “masters” have an extra accessory, in the game, you'll see two characters with this accessory x3

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Can we pretty please w/ a cherry on top have some facts or info about Columbina without any major spoilers? :3

Hello! Let me see what I can give to you... She liked rainy days because of the pleasant sound of the rain, and she also loved windy days.

Her childhood was difficult she was malnourished and very ill for a time, but a kind stranger helped her recover before it was too late.

When she left her family, she had a hard time adjusting, she had never traveled alone, and she loved fruit!

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AMA 2 – Answers Part 5 2/2

Continuation of Part 5 because it exceeded Tumblr's 30 image limit! xD There's just one question left that's highlighted! -- Continuação da parte 5 porque ultrapassou o limite do Tumblr de 30 imagens xD Faltou apenas uma pergunta que tem o destaque!

Featured question (Lore Spotlight)

Featured question (Lore Spotlight) 2

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Can we have teeny tiny bits of info for Columbina? (Without any spoilers ofc)

Thats all.Stay safe and Healthy we love the game so much !!!

Some of the upcoming AMAs include answers about Columbina, such as her birthday and how old she was compared to the others.

So I think I can at least tell you her height, she was 1.80 m (5'10") She also loved homemade bread and fruit!

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Hello! Thanks Neko for this awesome game and thanks Darth, Destiny and Tazz- for helping along.

My question,

Since Doctor has Russian accent (if I remember correctly), is this part of his lore-origin or something unimportant? (Like, maybe he was born in Russia or was influenced by their culture).

Sorry for any grammarly mistake. Again, love you guys, take care!

Hello, Darth here to answer this one— it’s actually a pretty funny story how Doctor ended up with his Russian accent!

It all started when I first discovered The Freak Circus and began recording/editing/posting my interpretations of Pierrot and Harlequin’s voices. I took a lot of direction from the details Neko posted about at the time, especially Pierrot with his lower, raspier texture. As the other characters were better introduced (Ticket Taker, Jester and Doctor) I wanted to try voicing them as well— but I ran into an issue!

As a single person voicing several characters, especially someone who is new to voice acting itself, it can be VERY easy for their voices to ‘meld’ together, and it was very important to me that the characters sound distinct from one another!

It was fairly simple for me to figure out a ‘place’ for Pierrot (deep and raspy), Harlequin (high and fruity full-bodied) and Jester (light, androgynous and airy), but Ticket Taker and Doctor were in an odd spot. I wanted Ticket Taker to be in the higher range and Doctor to be in the lower range, but a lot of my first attempts just made them sound too close to the other characters. I know that training could have helped a lot, since a person’s voice is very much like an instrument and can be refined with experience and guidance, but at the time I just wanted to figure something out that worked!

So I go to Neko randomly one day and, as a joke about Doctor’s personal preference for keeping alone or otherwise away from crowds (he’s a bit of a hermit), I ask him: “What if Doctor just grew up on movies and TV shows and decided ‘I like the way this accent sounds, it makes people intimidated, people are already intimidated with me, so why not emulate it?’. And it just becomes part of how he speaks— he loves confusing people!”.

The joke went on for a while, especially as I personally headcanon Doctor as being on the autistic spectrum (I repeat, this is a headcanon, this is not canonical information but is important to the answer) and as an autistic individual myself I love emulating and learning about accents, there’s something enriching about learning all the cool noises/phonemes/language sounds a person can make!

So in short, Doctor has a Russian accent (despite being from Brazil) because of an inside joke between me and Neko while I was developing his voice alongside the others. Its become an important part of his character in a fun, roundabout way and I like to think he’d have fun telling the MC this little fact about himself <3

Edit: And yes, for those interested to know, I do plan to try and be authentic for Pierrot as well since he *technically* should have a Brazilian accent himself as someone who doesn’t verbally speak as often. I’m still working on that! XD

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Will we have more interaction with the other tents? For example, the cyan, blue, and purple tents.

Will we see MC interacting with the other characters without Pierrot's presence?

Yes! Actually, this is part of the script for the next update. There are lots of possibilities and paths to take again, depending on your choices. Pierrot won't be around either.

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Does the jester call the rest of the cast by other nicknames?

Yes! in fact, he has an affectionate nickname for each one

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Hello! Neko, you mentioned that monsters can have siblings... Do any of them have siblings? If the answer isn't a spoiler, of course!

A friend and I have a theory that Jester is the older brother and that's why he's a good leader :)

(I apologise if my English is not very good, it is not my first language.)

Hello! Well, well. I can say that only two characters in the cast do not have siblings

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This question is just out of curiosity, but are the colors of their tents and outfits their favorite colors or do they have different colors they prefer? If so, may we know what they are?

So, actually no, the colors were chosen strategically, but each of them has at least one of the colors they like in their costume!

(I'm sure I've answered this in the past, but some older questions may not be very helpful because I decided to change something in the script >.>)

So their favorite colors are:

Pierrot: Yellow/gold Harlequin: Green, red, and pink Jester: Royal blue, purple, and red Ticket Taker: Shades of blue, purple, and burgundy Doctor: Red, orange, and shades of blue

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I have a question about Harlequin. I find the way he approaches desire really interesting, especially how differently he reacts to deep affection. Would you ever consider an Harlequin angst arc in the future? From what I’ve seen, the fandom seems to really like this idea. It would be amazing to explore his emotional side more and understand his twisted views: especially when it comes to his vision of love. I really can’t wait to see more: thank you so much for all your work, and I’m excited for the plushies 💗

In fact, they all have very complicated and distressing stories. My plan is to show each one to you depending on your choices in the game, and maybe some more things in comics and posts! -Neko

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Hello! Thankyou for bringing so much joy in my life with this game. Here are some questions: 1. Can we know their dominant hand? Or if they're ambidextrous, for Pierrot, Harlequin, Jester, Doctor, and the Ticketmaster ? 2. In the vn, when you visit the black tent enough times to see Harlequin in the background, what is he doing there? chilling? it's been floating in my head rent-free. 3. What food, or drink do Pierrot and Harlequin dislike? That's all, thankyou for your time!

Hello! Wow, I'm glad you like it so much! 1. Pierrot, Harlequin and Ticket Taker are right-handed, Jester is ambidextrous and Doctor is left-handed (he always holds things with his left hand if you notice) 2. He's just relaxing and watching MC from the corner, after all, he knows that MC isn't supposed to get close to the black tent. 3. Harlequin is not particularly fond of sweet foods and drinks, although he may try them depending on what they are. Pierrot does not like lemonade or foods that are very sour or bitter. - Neko

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Hello! I'd like to thank everyone for their amazing work, TFC has been such a huge comfort for me and seeing the people behind it being so sweet warms my heart

Onto the question, do the characters have a human-ish anatomy under the clothes or is their anatomy not considered "conventional beauty standards"? (I'm sorry for the weird English it's not my first language!)

Thank you very much! I'm glad my game comforts you and that you feel at home here haha!

Currently, in addition to working on the update script, I'm also working on the shapes they have under their costumes and well… I can say that none of them have exactly human anatomy. They have some similar characteristics, but… not exactly human, so don't expect them to look too much like humans under their clothes! ^^' - Neko

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just watched the entire TFC voice acting stream from Darthsuki with no breaks 🥹 I can die happy

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AMA 2 – Answers Part 1

This is the second round of the AMA, which came after the update on the day 2. That means the characters’ knowledge here is equivalent to the interactions they had with MC on day 2. I set a few rules for Patreons on how to ask their questions, and I’ll be answering the ones that don’t contain spoilers!

The questions asked to the characters are exclusive to Patreons as a way to thank everyone for their support! However, the answers will be gradually posted on Tumblr on a weekly basis. Patreon Here