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Imagine: Being the youngest Mikaelson and they are really protective over you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3AtDnEC4zak&feature=share I want to know but at the same time I don't.

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Why. What has happened. 24/7, on my mind 24/7 no matter what I do. Why. What have you done to me. I can't. This feeling, I just can't. I don't know what to do. Please stop this. Why. Just WHY

Longing.

It has been three weeks since I've lost you. I still think of you and reminisce on the times when you were still with me. I miss your white, soft, fluffy-ness. I miss how when I was still taking care of you, you would run to me when you see me. I like it how you lick then somehow turn into nibbling me. But now that you are gone, I seriously regret in giving you away. I regret in not seeing you, if not everyday, but at the very least, often. I regret in leaving you alone even when you're literally a couple of blocks away. I regret in everything I have done to you.

Now, all I have left, are pictures of you that I took on my phone. Whenever I see other animals, you instantly come into thought. Each time I go through phone photos and come across you, I immediately pause and taken your cute, adorable-ness and tears would almost instantly fill my eyes. I know lately I've been forgetting you and putting you off to the side, but believe me, you are dearly missed. As each day goes by, you become deeper engraved in my heart.

I miss you so much. I really wish your here, with me.

It has been days since I've last seen you and who would have known that something like that happened. On that day when I knew you were coming, I could not keep my heart calm just knowing I will get to see you. It was a bit long until you came though however, once you came, I just couldn't stop smiling and staring at you. Then the time has come when we had to separate. I wasn't happy when it happened. I wish I didn't had to leave. I wanted to stay with you even if I had to sacrifice other fun things for you. But then, I found out that I will be once again with you for three days and two nights. I couldn't wait until that day come and when it came, I couldn't help but be anxious until the time has come to be with you, but something terrible just has to happen. We could no longer be together and now we can no longer see each other for good. I honestly cannot understand why it had to come down to that. I really want to go back in time and try to prevent things from happening because honestly, I'm willing to do things for you like no others would. I can promise you that what I feel for you will be the same. From the past to the present and into the future. I just want you. I really regret what had happened. I really want to help you and all your families to be better. I want to see you again. I want to be with you again. Please Gods, grant me one more chance just to be able to see her, be with her, touch her, everything possible with her. Please Gods, I beg of you.

Unstable emotions

I don't know what it is but I constantly reminiscence about things that I have "done" with you. I hardly even spent time WITH YOU! But yet, here I am thinking about that the THREE days I was with you. I didn't EVEN get to spend time with you during your time here, all those time that I have spent with you doesn't even add up to FREAKING TWENTY-FOUR HOURS!! I didn't even get to spend an actual day with you!!! There was ALWAYS something that stop me from going to to, stop me from being with, STOP ME FROM SPENDING TIME WITH YOU! Yet the time that I have spent with you, made me happy, I LITERALLY could not stop smiling and just be happy. I look forward to spend time with you. I don't know what this is, I would say that it's just a phase, but this phase is like killing me SLOWLY! I long to see you again. NO I LONG TO BE WITH YOU AGAIN!! I want you to sneak pictures of me like when you were here. I want to come and sit next to me. I want to pull you to the dance floor. I want you to dance with me. I want to give you lap dance. I want you to give me a lap dance. I just want to be next to you. I miss you. I want to see you. I want to go to Canada! I hate this, yet I AM IN LOVE WITH WHAT YOU DID TO ME WHILE YOU WERE HERE!

Need to Know Fact

One Random Fact:

I have extremely separation anxiety. Constantly thinking about the ones I become close to and love.

I miss you. I want to see you. I want to be with you. I want to hold your hands. I want to kiss your cute hands. I want to give you tight, loving hug. I really miss you.

Filled of you.

It finally hit me when I left you at the airport. I am still confused about my feelings for you. I don't know if I really like you in that sense or I just like having you around, it makes me feel less lonely, but whatever it is, now that you are gone, I yearn for you presence to be near me. Ever since I woke up, my mind has been filled with thoughts of you. How I was FORCED to leave you at the airport all alone when you needed me most and how upset you were when you found out i had to leave, I am extremely sorry for that. I really should have return to your side when I had the clearing, but I couldn't because if I did, it would just show I would LITERALLY do EVERYTHING for you, I cannot have that be known. But still, I really should have gone back to you, I am really worried about you, even at this very moment I am worried. I miss you so much. It's been 12 hours since I left you, and the MOMENT I left you, I've already missed you. *sigh* I am such a simp for the ones I fall for.

each day i wake up and the first thing that i think is " will i be lucky enough to get the chance to see you today " i can see why you don't believe when i say that i miss you, but believe me when i say " i miss you " i really do miss you and i miss you even more when we have to go our separate ways after spending time together, whether it be alone or with others. i really miss you, even at this moment, i miss you. i think of you every second of the day until i finally get the chance to see you.

from the bottom of my heart i miss you.

The hard part is deciding whether to text first or not.

You want to talk to them but you don’t want to seem to available or easy. You wait until they text first but then you start to think what if they never text? Then you wonder if they’re trying to do the same thing as you. “Should I just give in and say hi or should I wait to see if they actually want to talk to me?”

I would love waking up next to you.Seeing the person you’re really in to with their eyes closed, no make up, no fitted cap, just the both of you. What a feeling. If I wake up before you, I’ll give you a kiss on your forehead. If you wake up, I’ll tickle you. We could just chill. Cuddle till noon, talk about unicorns and sushi, think about what to eat, etc. I just want to be the first person to make you smile, everyday. :-) One day, it’ll happen.

I like talking to you. You make me feel better about myself and you always find a way to put a smile on my face. When I talk to you, I feel like I don’t need to pretend like I’m someone else. I like how you take me for who I am and what I do. And this may sound cheesy, but I look forward to talking to you each and everyday. The little things you say can make my day go from bad, to good.

“You don’t talk to me anymore.”I only stopped talking to you because every time I try to talk to you, I feel like I annoy you. You always seem too busy for me and besides, if you really wanted to talk to me, you would make time. You would actually put forth some effort. No, I didn’t give up on you, you just never tried.

what the hell i need to stop being all caring and showing my soft side. its stupid, every time i somehow get hurt with them in the end. ahhh this is not good i need to toughen up and not worry about others, only to a point that i KNOW i won't hurt me. what is wrong with me, AHHHHH!!! I HATE THIS!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!! i need an intervention ....

seeing you feels like i'm doing something wrong cause when i see you, i think of another but i do really care for you, honest just that this other person is constantly growing on me i hate it how it's being like that i care for you, i really do all day i just wanted to be there for you to play with you to nurse you to health, since be sick i don't know, when i'm with the other, i feel like happy don't get me wrong now, i am happy with you too, always am, always will i guess you can that i am spending a bit too much with the other when i should be trying to use that time and be with you i don't know, it's hard to explain, but just know that you ARE in my mind all day, EVERYday.

don't know why but after talking to a certain someone whom i've been trying to help be with another person got me all sad, why is that?? it's not like i have feelings for that person, i really don't... do i?? i feel really confused now. damn i can't be feeling like this for this person, for crying out loud, I'M HELPING THAT PERSON GET WITH ANOTHER AHH!!!!! stupid stupid stupid!! i guess you can say that this could be one of the reasons why i usually isolate myself from people... :/

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