going to try an asmr massage treatment next week! I'm excited for the hair play and neck tracing. I've seen videos online of similar treatments and they seem soooo relaxing. I feel like it's important I have some kind of physical touch based self-care activity as I am rarely ever attracted to bodies lol and I was so touch deprived until I moved in with my physically affectionate roommate. I don't want to be that touch deprived that I flinch away from physical touch or maintain so much physical distance from others. it was a long period of being disconnected to that need so I'm trying to be more intentional about having physical contact with others
i'm a little nervous about my "bixie" haircut next month. i was very confident about it at first and looking hot. but some people, mainly men, around me that i have shown the cut have been like "don't do it" or "don't show me again, i'm scared" likee stfu. i hate when men make me doubt myself. they have no legs to stand on with their no taste t-shirts and shorts. you could never be this brave and cool.
god everything is so dumb now. just fucking larp and botox and twitch and looksmaxxing and microplastics and kick streaming??? and polyester and ai and tech companies and meta glasses and ozempic and 4500 terms for micro trends originating from tiktok and everything is an ad and everything is a subscription service and we own nothing and rent is 4k a month and nobody can own homes and all the food is fake and the animals are full of chemicals and the world is getting hotter and apparently there's nothing we can fucking do about it. everything is so dumb.
Always always always tell people you love they are so smart and capable. I will die on this hill. More often than not people are raised in unforgiving environments that tell them they are inherently “stupid” and not good enough for things, whether that be parents or cruel bosses or unsupportive friends. An underrated way of supporting people is reminding them they are brilliant no matter what anyone has ever said about their intellect and potential. People can do wonders when it’s affirmed to them their limiting beliefs are just that: limiting beliefs.
Hey. If people aren't aware, Microsoft admitted they know who you and where you are at all times and will give your info to the police.
They have a Global Device Identifier (GDID) Tracker that functions as a fingerprint for your PC that can surpass VPNs, proxy servers and countries. Although it can't survive a clean reinstall of Windows (it can survive updates), because Microsoft forces you to go to the internet and log in into a Microsoft account, they will be able to get to you.
Microsoft kept it secret and it was only found out when the FBI tracked a hacker thanks to the information Microsoft gave them.
You should be paying attention to this, and possibly consider moving away from Windows. If a government, especially the US government, doesn't like you for some reason, this could be seriously concerning.
This article specifically notes:
For journalism, activism, or domestic abuse situations, skip Windows and use Linux routed through Tor instead of a commercial VPN. A GDID doesn’t care which VPN you use, only that it’s still the same Windows installation.
GDID is the persistent Windows ID that helped FBI trace a Scattered Spider hacker despite VPNs. Here's how it works and how to limit it.
Other important quotes:
What has researchers uneasy is everything else the case reveals. Costin Raiu, a well-known malware researcher, asked on the Three Buddy Problem podcast how much of this exists on other platforms, and whether it is linked more permanently to hardware. Matthew Hickey, another security researcher, called Windows “surveillance software”.
Two things back that up:
There’s no consent screen. A GDID gets assigned when you sign into a Microsoft Account. Apple’s advertising identifier needs an App Tracking Transparency prompt and a visible reset; Android’s works the same way. GDID has neither, and a Windows reinstall only gets you a new number Microsoft can still get back to the same account.
Then there’s activation. Massgrave, the group behind Microsoft Activation Scripts, notes that Windows setup sends hardware info to Microsoft and gets identifiers back, the same tokens later used for Store access and licensing: “It’s impossible to prevent Windows from getting a GDID without breaking activation and UWP app[s].” Anyone who lost a license after swapping a motherboard has already met a smaller version of this.
