I was just thinking that, as much as I love Laito, I don’t genuinely think I could date him. Even ignoring the fact that I’m a lesbian.
I just don’t think I would survive. Because I wouldn’t be able to be like Yui and stand by and not say too much about his issues to him. And we know Laito either 1) completely shuts down or 2) just fucking kills you when you even slightly mention his trauma. And opening up is something he REALLY needs to work on, so… yeah no. As well as his self-hatred issues that he takes out on others. I couldn’t do it, I don’t have Yui’s patience.
I WOULD however date Subaru. I’d tease the absolute fuck outta him. For funsies <33
heyyyy :3 i’ve been seeing you post moodboards/collages and they’re all so pretty, i took a look through past ones and i couldn’t find one like this so IF you’re up to it, i’d love to see a laito and ayato moodboard, like their relationship as brothers‼️ again, if ya wanna‼️
Their relationship throughout their lives, rooted since childhood, has been one shrouded with pent-up resentment and boiled down anguish.
Majorly on Laito’s side of things, he feels bitterness (as displayed within Canon Routes) towards Ayato and how his own abuse pertaining the incestual relations with his mother transpired.
I’d like to think that Laito tells himself he’s over it, but he’s not.
Not when Ayato can walk away unscathed—the waves of wrath seeking to drown away his sorrows and plights—unharmed, and barely maimed by Cordelia’s attacks.
Not when Ayato is pure.
Unlike him. A man who’s rotted down to nothing more than the maggots and ants that sought to tear apart each and every sliver of his meat and crawl around his lumpy crooked bones.
Laito is not pure. He will never be.
Seven years when he begins the rebirth of new cells to accompany his vessel, will he still find no use in purging the old, scrubbing his insides with the new.
“Apoptosis!” He cries. Albeit benignly asinine.
He was rotten.
Fragile in his masculinity, Laito lacks the fundamentals to truly "feel" like "a man", majorly due to Cordelia's influence. Where the dualism comes in is through Ayato; wherein his insistence on presenting a formidable front stands to reason that he'd divert away from his insecurity.
Ayato can't differentiate between pity and sympathy when referring to Laito, for Laito's walls tend to tick him off more than he'd admit. It's infuriating as it is frustrating to seem as if one is talking to a wall.
Another thing I'd like to think about is that during the sexual abuse, Laito would become overly sensitive to the scent of Cordelia's perfume. A mix of deep merlot, cherry, and notes of deep wood would stand to haunt him evermore.
He'd also use a night light.
(Still does; do not let him fool you. The dark triggers his sensorial organs, especially his olfactory glands [the nose])
He gets overly sensitive to smells in general, so he'd most likely enjoy the scent of a warm vanilla--nothing cinnamon or spicy--but perhaps even fresh cut linen that would aid his comfortability.
Ayato hasn't caught on to it yet, but subconsciously he's taken some sort of memo to avoid the cinnamon. He wasn't so sure.
Ayato wishes they were closer; however, he cannot be sure.
What if vampires in DL could actually live a thousand times longer than the average human, for 80 to 100 thousand years?
Which means that even Karlheinz would still be relatively young for a vampire at 2,000 years old—While the Sakamaki brothers are just getting started at 300~400.
Thoughts?
I believe this is actually how it works, yes!! I’m not sure we get canon lengths of time, but there is mention of them being older than their percieved ages; at least existing for longer. There’s probably better proof, but Odessa’s Curse is the first CD that came to mind with this:
Now we don’t get actual times, but they do reference it being a long time ago. As well as the use of the words nobleman and village/villagers, one can assume this took place at least longer than 17 years ago (since that’s Laito’s age). And I guess there could be an argument made for this taking place in the Demon Realm which still uses this terminology, but because Odessa was originally human I think not.
I personally believe they’re still mentally their physical ages, though, because their brain would age with their bodies. If their bodies took a long time to age, so would their brains if that makes sense. So they’ve been around for hundreds of years, but they’re still mentally whatever ages it says they are.
But every other day I rmbr that yuma eats people 💀 like bro that's your old team what u doing man
I don’t think anyone really talks about this, but I think it should be known that it isn’t JUST a Yuma thing. For example, they mention it in this Drama CD:
It really only seems some of the others DON’T eat people is because it’s too much hassle.
the capris are killing me bc of laito's pale skinny calves and ankles 😭
I KNOW RIGHT every time we see their legs in their sprites it gives me whiplash- I feel like a victorian man seeing a woman’s ankles for the first time
if you’re wondering why the styles are different between this and my earlier laito drawing, it’s because i haven’t drawn digitally in a while so i’m getting back into the swing of things…
Ignoring the jokes of ‘Laito having tens of thousands of kids’ that float around this topic, I do genuinely want to take a moment to think about Laito actually having kids. I didn’t wanna hijack @koripasta’s post, but it is what inspired me to make this so I’m tagging them.
It would have to be on accident. Even if he was with someone he truly loved and they were settled down and married, that would not be a choice he’d make on his own. Anytime he’d be asked by his significant other, he’d always brush it off. Change the subject. Be playful, saying things such as “Oh, aren’t I already enough for you, Bitch-chan?”
That’s not to say he doesn’t want kids. But no matter how much work he’d have done on himself, how many problems he’s dealt with, there’d always be that fear nagging at him. That he’d hurt them. Scar them. Do what was done to him and his brothers. Never on purpose, but he’s very aware of his faults. Too aware at times; it can blind him to his strengths.
And so if his partner were to get pregnant, after his initial reaction of panic, he would depend on said partner’s thoughts. He’s already shown to be alright with going through things he wasn’t completely sure about for his partner’s want, that’s why he got married in the first place. If they believe he would be good at being a father, and especially if this was something they’d want, then he’d at least try.
I think that, no matter how many children he ends up having (though two is always what I imagine), they’d all be girls. I don’t know why, I just don’t see him with a son. Instead, I think two girls about two or three years apart from each other would be about right. He’d be a great girl dad.
He had since he was a kid. Though maybe it wasn’t as much as he does now. At first, it was because of jealousy. Watching Ayato get all the attention while he got none. He knew it was bad attention, that was clear from how Ayato would cry, but… it was still attention. What did Ayato have that he didn’t?
Then it was disgust. Because eventually Laito was told he did have something worthwhile to others. Something She would only show him, only give to him.
And he hated it. He hated the way it made his skin crawl, his hands shake. How that lump would form in the back of his throat whenever he thought about it. Deep down, he knew something was wrong. But who was he to complain, when he was finally getting the attention he so desperately craved.
One could imagine, then, how it would hurt to see that the one thing he had wasn’t special. How She’d go to other men just as easily as She had went to him. That’s when the jealousy came back, but it didn’t replace the disgust. Only added to it.
It made sense when he got punished, in that cell. Because obviously he deserved that, right? He wanted the attention, and ended up complaining when he got it.
And so killing Her was bittersweet. God, was he grateful that She was gone, but… still. There was a part of him — a small part, but a part nonetheless — that fought against it. Watching the others didn’t make it better. How Ayato despised Her with his entire being. It was so easy for him. Laito wished he could be like that. That all these conflicting feelings could go away. That everything would be clear and could make sense.
He didn’t hate Ayato. Not really. But on lonely dark nights, when he’d think about everything, he’d remember how Ayato saw. How Ayato knew, and did nothing. He was a kid too, the logical part of his brain rationalized, but… the rest of him resented his brother. Laito resented how Ayato could just go on most days like nothing happened. How unbroken he seemed in comparison to Laito.
Now, the self hatred is a part of him. It’s always there, under the smiles and suggestive words. Settled deep in his chest, under his heart. And when it gets hungry, he goes out. Meets a woman. Flirts with her, gets her in his bed.
Gives the darkness another reason to hate himself.
Because he doesn’t react like a ‘normal’ victim would. No, instead of shying away from everything, he embraces it. He doesn’t feel repulsed by sex even after what he’s gone through. What She’s put him through.
As one reads more Drama CDs, it becomes increasingly apparent that 1) Reiji is a saint for putting up with ALL of them, Mukamis and Tsukinamis included, and 2) he deserves either extreme monetary compensation or permission to kill them all
when i tell you i’ve never felt more bad for this man than when he made HIS favorite food for subaru (because subaru doesn’t have one) and both subaru and kanato ate the whole thing without saving any for him. and he had made two servings so he WOULD be able to have some.
mind you this was AFTER making the other four their respective favorite foods, ALREADY including kanato’s sweets, and got not one single thanks
and then subaru and ayato start to fight and wreak the whole place
my man just wanted his tea time and this is what happens 😭😭😭
Yui on her own ruminating over the fact that Ayato is indeed a sadistic vampire, one who has committed numerous atrocities throughout the hundreds of years that he's been roaming this earth. She's already long known of Ayato's nature and that he's most likely done vile and heinous things to countless mortals like her.. But she never really took the time to sit down and actually think about it thoroughly. Maybe a part of her didn't want to think about the details of it all. Would it be better if she just lived in ignorance? No, she had to know.
One day, while the two are lounging together in bed, Yui turns to Ayato and asks him the first question that shoots into her brain.
