Today is my birthday. I’m kinda flailing in life lately, it seems. I’m being nostalgic. I’m missing loved ones that have passed. I miss passions I used to have. I miss feeling like I had so much time to figure things out. I think getting older sucks in the sense that you feel you should have accomplished all the “normal” goals and if you haven’t, you failed. Currently, my car is broken down so I’m borrowing my friend’s second vehicle. I’m in between jobs so I’ve gone through all my savings and am borrowing from my parents. My mental health is okay considering, and my physical health is pretty decent. All of this to say: I think everything happens for a reason and that everything is going to be okay. Even if it isn’t okay right now, it will be eventually. I’ve been through a lot of hardships in my life and have come out on the other side. “I am a part of all that I have met.” All the good and bad things have made me who I am. So even if I’m struggling right now and accepting help from people who love me and want to help, even if I’m feeling unsure and nervous, I think I’m headed towards something I’m supposed to be headed towards. There’s an end point mapped out in front of me; I just have to find the path.
