GET A LIFE!

Korun. 19. UPLB.

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Where did your happiness go?

Sometimes from the outside you really look happy, but inside you're facing a battle with yourself. You really can't be sad, 'coz it's not expected of you. Life is so demanding that you just let it eat the whole of you. Breathe. How you wish you could just leave all of this and go where your heart tells you to.. Rest. Maybe it's all you need. You're heart is just as confused as your mind is, and you just don't know where to go.. Stop. There's no point to all of this so end this suffering. Or move. Little by little, I know you can find it.. the meaning of life, and the reason why you're here. #depression@Nov920161029PM

[psychofactz]

Normal stress or anxiety disorder?

Everyone feels anxious at times. Challenges such as workplace pressures, public speaking, highly demanding schedules or writing an exam can lead to a sense of worry, even fear. These sensations, however uncomfortable, are different from the ones associated with an anxiety disorder. People suffering from an anxiety disorder are subject to intense, prolonged feelings of fright and distress for no obvious reason. The condition turns their life into a continuous journey of unease and fear and can interfere with their relationships with family, friends, and colleagues.

Anxiety disorders are the most common of all mental health problems. It is estimated that they affect approximately 1 in 10 people. They are more prevalent among women than among men, and they affect children as well as adults. Anxiety disorders are illnesses. They can be diagnosed; they can be treated.

But all too often, they are mistaken for mental weakness or instability, and the resulting social stigma can discourage people with anxiety disorders from seeking help. Understanding the facts about anxiety disorders is an important step. Realising that they are medical disorders which can be treated will help to remove the stigma, and encourage people with anxiety disorders to explore the treatments available.

Some of the signs to look for are:

• Panic Disorder - As the name suggests, panic disorder is expressed in panic attacks which occur without warning, accompanied by sudden feelings of terror. Physically, an attack may cause chest pain, heart palpitations, shortness of breath, dizziness, abdominal discomfort, feelings of unreality and fear of dying. When a person avoids situations that he or she fears may cause a panic attack, his or her condition is described as panic disorder with agoraphobia.

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What are the symptoms of bipolar disorder?

Bipolar “mood episodes” include unusual mood changes along with unusual sleep habits, activity levels, thoughts, or behavior. People may have manic episodes, depressive episodes, or “mixed” episodes. A mixed episode has both manic and depressive symptoms. These mood episodes cause symptoms that last a week or two or sometimes longer. During an episode, the symptoms last every day for most of the day.

Mood episodes are intense. The feelings are strong and happen along with extreme changes in behavior and energy levels.

People having a manic episode may:

Feel very “up” or “high”

Feel “jumpy” or “wired”

Have trouble sleeping

Become more active than usual

Talk really fast about a lot of different things

Be agitated, irritable, or “touchy”

Feel like their thoughts are going very fast

Think they can do a lot of things at once

Do risky things, like spend a lot of money or have reckless sex

People having a depressive episode may:

Feel very “down” or sad

Sleep too much or too little

Feel like they can’t enjoy anything

Feel worried and empty

Have trouble concentrating

Forget things a lot

Eat too much or too little

Feel tired or “slowed down”

Have trouble sleeping

Think about death or suicide

Reference: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/bipolar-disorder/index.shtml

Pano gagawin pag laging malungkot

Pag laging galit

Minsan gusto ko nalang mawala sa mundo

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June 2018

Damn headache!

At 12AM on my birthday, I had a simple chocolate cake! It was nice and not too sweet. Then I had to go to work for the day.

On the evening of my birthday, I thanked everyone that greeted me. I’m grateful that they remembered me. <3 I didn’t have dinner. I watched Terrace House on Netflix before I cried myself to sleep thinking that this day was spoilt because I let it be. 

The next morning, which is today, I woke up to the sound of thunders and rain, and checked the clock -- it’s 515AM. I feel so mad that I cannot stay still and continue to sleep. I don’t want any special days or any day ruined ever again...

It’s around 630AM, and I’m awake for like 1 hour now and my head is aching so much. Maybe I lack sleep -- I’ve been sleeping past 1 am this whole week from watching too much, and longing for that Friday night yesterday to come so I can recover and have some nice long sleep, but no! I wasn’t able to give myself that gift of rest.

And right now, I cannot go back sleep with so much on my mind and lots of things I need to do today.

My birthday wish is simply to be happy, and I guess I couldn’t get that on the day itself. I hope that for the rest of the days it will come true. I’ve had so much for these past few months, or was it even since last year, that all I want is to escape all these sad thoughts and paranoia that my mind creates. I just want to be free from all of this and live happily without thinking too much.

I am writing to calm myself -- all of these are just inside my head ‘coz I’m used to keeping my problems and worries to myself. And it’s a relief that I'm able to let it out a bit through this post.

Moving forward -- now that I’ve turned 26, I hope that these anxieties and pressures are just part of the so-called Quarter Life crisis, and that soon it will go away as days pass by. Or maybe I’m just too tired and need to slow down? Either way, I hope to be able to take on life positively from now on.

It’s almost 730, but it’s still raining and the sun is not here yet. Anyway, thanks Tumblr, now I’ll try to drink paracetamol to stop this stupid headache. I need to prepare a few things for tomorrow’s flight and I’m not yet ready for the conference next week.. I just hope everything will be alright.

Aiyah! I just want to be carefree! And I want more sleep, please!

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For that kind of love

... I guess.

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What does it mean to be free and happy?

I’ve been longing for that...

[meanwhilepoetry]

The greatest lessons you will ever learn; how to love someone without trying to own or belong to them, and how to let go gracefully of the things and the people that hurt you.

Nikita Gill (via meanwhilepoetry)

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Moving forward

Now that we’ve fixed and settled most of the hurdles, I think I can have time now to think things over

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June

1. Free of sickness

2. Bed was finally in place after so many weeks

3. New room is kinda pretty fixed. Though crowded. For now, priority is saving money (???)

4. Getting used to new house <-> new office location travel (approx 1+ hour one way). Time is the price I have to pay for that bit of money I used to pay for the rent. Do you think it’s worth it? Let’s see

5. A lot of times I am emotional -- thinking of things

6. Undecided with my life

7. Still the same. Still got so many things I wanted to try. Time where are you?

8. Supposedly good news in the office tenure, but the bad news took over of me having used excess leaves. Good thing, it was settled

9. I need time

10. I SERIOUSLY NEED SOME TIME TO MYSELF TO THINK

Sometimes you just ask yourself of your spur-of-the-moment and ever-changing decisions.. IS IT WORTH IT? Things are SO DIFFERENT now, many things were sacrificed, and we just have to accept the fact that this is the way our life goes. 

Can we just press the RESET button and start again?

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I’ve got a clouded mind right now

So many thoughts, every day, every minute, every night

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So many things happened today

With only 5 hours of sleep, my day started at 8AM, now it’s 8PM, many things happened in between...

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Come happy days

After the bad incident that ruined your weekend, days when you just feel sick, and moments when you're indecisiveness is pulling & pushing you on your current situation, now happy days are here. Package for my cousin finalky arrived after the delay in USPS! And my package is now with the delivery courier after the long wait! Hooray!!

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There are these moments when you feel so lonely

When you are alone and have time to think.. you tend to think of all the actions you made wrong, of the things you regret, of the words you don’t purposely mean but said, of the persons you hurt, of the ideas you badly wanna do but you’re overcome with so much worries, of all the time you wasted, and of the happy memories that you’re not sure if you can experience again. In short, all these sorrows you buried deep inside, came out to tear you up once in a while.

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Matagal ko ng pangarap makakita ng sakura pero sabi ko, autumn nalang ako pupunta ulit ng JP para fiery red all over (kesa pale pink), tsaka mahirap timingan ang spring para sa bloom ng sakura, at kailangan ding mag-ipon muna. Hehe.

Di ko akalain na magdadala sila dito sa SG ng cherry blossom! Grabe, sobrang saya ko. Dream come true! <3 Hanggang sa makauwi kami, sobrang saya ko.

Sakura fever na yata ito. As in lahat ng pwedeng lagyan ng Sakura wallpaper, nilagyan ko na. Pati cellphone casing, nilagyan ko ng dried petals ng sakura. Syempre, mga nalaglag na yun na dinampot ko lang. :P Kahit brown na yung petals, nilagay ko pa din. Pano ba magpreserve ng flower? Hehe.

🌸 I love sakura. 🌸

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Grabe na talaga epekto sakin ng On The Wings Of Love.. Nababaliw na yata ako??? 

Sobrang kinikilig ako sa unang parts, as in tili sa sobrang kilig. At tawang tawa din. Tapos hindi ko matigilan kakapanuod sa gabi, yung tipong puyat na puyat na ko - 2AM! Parang wala ng nasa utak ko kundi OTWOL. Excited na ko umuwi para lang makanuod na agad agad.

Tapos minsan napapaiyak nalang ako. EP 42 yata yun, nung nagkita na sila ng nanay niya.. Damang dama ko yung drama niya. Tapos naiyak din ako sa episode na kinausap si Clark at Leah ni Tatang Sol. Parang ang bigat ng feeling ko sa sad scenes.

Bigla akong naging fan ni James Reid at Nadine Lustre! Initially, hindi ko napapansin si James, especially nung nasa PBB. Tapos nung nagka movies sila, hindi ko naman pinanuod.. Nababalitaan ko lang. Tapos yung girl, nung first time kong nakita (not in person), like ko naman. Nagagandahan ako, simple lang pero maganda. Nung nagkaserye sila, di naman ako nakanuod. Nakikita kita ko lang sa Instagram. Nagkaron lang yata ako ng chance mapanuod yung 1 episode nung Feb 8, nung nasa Pinas ako. Parang ang scene nun ay nagbabalak pumunta ng ibang bansa si Leah.. Tapos mag-asawa si James at Nadine. Di ko pa kilala character names nila that time. Medyo naguluhan ako bakit mag-asawa.

Tapos dahil sa concert, sandamakmak sa IG feed ko yung JaDine, lalo na’t umamin sila na sila na. Dahil yata dun, nadala ako na manuod ng series nila. Recently, last Monday, Feb 29, nagtry lang akong manuod, isa lang sabi ko. Tapos wala, ganun talaga, tuluy-tuloy na.. SOBRANG GANDA. Ewan ko ba, parang tagos sa puso. <3 Maganda din kasi yung matututunan dun. At syempre, relate na relate yung pusong OFW ko, at hindi lang yun, parang relate yung buong pagkatao ko. “Charot lang” haha. Para kasing tinackle niya yung karamihan ng mga nararanasan nating problema sa araw-araw, kahit simple, tungkol sa pamilya, o sa pag-ibig man.

Ayun, tapos nakabisado ko na yung On The Wings of Love na song kaka-loop. Ngayon yung Say You’ll Never Go naman tinatry ko. At nakikinig na din ako ng songs ni James Reid at Nadine! Magaling pala sila kumanta at sumayaw pareho!! Maganda’t gwapo pa! Sobrang talented pala nila, as in! So yun, sobrang fan na ako... <3 Sana forever kayo. Clark & Leah, James & Nadine.<3

I hope pumunta kayo sa SG at may Meet and Greet! <3 At sana may mabili pa yung pinsan ko (for meeee) na solo albums niyo at merch! :)

P.S. JaDine photo from Google.

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I pray everyone will be happy and healthy

Happy and healthy

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The girl with an attitude