he delayed the plan for me to stay at his place and then literally on his way to pick me up changed his mind and didn't want me to stay over anymore. also told me that he hadn't gotten ready at all and was in pajamas while i had gotten dolled up and made him cupcakes and gave our dog a bath so she would be nice and clean and could cuddle. i feel like i put a lot of effort in and was excited, and i made sure that i wasn't forgetting anything and got everything done i needed to beforehand because one of our biggest fights was about me being forgetful (even though i have diagnosed memory issues) and me not doing chores or not managing my time well. so i put a lot of time and effort into our plans just for him to put negative energy into it. i told him last night that i don't want things to go back to how they used to be if we're getting back together and that we both need to do some things differently, but i think he believes that i'm the only one who has to change at all. everyone in my life tells me that he gaslights me and is mean to me and has anger issues, but no, I'M the only one that needs to change
