On a Journey in life to bring forth the Black

This blog will be an ongoing collection of general information about me, my life and the things that I love, as well as a somewhat in depth collection of thoughts, feelings, messages and divine communications from my gods. My writings will NOT be published here. If you'd like to read those, you'll have to convince me that you're genuine, which isn't easy. This blog is, first and foremost, for me, to help me keep track of my own spiritual journey in a concise and time stamped format. But if my experiences and insight can inspire just one other person who is just stepping into a similar journey, then making this public will have served a secondary purpose.

[kristiina218]

When I think that my detachment cannot get any stronger, it does. When I feel that my body cannot get any more inhuman, it does. When I think that my hatred has reached its potential, it grows stronger. And when I think of my promises fulfilled, I see the days come closer. True liberation is coming and the Azoth is becoming explosive with impatience. When there is so much left for the mundane mind to learn, well, re learn, but the spirit already knows its true self, the vessel becomes a volcano, threatening everything in its path.

I see less and less point for this blog now that its two purposes have been served. I may update, I may not.

[jon-nodtveidt-blog]

In my own point of view Satan does not represent evil. To me Satan represents total goodness, liberation and no limitations.

Jon Nödtveidt (via jon-nodtveidt)

[kristiina218]

WATAIN - My Fists Are Him + Watain (VON cover) - anno 2005

Live in St.Petersburg, Russia, 27.08.2005 a.b. @ Arctica Club A part of never released official video by www.fffeast.com - just to prove that it does exist! ...

This is seriously fucking amazing video and sound quality and it's almost impossible to find a vid of them playing this. Share the fuck out of it.

[breanthir-laufeyson-the-jedi]

Watain, 2002 x

[kristiina218]

Jesus fuck, my life is now complete.

[bunnybundy]

Unfriendly reminder that dressing up in ridiculous looking clothes and dying your hair unfortunate shades and generally looking like a fucking asshole does not make you a Satanist.

Wearing black all the time and complaining impotently about how much you’d like to die and/or kill those around you...

[kristiina218]

Well said, my sister.

[kristiina218]

It is almost embarrassing how much I love this man. Almost. 

[gatesofisengard]

[kristiina218]

Two of the most beautiful photos I have seen in ages. I cannot get over them. Publicly fangirling, get over it.

[occult-lucidity]

The Tree of Death: According to Israel Regardie, the qlipothic tree consists of 10 spheres in opposition to the sephiroth on the Tree of Life. These are also referred to as the “evil twins”. They are also the “Evil Demons of Matter and the Shells of the Dead.” - Wikipedia

[kristiina218]

Well that was unsettling. And terrifying. And beautiful. I am always listening, my vessel is always open. But I hear you. Loud and clear. Guess it's time for some serious analyzing. Wow.

[kristiina218]

Very rarely do I post anything that isn't serious here, but this is my life right now. So appreciate, laugh or fuck off.

[theproserpina]

Since you obviously believe in Satan and know he exist, do you beilive/know that God exist as well? Like having a good balancing out the bad

you’re wrong actually, i don’t believe in Satan, as such, i believe higher powers exist. Just because i’m a Satanist, that doesn’t mean i worship Satan, in fact Satanism is an atheistic based faith. Its only called Satanism because it essentially embraces all things deemed as Satanic by the Christian church.

[totalfvneral666-deactivated2014]

Omg this girl, what a motherfucking joke.

[theproserpina]

excuse you? ^  eat a dick, rude bitch.

[f-cked-p]

See, this right here is why we need muzzles for stupid fucking bitches like totalfvneral. Please go look up Satanism before you give yourself the idea you get a right an opinion. The only motherfucking joke here is you. Here’s your list of search items to expand your horizon: 1. Theistic/Spiritual Satanism 2. LaVeyan Satanism 3. Luciferianism Once you’re done, you can come back with an opinion. Have a nice day now. C:

[totalfvneral666-deactivated2014]

So funny how this cunt thinks I know nothing about Satanism. My dear, I don’t have to do any research as matter fact you should be the one realizing that LaVey and his stupid philosophy are in fact NOT SATANISM! His stupid “atheistic” bullshit standards are highly disregarded by Luciferians and ACTUAL THEISTIC SATANISTS! We despise LaVey! Just because he decided to call whatever humanistic shit he came up with “satanism” doesn’t mean it is. Where both of you are wrong, is that this whore seasonsofthewitch decided to claim that Satanism as a whole was not really about worshiping Satan, again that LaVeyan bullshit. Both of you should really stay away from terms you are far from understanding for your own well being, again, just because someone thought it was hip to call their believes “Satanism” doesn’t mean it is, get a the fuckinhg point !? If anyone here is a joke, and needs to do research before getting an opinion is both you. :)

[kristiina218]

Oh boy, I'm gonna get involved in a brain argument with unarmed people now. If "Satanism" is an "atheistic based faith," why do you people feel the need to use the word "Satan" to represent yourselves? This is, of course, a rhetorical question because I know the answer already. What you and your showman LaVey have done for decades now is ride the coattails of something incredibly sacred and powerful and have used it for shock value and recognition. Without the "controversial" name, no one would take your belief system seriously. And before you call me ignorant, I read the Satanic Bible 13 years ago. But the fact of the matter is, I don't give a single fuck what you believe. I give a fuck though that you think there is only one type of Satanism. Which is entirely ignorant. This is like saying that there is one type of Christianity or one type of Islam. And that that one general term consumes them all. As an MLO Satanist...you know, one that actually worships Satan, and the many other gods associated with the path...or maybe you don't know...I recognize that other "Satanists" exist and I do not try to claim that my Satanism is the only Satanism. Is it the only correct one? Well, that is a point I will argue at another date. But, like any person of true conviction, of course I would argue that my path is the right one. And this brings me to another point on which no fucks will be given: whether or not you or anyone else agrees with me. Perhaps you should meet a few people who represent real theistic Luciferianism and talk to them like mature human beings and learn a few things about why this idea of yours is so far fetched. I know that you build yourselves up to be gods in your own right, whereas we, we tear ourselves down into the nothing that we are. Do forgive if this sounds like an attempt at conversion, I would NEVER suggest that. People like you are not for this path, that is clear. But a broader knowledge base might do you well.

And I'll just sit here and wait for any of these people to bash me with a high school response now :D

[kristiina218]

It is so much easier to hate than to love. Many say that they are two sides to the same coin, but this is very wrong. Hate is stronger, hate is natural, hate is primal. I've never heard a person "try" to hate someone or something, but people "try" to love all the time. This is because hatred is a survival technique. One that goes far back before man became "civilized" and "taught" to love his brothers. Love and acceptance are tools of pacification. Tools of control. But hatred is sewn into the fabric of man and beast alike. For is man not the only creature who tries to place himself above all others? And he does so with fabricated notions of right and wrong. Right and wrong, good and evil, white and black, are all man made concepts, and giving into these mundane interpretations is just another chain tying us to this illusion. I challenge you to break these chains and give in to that primal chaos. Recognize the animal within yourself and embrace it.

[kristiina218]

When you see the Fire inside, flowing like the most venemous lava, you feed it, you watch it ignite, you wait. And then it erupts and you know you've done well. Blood is thicker than water, but fire is will swallow it all. Welcome home.

[black-metal-punk]

Death is the orgasm of Life.

Jon Nödtveidt - Dissection (via shrine-of-perdition)

[babeimgonnaleaveu]

so if you’re not obsessed with bands or musicians what exactly do you do with your life

[kristiina218]

Let chaos grab hold of you, let the darkness fuck you.

Erik Danielsson