"I want to believe. But I need a place to start"

Full time Alex Krycek selfshipper (36; DO HAVE romantic/sexual attraction, latter thoughts are on my other blog!) NHL, NASCAR, Pokémon, Magical Girl anime (though I don't let the latter two define me.)

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Me the other day watching three S1 epis of The Commish: "He's gonna be SIXTY-FOUR soon".

And today, he is!

Happy birthday Nicholas Lea!

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Everyone posting 'bout meeting the cast (including Nick) at the Fan Expo in Denver...

Me: "You lucky bastards! I'd cut off my left arm to meet the man who gave life to my F/O!"

Can't wait to see all the pics and video though!

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Another dual Alex/Ricky thing.

This time, I made the images equal size.

1991 or 1999, Nick looked good!

"Incredible is this lovely face from the 90s"...

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Found this graphic on another site... and decided to personalize it for me.

Pretty much sums it up.

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Sometimes, I wonder if off-screen, Alex had to go find somewhere to cry. I mean, after ALL THE CRAP HE WENT THROUGH, between being locked in the silo, losing his arm and the rest... you have to feel bad for him as a Ratboy Defender. I just watched "Tunguska"/"Terma" today, after watching "PM"/"Apocry" last night again, could you not tell? My poor baby!

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Many more years of me commiting hate crimes with that on every post.

And Alex hates him too!

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Been taking advantage of the XF channel on Pluto! So. Much. OF THAT BOY! Plus, "Tunguska" and "Terma" were on last night! Oh my, I am a HAPPY GIRL!

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ME AND ALEX KRYCEK!

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Me everytime I try to ask Alex to read something in Russian: "What am I, your translator?" I'm reminded of this every time I watch the "wacky Russian adventure" arc (i.e. "Tunguska"/"Terma")

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"I'm not attracted to his actor, just the charas he plays"

Fine, but why can't it be both true? I mean, I wouldn't have fallen for Ricky Caruso if Nick hadn't both played him and Alex! (And just know I'm gonna fall for his chara in Once A Thief, once I finally get around to watching it!) He was a pretty boy! The 25 year age difference 'tween him and I is a bit of a deterrant, but back from 1991-2001, PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY! I often look back on all the stupid boy bands from like 1999 or so and say, "Why did I find some of THOSE guys hot when there were guys like Nick Lea on the loose back then?" I'm sure if I would have stumbled upon The X Files then, I know I'd would have been drooling over Alex even sooner than I actually did! So it's both for me. At least if someone just handwaved my selfship to both Alex and Ricky as "Oh, she just loves Nicholas Lea a bit much", I'd be amused not insulted!

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Kyle Larson won the championship.

All I can say to that is...

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Made a couple of screencap edits with this camera filter app I got. The idea was to theme it to shots where Alex wasn't facing the camera.

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If these weebs anime/manga/J-Game selfshippers/fictos were serious in their relationships, they'd be using the actual words for "wife" (妻, tsuma) and "husband" (夫, otto). Not words that sound like someone with a sterotypical Asian accent would use. I once got told it sounded borderline racist, and I do see it. Personally, I think it looks much classier (though my two boys aren't Japanese, but if they were, I'd use them). Think 'bout it.

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(Ironically enough, I had just taken a shower before I saw the bottom comment!)

Why are people like this? And "unemployment" being a part of it, when I know that isn't the case with some. Otherwise, how would they get the money to pay for their F/Os merch (if any)!

Ficto-clueless at work again.

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So, as a personal joke, I refer to CSM as "that guy" ('cause in my early viewings, every time I'd see him, I'd say, "IIIIITTTSS... THAT GUY!") Well, I've also started refering to Alex as "That Boy", but I mean it in this case as shorthand for "oh, that boy... is ADORABLE!" Still funny though.

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Who's this dickweed? Hilarious that, if the moron had actually read my main (this is from the ask box of my horny Alex posts blog), they'd know that I abhor the "waifuist" label for myself.

I may be "not well" in the eyes of many, but at least I don't go 'round annono-trolling.

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Main gripes on finding "90s aesthetic" images. (AKA "Miss Hotaru is nitpicky for an extremely petty reason")

THEY BLEND THE EARLY WITH THE LATE! When I'm looking for 1991-92 stuff, I shouldn't have to see things from 1997-99! They are different looks. And none of the 1991 ones I found-no suprise- don't even mention The Commish, but The X Files is WELL represented (as it should be.) Same thing with the online radio stations. I've only found two different sites with single-year focused stations. I shouldn't be three songs deep into Caruso-ing only to have a song from 1998 ruin my mood. (1994 being the weird exception, though I have to consolt my record charts to see whether or not the song's from around when "Sleepless" aired or BEFORE "Dead Drunk" aired.) That's why I like that 90's television app/site, it has specific streams by year. I can stick to when The Commish actually aired.