I'll Keep Going

Krys 22

[krysbutnot]

[krysbutnot]

[krysbutnot]

Look at him. Look at him being amazing. He is so precious, my baby, light of my life. ❤🥰🌹😍 K.

[krysbutnot]

I’m 21

How do I explain what I’m going through? How can I trust people enough to open up to them when all that's ever resulted is more pain? How can I explain how little I think of myself? I’m 21. I have no job. I still rely on my mother to pay for things I need. I quit school because I was so fucked up I couldn’t drag myself out of bed. I’m trying to get my GED now but I learn so slowly that they can only teach me one subject at a time. I find my life so meaningless that I never took my health seriously to the point where I’ve destroyed my body and I have no drive to fix it. I can't sleep at night so I just watch videos of people living better lives than me or of people living worse lives than me, neither make me feel better. I have destroyed every relationship and friendship I’ve ever been in because of myself destructiveness. I’ve been with the same man for six years, I love him, I believe he loves me, we’ve been destroying each other for six years. I’m 21. I’ve done nothing but destroy people, destroy myself, and just watch as my life quickly becomes nothing more than this, right here, this is it. I’m sorry.