Dad..
A girls first love
Prince Charming
A shoulder to lean on
What if I told you ‘Dad’ wasn’t any of that..
My first love, my Prince Charming, and my shoulder to lean on;
Standing at a breath taking 6 foot 6 inches
Green eyes
Brown hair
Tattoos
And the most mesmerizing smile
Sounds pretty perfect, right?
It was the perfect relationship.. with the three of them..
Mom
Dad & heroin followed by
Violence
Knives
Guns
Fights
Blood
Screams
Tears
Sometimes cocaine would make a guest appearance
Maybe meth if cocaine and heroin were unavailable
Today .. I attract people like you
Tall
Handsome
Tattoos
A luring smile
And words sweeter than honey
I start fights when I think everything is going too perfect
Because perfect was never in my life description
Men that put me down seem normal
You did that to mom.. so why can’t they do it to me?
I’m protecting her, dad
There’s so many things I wish I could tell you
I need your advice
I have your hair, dad
My eyes change color like yours , especially when I wear green
I have the same freckle as you, right on my smile line
I also have your temper.. the same one that got you arrested multiple times
The same one that laid hands on my mom
The same one that put a knife to my throat
The same one that fought your family for your lover, heroin
Does she treat you better?
I wish to one day have love for a man, as strong as your love for heroin
Inseparable.
Mom and I are finally ok, dad.