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“wohin, wenn alles so laut ist wohin, Wenn es keinen Ort gibt an dem es still ist. wohin, wenn dich alles und jeder anschreit weil es in dir so laut ist. wohin, wenn alles kaputt gehst weil du nichts hörst. weil es in dir so laut ist und du es nicht schaffst etwas zu hören.”

— es ist so laut // verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)

stillesgeschrei

“Ich weiß das ich ein schwieriger Mensch bin, nur warum sagst du dann, das du immer für mich da bist, obwohl du es nicht bist?”

— verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)

schwierigephase

“I stress about stress before there’s even stress to stress about.”

— (via rxwa)

stillesgeschrei

“Shit, es fängt wieder an weh zutun, ich weiß nicht wie ich damit umgehen soll.”

— verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)

stillesgeschrei

“Ich hab’ gelernt vom Schlimmsten auszugehen.”

— American Horror Story (via habdichverloren)

timbllr

kuntergrauesxdunkelbunt

I had a lot of difficult nights since you did go. But this time it was different. This night was different. I slept for an hour & afterwards I woke up & cried. I had flashbacks. I walked trough your house in my thoughts & I remembered things I did never notice on purpose. I saw you in your room with a new girl & she was unbelievable beautiful. I felt so happy for you as I saw you smile at her with deep love in your eyes. I turned around & left.

I told you from the start that your happiness & health is more important than mine.

So I’ll not write you anymore. Even if I can’t say goodbye. It’ll need a few years. & I will never really forget about it.

But I promised you I want you to be happy. & I will hold these promises.

kuntergrauesxdunkelbunt

Your health & happiness over mine.

- I promised.

kuntergrauesxdunkelbunt

I‘m really trying to stay strong with all I got but I’ll be okay. Death or alive. I’m thinking way too much about you, but I guess that’s okay. Right now I’m just absolutely afraid, that I will never be able to love someone the way I loved you, because my fear became the holy truth in exactly the way I told you it’ll happen. Now I’m super scared again & I wanna love the way I loved you again but I don’t even love you anymore, it’s only the imagination of us a few months ago, not you now. Right now i can not handle you at all. I’ll never again. But I cannot say it enough. I hope you met a sweet girl that loves you & I hope you love her. Or I hope you’re happy anyway. I hope you stand up in the morning without thinking about me & I hope your excited what everyday will give you. Whatever happened with you I hope it’s all you wanted & I hope you are happy.

Things I’ll never send to you

kuntergrauesxdunkelbunt

You could kiss another girl & I couldn’t say anything about it.

But it kills my mind to imagine your soft lips on someone else’s than mine.

kuntergrauesxdunkelbunt

“ You know, your heartbreak will not go away in a week. Or a month. Or a year. It’ll probably never be forgotten. Because when you speak about him and I look into your eyes, I can see love so deeply and pure but you always look away. This kind of love is so rare, pure and beautiful that I hope you will love that way again.”

- My therapist.