Johanna 💜

she/her it/its// trans lesbian // 30s // polyam // communist // antizionist Jew

[familyenas737]

Oh my God... that moment still haunts me to this day. I was sitting beside my husband Ahmed in the hospital bed, holding his hand and praying to God to ease his pain, when suddenly he lost consciousness right before my eyes. I completely broke down, crying and begging God to save him.

I cry every day from the weight of this heartbreak. I stand beside my husband with nothing but prayer, watching his pain and feeling my heart shatter because I cannot do more to save him. I try to stay strong for my little girl, but there are moments when I weaken as I imagine her life without her father. All I want is a chance to save Ahmed, a chance for him to remain a father to our daughter and a husband to me, and for us to see a better day after all this pain.

The doctor told me that Ahmed’s condition is critical, that the cancer is spreading rapidly through his body, and that his only hope for treatment is to get him out of Gaza as soon as possible to receive urgent medical care. Since that moment, I have been living in constant fear, terrified that I may lose my husband at any moment.

Getting Ahmed out of Gaza for treatment is extremely costly, and we need to raise more than $25,000 to cover the urgent medical expenses and give him the chance he desperately needs. Every moment matters, and we are racing against time to save his life.

Our little daughter cries every day, calling for her father. She does not understand what cancer means, but she feels his pain and clings to him with all her strength. All she wants is for her father to stay by her side, and for this war and this illness not to take him away from her.

As for me, I am suffering from severe malnutrition because of the famine and the war. My body has become weak, but I keep holding myself together in front of my daughter so she does not feel the full extent of the pain we carry inside.

I say this from the depths of my heart: I will never forget everyone who read my words, saw my family’s suffering, and chose to turn away without even sharing our story. A simple share may help our voice reach someone who can save Ahmed’s life.

You are our only hope. Every donation, no matter how small, and every share could be the reason our story reaches someone able to help us.

Please, do not leave us alone. Ahmed’s life is in your hands. Help us reach our goal as quickly as possible and save Ahmed before it is too late. Give our little daughter the chance to keep her father by her side.

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[mousidy]

I'm so sorry to tell you this, but I just saw someone make a blog specifically for trans men to talk about trans women being abusive titled "transmascvoicesproject" and with you having just put a pause in your project, I don't think this is at all a coincidence. As in yes, it's transmisogynistic, but to make it even more gross, they're probably also specifically doing it because they saw your post about pausing submissions. The tag is #transmasc voices project, incase you're interested in blocking it or anything else

you know it's always been a fear of mine that someone would copy tvp and change up the wording to create a male version and frame it as an equal counterpart, subtracting from the purpose of tvp which is to center transfem survivors... but never in my worst nightmares did I imagine they would make their project specifically about abuse from transfems and nobody else. fucking horrific

[mousidy]

I was about to say I'm glad it's so transparently ghoulish and disingenuous that it will never get taken seriously, but well, let's fucking see lmao

[void-of-nothing]

this is actually disgusting. to blatantly steal an idea from a transfem without credit, the purpose of which was to help marginalized voices speak up against violence from all places, not just trans men

and to twist it into something that uplifts the already dominant voices of the trans sphere, that specifically only accepts submissions when the submitter is talking about violence from transfems.

this is so fucking transmisogynistic and it hides under the guise of uplifting survivors of sexual assault.

[salmaciansalix]

Never been clearer that people like this view TME/TMA as a binary of and between trans people, rather than the specific identification of who is and is not affected by one kind of bigotry.

You're not centering their healing, you fucking shitheel. The point of the TVP is that a small group with a minority of power is constantly sexually assaulted by everyone else on the planet, while this "project" is, for some reason, focusing on presenting trans feminine people as uniquely and especially dangerous and harmful to "TME's"; rhetoric that has existed and been used to socially murder us for decades at this point.

This isn't a revolutionary new campaign to shed light on an unacknowledged system of abuse and harm that's occurring under our noses, it's a blatant tool of transmisogynistic oppression.

Returning to my first point, flipping TME and TMA like this is self-evidently wrongheaded and ignorant to what they are. This assumption that TME refers specifically and exclusively to trans masculine people for some fucking reason is the most self-centered birthday boy bullshit, and it would be laughable if it wasn't being used to further buttress the idea that we're uniquely predatory and evil.

"Why is it that when trans mascs attempt to analyze the exact same dynamics regarding TMA assailants, it is suddenly framed as a distraction from our own healing?"

Because TME and TMA are not interchangeable in this way, and an "assailant" being TMA does not carry the same, or any, systemic weight, power of oppression, or abuse via privilege, that those who are exempt from transmisogyny do when they abuse, rape, assault, gaslight, and correctively rape a transmisogynized person.

The only thing about the replies on their posts that encourages me somewhat is that even trans masculine folk who think TME/TMA is "bullshit" think that this shit stinks/is bait. They know this is what actual divisiveness looks like, they know this is a disgusting way to talk about trans women, even if they don't think it's worth talking about our unique oppression.

[jinxieunlucky]

I feel like most TME people are sexually abused/assaulted by OTHER TME PEOPLE!!! To act like there is a "specific type of of coercion and harm" that transfems are inflicting on trans men and transmascs, in addition to "other TMEs" (is it the "transmasc voices project" or the "everybody, including cis people, come gang up on transfems project"?) is so GROSSSSSS!!!!!!! Like Salix said, flipping the dynamic around does nothing to equalize discussions of harm because TMA refers to one of the most marginalized and demonized groups in society and TME refers to LITERALLY EVERY OTHER HUMAN BEING ON THE FUCKING PLANET!

Also, it's genuinely so fucking vile to steal this idea--down to the very wording of the pinned post--from a trans woman and then insist that transfems are your oppressive abuser class.

[tamamita]

The most satanic hitlerite politician in the west will say the most insanely genocidal stuff, and the "leftist" party will offer their condolences to them when they die

[catgirl-kaiju]

i find it very very telling that people immediately started going kiwifarms on gooseworx right after the final episode of tadc dropped on yt and the reveal that fan favorite character Jax has been a closeted trans woman this whole time, radically recontextualizing everything about her and her actions. everyone in the fandom has been completely fine with other queer representation in the show, even Zooble who is also trans representation, but i guess a complicated and flawed transfem is just a bridge too far.

i don't care about old social media posts that have coincidentally and mysteriously "resurfaced" following the outrage of transmisogynist fans. you clearly missed the part of this where Jax is reflective of Goose's past behavior of using edgy and harmful humor to play the bad guy and push people away in order to cover up the fact that she is a trans woman. you missed the part where Gooseworx has explicitly grown past that kind of behavior and Jax is an exercise in extending empathy to a past version of herself who was trying everything in her power to be uworthy of love and care. you fundamentally do not understand the art you are a fan of.

Gooseworx's ban by @staff is transparently due to harassment by transmisogynists attempting to turn her into a "controversial figure" for "ruining" their favorite edgy jokey rabbit "man" by revealing she's been an edgy jokey rabbit woman this whole time. i will block anyone attempting to justify this ban. i do not want those who would enable such an obvious transmisogynistic witch hunt to interact with me or my content. fuck off.

[catgirl-kaiju]

it genuinely sickens and concerns me how emotionally immature some of y'all are, and that's coming from a 6-year-old.

first before i start ranting abt y'all's terrible Jax takes, I want to remind you that what is important here is a real life actual woman is getting harassed and banned over making a show you liked up until your mean and quippy tumblr sexyman turned out to be a troubled trans woman. Goose deserves so much better than this and y'all should know better by now than to do this to her.

i think the "...but oh, you secretly Felt Like A Woman the whole time they were doing it" ask is just... so revealing. Jax didn't "Feel Like A Woman", SHE (not "they", asshole) WAS a woman. it's so disturbing to me that this is how you talk about a transfem character because you don't like her and it tells me everything i need to know abt how you treat the tma people in your life. trans woman's womanhood is apparently, to you, contingent on whether or not she is a good person in your eyes.

it's also obvious to me that many of y'all genuinely think that someone has to meet your standards for what a "good person" looks like in order for them to be worthy of understanding and empathy. Jax is not someone i would identify as a "good person", and based on her posts i'd say Goose almost definitely agrees with me.

Jax is not someone i would want to be around in real life, and i know this because i've known many girls just like her irl and i don't talk to them anymore. i'm glad to be free of them, but i do also think of them sometimes and hope they've been able to make a better life for themselves out there. i even worry for them and hope they've all got access to housing and hrt and basic medical care, and food, and social support. i hope they're not dead and i hope they're not in prison. i hope they have friends they let in and who help them be better people. i hope they can learn to be happy and forgive themselves even if i'm not ready to forgive them.

i am not here to argue that Jax is a good person or deserves forgiveness and i really don't mind that some people hate her for her actions. but i will say i think it's important extend understanding and care sometimes to people who don't deserve it, especially when they've made themself into someone unforgivable because they can't imagine that they're someone worthy of love or kindness.

but also

HEY, THIS IS A CARTOON! THESE ARE FICTIONAL PEOPLE!

Jax abused Gangle... in the story. in reality neither Jax nor Gangle did anything to anyone because neither of them exist and you just watched something called a "fiction story". there is no point in trying to "cancel" a fictional person over fictional events. this is just silly. not very fun or play of you. like, are you ready to morally condemn the violent and abusive actions of Tom & Jerry? do you think people should be bombarded with harassment for liking or empathizing with Darth Vader? do you think JRR Tolkien should've been beaten to death with rocks because he wrote Gollum as tragic and sympathetic villain? fuck off

[frostops]

"im a man what about me" and "i date a man what about him" arent any less embarrassing when said by trans people.

[saveaboud]

LIFE IN GAZA IS SO HARD EVERYTHING HERE IS SO DIFFICULT ):

[saveaboud]

[saveaboud]

I dream of a cold glass of water. The heat is unbearable, and the tent feels like an oven.

[saveaboud]

My God, there is intense bombing very close to us right now. Please donate to help evacuate my family to a safe place.

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[aboud-lives]

Please share our story. Don’t leave us alone.

[saveaboud]

5 AM in Gaza. No sleep, no food, only hunger, fear, and endless waiting.

[hamza-2a]

These might be my last words, or the last time I write a post, so I won't forgive anyone who sees this and doesn't offer a single word of support, ignoring me.

[hamza-2a]

I write these words with immense pain, my eyes brimming with tears. I can't bear this situation anymore. I'm exhausted from hunger, severe anemia, and thalassemia. My family and I are suffering terribly from this disease and the exorbitant cost of the necessary medications.

[hamza-2a]

All I wish for is for the children to recover from their anemia and constant pain. Please help me buy the medication so the children can recover and return to their lives, and to save myself, my entire family, and my young niece who is suffering from malnutrition and anemia.

[hamza-2a]

Donate if you can. Your donation will enable me to buy the medication for the children and will save them, me, and my entire family. Our lives are threatened by hunger, disease, and anemia, and this donation will put an end to our constant pain.GOFUNDME

[hamza-2a]

My friends, please help us and donate. You don't know how we will survive if this support stops. My family is large, nineteen of us, and we all depend on this aid to survive. Please, don't hesitate to donate. Donate now. We need €600 to reach 3,000. Please donate.

[rosegardenofeden]

Deltarune fandom really showing its ass with its constant obsession with fan characters that don't even exist (gaster) and theorizing about their existence while not sparing a second thought to character(s) who are actually hidden, implied to exist, and have a tremendous impact on the story: whoever raised Susie.

[rosegardenofeden]

Like maybe I'm going crazy here but the constant conspicuous absence of any adults in Susie's life is, like, obviously pointed to. She iirc mentions moving a lot, living in different places when she was young. Doesn't call her parents when she's staying over. Food insecure from *waves hands* everything. Like whether she's in the foster system, fully homeless, or just has very neglectful family is up in the air, both stated and unstated. And yeah that doesn't have the same metanarrative speculation element as "guy who basically doesnt exist" but it's just one more little point of how the fandom doesn't really give a shit about the racialized girl main character in favor of men.

[rosegardenofeden]

Same thing with like, everything regarding the Knight! This mysterious figure of immense power and unknown origin, who at the same time is just. Like absolutely signaled to be Dess in some form or another. The visual design, the bat & ball motifs, the stange relationship to Kris. And people kept saying that it was definitely, for sure, one of the men. It's Asgore. It's Rudy. As if Toby is somehow interested in trying to trick people or juke them out when that isn't a thing that the story has like. Ever done?

People just seem to not get that Deltarune is, at its core, a story about four teenagers, none of whom are men, and their relationships to one another and their lives in a small, suffocating town. Because that story is actually, if you look closely, just very good and well-told.

[milquetoaast]

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[xenasaur]

have y'all ever checked the blogs of isff haters. idk what possessed me but i did so on a whim and wow it was just fucking depressing. I feel sad now. eugh. I wouldn't live like that, personally

[xenasaur]

like obviously I post about political stuff, I'm doing it right now, but I also like. post about things I enjoy? idk maybe I'm crazy but like, I feel like y'all know a good bit about my interests. I would go insane if I posted nothing but how much I hated one specific transandrophobia truther

[life-onthe-murderscene]

Well some of our blogs are specifically for this sort of related purpose (discussing transandrophobia). Sideblogs exist. Me personally I use other social medias more than tumblr so my hobbies and such are usually posted there

[xenasaur]

having a dedicated charnel house where you wallow in the putrified remains of the gamergate and early twerf movements is crazier to me than mixing in your bigotry with normal stuff honestly

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

I reblogged this earlier, but it just now occurred to me to check his blog. his pinned post was written by someone who has personally called me a child molester for talking about how "kill all pedophiles" rhetoric enables child sexual abuse.

[oediex]

If you had to navigate the internet in Arabic, could you?

I already do

Yes, easily

I could probably find my way around

It would not be easy, but maybe a little bit

I would have great difficulty

No, I would be entirely lost

Other

Remaining time: 3 days 12 hours

If you had to navigate the internet in a language you didn't understand and couldn't even read, how would you go about it?

My friend Wesal (@deemagaza) doesn't speak English. The only way she can find her way around the English internet is by using Google Translate or ask others like me for help. It is very difficult for her.

Yet she has no choice but to do so for her daughter Farah, almost sixteen now, who is autistic and has a kidney problem that - without treatment - makes her deficient in potassium, which, if it becomes too severe, can lead to cardiac arrest.

^ Farah spends most of her days like this now, feeling uncomfortable in her body, but not understanding why.

Farah's medication has become unavailable in Gaza, which has endangered her life and means she has to be treated in the hospital, which is costly and where they are running out of resources as well. Farah's case has now been referred to the WHO to be transferred abroad. If the opportunity for evacuation arises, we must make sure the funds are available!

Please help by donating to Farah's fundraiser and by sharing this post! Farah's fundraiser has been verified by gazavetters, #451!

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Urgent appeal: kidney failure and autism threaten Farah

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[deemagaza]

My daughter is only 16.She has lived her entire life with a disability and chronic kidney failure. Every day is a fight to survive.Please help us give her hope. Every donation—or even a share—can change her life💔🥹

Every mother in this world dreams of a future for her child, but I dream of providing even one pill for the next day of her life. Please take action and help us.💔💔

[fundraiser-reblogs]

€9567/15000 as of July 10/2026

[deemagaza]

🦋Thank you to every kind heart, every hand that reached out to help, and everyone who still believes that humanity is alive.🩷🫂

My family's wound is still bleeding, and my little daughter's illness is greater than words can describe. Please don't hold back your donations, your prayers, or sharing our appeal.Take a step for Farah, for the sake of everything you love. I am a mother who, instead of dreaming about my daughter's future, now dreams only of providing the medicine and every dose she needs to keep her alive.🥹🙏🏻🇵🇸

Please help her stay by my side for a longer life. 🙏🏻💔

[deemagaza]

Thank you to everyone standing in solidarity with the innocent children of Gaza and supporting our people in their time of hardship. Your solidarity means so much to us, and your voices raised for humanity will not be forgotten. It is truly heartening to feel this closeness, and your message reaches our hearts. We are deeply grateful to you. 🇵🇸❤️🇵🇸

[frazzledhare]

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Their campaign appears as #451 on this list created by @/gazavetters

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[deemagaza]

Please don't stop supporting us. Today, I can still ask for your help, but I don't know if I'll be able to tomorrow. Your donation is a glimmer of hope in the midst of our pain. For every tear and every cry, please help us. 🙏

[kirikomamura]

"deltarune subreddit has banned using she/her for ralsei" might be the funniest instance of Fucking Stupid Transmisogyny online in years

[ashenmind]

“tag what you see” is always a cover because actually implementing that would involve not using gendered terminology at all, but the sites never actually do that

[ashenmind]

what I can see is a penis and b-cups; you’re the one who decided to get transphobic about that

[firem4ge]

Another complete Ray Blanchard take, “these trans women are getting off on the fact people are being misogynistic towards them.”

[mohmdjp5]

I write to you with tears in my eyes. The genocide killed our provider, the one who gave us food and clean water. My older brother was our support; he provided food for us and my mother, who was suffering from cancer. My brother was killed by a treacherous bullet to the head; he died instantly. My mother's health deteriorated afterward until she died from the hunger and disease that ravaged her body. My brother, my father, and I were left alone, with nothing to satisfy our hunger or silence our gnawing stomachs

[mohmdjp5]

Our bodies have been weakened by lack of food and clean water, and diseases have taken hold. I am now suffering from chest pain; I have been struck by a wheezing that causes shortness of breath and has confined me to bed. I find it difficult to move. Meanwhile, my younger brother and my frail father, who is suffering from the pain of loss and hunger, remain

[mohmdjp5]

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Help support Mohmd Hlywat by donating or sharing with your friends.

My father suffered greatly after losing my brother, and shortly after, my mother. Now his other son is bedridden and unable to do anything, and his other son is a young child. Our lives have been turned upside down. We are being killed in a genocide. My father looks at me every day and cries because he can't provide us with food, and my health is deteriorating day by day from hunger. Please help us. Save this helpless little family who don't even have enough money for food. Please save me before I die. My father has lost enough. Please don't leave us alone. Help us in any way you can. We need $300. Please help us. Don't let us die. Please. 💔😭😭

[mohamadjp2005]

Please help us, don't leave us to die. My illness has worsened and the pain has increased. How difficult the nights are! Every night the pain intensifies because of the extreme hunger. Please help us, don't leave us to die. Perhaps with a little, you can save a poor family. We only need $250. Please, you are our only hope. 😭😭💔

[mohmdjp5]

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[mohmdjp5]

Please help us! The pain is unbearable. Oh God, I've never been so hungry before. It's excruciating. Please donate and save us from death. I can't take it anymore. Please don't leave us to die. Don't delay in helping us. Please, we only need $190. Please donate. 💔😭😭

[cutecipher]

it really is annoying as hell how someone will talk about how poor people can't avoid ethically dubious products because of how being poor works and then someone with a two story house in the suburbs will take that to mean they can order harry potter books through a drone delivery from amazon and if you criticize that you're a bigot

[soap-is-an-artist]

parallel to this

[gandalf-the-bean]

oh my god the person in that post is acting like it's random soldiers' faults that trump decided to bomb them abd declare war without congressional authorization

[perpetual-oratorio]

Awwwww poor little beans had no choice but to sign up to be imperialist murderers. If not for trump, signing on to go murder people for the sake of us imperialism would be a completely fine choice

[gandalf-the-bean]

you do know that a lot of people are forced to join the military due to poverty, right? many are not there by free choice but rather by necessity

[perpetual-oratorio]

Ohhhhhh so you're saying they *benefit* from all the murder they do. Well that's ok then. Murder for hire is definitely preferable over figuring out any other options that don't involve killing other poor people who were born in the wrong place in order to expand the US's power over the rest of the world

[mousidy]

I've found the whole "I'm ONLY attracted to AFABs and I will go to a random trans woman's inbox to tell her that" thing that happened a bit ago very very frustrating because just. Cis people refuse to care about the 2nd part of that sentence, they only care about the 1st. To them the question being discussed is whether it's valid and okay to only be attracted to people that were assigned female when that's not really relevant. The relevant thing is that you are sexually harassing someone by bombastically declaring that you are not attracted to them.

In the world we live in statements of nonattraction aren't neutral; they often utilize the unfortunate association nonattractiveness has with disgust and being of no value to compound with social stigma against minorities. In trans women's case, the public declaration that you don't want to fuck *specifically* them ties into and bolsters the stigma of trans women as disgusting freaks that nobody in their right mind could ever feel attraction to. And this compounding exists regardless of the question of if the person saying it is "allowed" to not be attracted to the group. A gay guy who loudly declares he does not want to have sex with, say, disabled women is still contributing to that group's stigmatization by doing so even if it is fine that he doesn't want to have sex with women, for instance.

And yet to the average cis person "pointing out the harassment in walking up to a trans women to tell her you aren't attracted to her" gets turned into "questioning the validity of someone's sexuality", gets turned into "demanding that someone have sex with you", completely flipping who's actually harassing who. It is absolutely ridiculous and I am very sorry it happened to you.

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