Bright new futures ahead go with it

change is sometimes good but I can't keep dwelling I need to do more

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Feeling content

After letting all the people go out of my life I never felt more happy seeing them happy. Hardly see My family, destroyed all my friendship, stop talking to people in unit, and now all I have left is my own. In my isolation I learn more about myself than I have been for a long time. I realized how much I hate being around people putting a face that I like them or I want to be around them. I realized that I hate being nice but I have to. I feel more content how this goes. I can't believe I didn't do this earlier I'm a loner and you know what I like that no stress of having to take care of people, no stress getting people back, no stress being with someone and saving a lot of money just investing in me. All I can say now is I don't need anything or anyone in my life. My best friend was right I'm doing fucking great without anyone distracting me.

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There goes again

Every time I'm getting better my life is going smooth everything going right I somehow just throw it away.. I make the stupidest mistakes costing me something hefty....

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Haha haven't had much fun but when I do I turn up 😊

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i want to get this tattoo symbols mean cross in my back that tells me gods watching my back left shoulder is my race and culture right shoulder is till death i am a solder my dog tags in my chest and what year i started and "though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me" Psalms 23:4 in my back as well

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Fresh Start

New job and its great even if i put on a fake smile just being around people and helping anyone just makes me...kinda happy at times. Its great, unfortunately this time no matter how much temptation there is, as god is my witness. I will not break my rules again

Rule 1: Never date some one you work with

Rule 2: try to keep yourself focus on the task ahead.

Rule 3: Your Goals are your priority none one stands between it.

Rule 4: Never show your feelings to anyone keep it at bay and protect it cause fuck everyone worry about you.

Rule: 5: when all said in done, task are completed, and goals are being met. Relax have fun enjoy yourself.

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fresh start my body and mind in now synced again 

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I really am fuck up

Why do I even bother to help when all I fucken do is fuck up. I mix my words and end up making people think I disrespected them or I was rude to them honestly I’m really wish I have gun and put bullet to my head ease people the trouble ever meeting me. All i do make them feel I’m in competent I am. Sick of this feeling of being a total failure and let down to the people that are here………

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