Carry me home, got my blue nail polish on. It's my favorite color and my favorite tone of song. I don't really wanna break up, we got it going on. It's what you gathered from our talk, but you were wrong. It's not easy for me to talk about. I have heavy heart-strings. I'm not simple, it's trigonometry. It's hard to express. I can't explain. Ever since my baby went away. It's been the blackest day, it's been the blackest day. All I hear is Billie Holiday. It's all that I play. It's all that I play. Because I'm going deeper and deeper (deeper). Harder and harder (harder). Getting darker and darker. Looking for love. In all the wrong places
( ft. @taesuks ) there were many things that made haneul happy. from those sudden reportages in random places of the huge city that was seoul to the tiny but rather pretty smiles with which her mother received her from time to time. she enjoyed all the things she had and did, but one of the most dazzling were the flowers, specifically the roses. on her way to work there was more than one flower shop, she usually wouldn't mind going to any of them, haneul was organized as she was spontaneous when she wanted. but that one flower shop called her attention in particular. it wasn't necessarily because of the flowers, nor the arrangements with which they were delivered. it was something else, someone, actually. he had the most perfect eyes, a warm bright smile, and his voiceâ wow she was just speechless. he was the only reason her visits became more constant and her house was filled with white roses, because yes, she always bought the same. â hey, i was wondering if you were already open â she said, poking her head through the door.
( ft. @acxisms ) haneul had always had a good relationship with the people around her, whether they only exchanged a few words or were the female's most valuable friends. she, herself accepted how awkward she could be to approach new people, and how tired her conversations started to be for the others when she turned a little joke into a lecture. no matter how weird she might look in the eyes of the rest, there was not a single person she knew that didn't like her, even the slightest bit. haneul liked thinking that she had left the best impression of herself on people. but sometimes, she just wasn't sure if she could trust everyone. insecurity was the worst feeling she had ever experienced, even more than sadness, it was horrible.
if there was someone she cared about no matter what, that would be ace. the dancer was an irreplaceable friend, sincere and she connected with them in instants. she was usually protective with them, she wanted them to always stay healthy and never go through the things she had to. haneul never really complained about her life, at least she didn't mean it, but she couldn't say it was easy.
â i canât believe Iâve been up all night worried sick! â as she said so her hands fell to her hips. they both had busy lifes but they always found enough time to see each other, and one thing haneul expected was punctuality. â you were supposed to be here hours ago and i started thinking something bad happened. â she looked back at the clock, maybe she exaggerated a little... no she never exaggerates. â you know, it's okay â just don't do it again please. â she said, defeated, she couldn't get mad at ace.Â
 â   * . â§ Ë Ë Â Â ââ  melodies danced,  b l e e d i n g  from earphones ( which were slotted in ears, verging the touch of ear drums ), as the tapping of steps, matching the tempo of the current song selection, carried his petite frame down city streets. laps of a warm breeze brushed at pale flesh, as onyx hues explored surroundings ( welcoming the view of strangers bodies, passing, the whirs of hues, through distracted frames, consumed by electronics or neighbouring expressions ââ muse sourced ), the lapse of attention drawing startlement, at the FROZEN frame adjacent his own â a recognizable stranger.  â y-you, â  a wavered breath emitted, paranoia alight, as a stumble backwards f o r c e d  distance ( just in case ), â are you â are you f-following me? â
â what? me? following you? â she snorted. was he accusing her of such nonsense? at her own work? the joyful features faded from her face. she was more surprised than anything else, she still couldn't believe what was happening. she crossed her arms and took a few steps toward him. the last thing she needed was to make a scene and let the rumors of the reporter creating drama in the middle of the main aisle being heard by her coworkers before the compliments the boss gave her a while ago. she couldn't imagine how embarrassing that would be. â i don't know who you are and i have no reason to follow you. â she lowered her voice. â  i have a feeling you're a pervert. â
i've been reALLY busy lately and there's a lot to do, i'll try to answer everything today and get the starters done as well! haneul still needs to meet more people so, if anyone wants to plot just like this post and i'll send you a message :)
⧠â Hyorin laughed. âMore like a fight there, lovey but not far off. I usually clean up but itâs dark enough.â True, she cleaned herself before leaving but if it was dark enough, sheâd wait until she got home.
â wow, i can see you're brave, i would have probably just run away. â she admmited, touching her bottom lip. imagining someone as pretty as her fighting was difficult for haneul. â but are you sure you don't need help? do you live far from here? i can walk you. â
( ft. @vnkiâ )Â haneul loved compliments. nobody can resist to smile when receiving them from one of your superiors, and unexpectedly, this was her lucky day. haneul was for sure the most hardworking employee of her area, she knew that, she wouldn't miss the opportunity to brag. she was in the first floor of the sbs building, her gait was quick she couldn't wait to tell her coworkers, but at that moment, it was harder to hide her happiness. her movements became playful, she spinned around while walking until her eyes met a familiar face. â you! â she stopped abruptly, pointing him. haneul already lost count of all the times she has met him. who was him? perhaps a stalker?
⧠â Hyorin was simply sitting in the park, looking at the moon as itâs light shined on her bloody hands and face. What a fight eh? She sighed as she leaned back against the bench. Noticing couples go by and cars but her eyes were trained on the moon. It was beautiful. âI wonder if the man in the moon hates meâŚâ her soft spoken voice said to no one in particular.
haneul had this one rule: don't approach anyone. following it wasn't that simple, she had to deal with people, news and gossip every single day without getting exposed. but sometimes, she couldn't help but feel lonely. walking alone in the park when she was supposed to be sleeping was something she wasn't used to, she had to broadcast an accident that occured nearby and somehow, she didn't want to go home. â oh my god â she said without even thinking. a female suddenly captured her attention-- was that... blood???  â were you involved in that accident? are you okay? â she was about to give a step closer but maybe it wasn't a good idea.
        â wanderlust can be bittersweet at times because of
          leaving behind the people who may have loved you more
         than you ever d a r e d to expect.
general info
full name: kwon haneul.
nickname(s): hani, heeyoung (name of the second personality), jinae (name of the third personality).
gender & pronouns: cisfemale & she/her.
sexual & romantic orientation: heterosexual.
age & dob: 22 & april 13th 1995.
birthplace/hometown: seoul, sk.
parents/siblings: kwon jimin (father) song myunghee (mother).
astrological sign: aries.
dominant hand: left.
handwriting style: clean and spaced (x)
language(s) known/spoken: korean, english and japanese.
current living arrangements: she lives in a comfortable three-floor house (x)
occupation/major: news reporter.
appearances
picture reference: (x)
blood type: O
nationality: korean
skin tone/color: pale
birthmarks & scars: none
height: 162cm
build: slim
hair color: black
hair length: long
eye color: black
eye shape: (x)
diet: she doesnât care much, she usually eat healthy and balanced.
exercise & level of fitness: she only does cardio 30 minutes a day.
howâs their posture ( or lack thereof )? good posture 24/7
typical style of dress: haneul (x) (x) (x) (x) heeyoung (x) (x) (x) (x) Â jinae (x) (x) (x) (x)
body modifications: only a piercing in her right ear !
body language and mannerisms
how does your muse walk? haneul walks lightly and feminine, heeyoung is a lotttt more confident while jinae is rather sluggish.
how does your muse talk? since haneul is the one that deliver the news on tv she usually talks clear and fast, itâs weird that she makes any mistakes when talking. jinae in the other hand, talks slow and canât keep conversations for too long.
what accent/dialect does your muse talk with? she doesnât have one, but likes to talk with a busan dialect once in awhile for fun.
how high (or low) is the tone of their voice? are they loud or quiet? for haneul and heeyoung is high, sometimes too much. heeyoung is the queen of the noice. for jinae is low.
what is their laugh like? more like a giggle.
how does your muse typically smell? lavender and roses !
what kind of air do they carry? are they intimidating? heeyoung is a bit intimidating and has this face that makes you think sheâs judging you (she is tho). haneul and jinae give you a⌠sweet and cute vibe instead.
psychology
what makes your muse happiest? haneul loves little details. she treasures every little thing that is made with love and sincerity.
what upsets them the most? she gets pretty annoyed when it comes to irresponsible people. she also hates injustice a lot.
does your muse have any quirks? touching and biting her lips. blinking more than usual when nervous.
what are their hobbies? how frequent do/can they do them? she loves singing but is too shy to sing in front of others. sheâs not exactly a bookworm but likes reading during her free time. is cleaning and organizing a hobby ???
do they have any guilty pleasures? she doesnât.
is your muse an extrovert? an introvert? neither? haneul and jinae are introverts. heeyoung is an extrovert.
do they have high or low self-esteem? what about confidence? haneul is regular. she praises herself a lot but when sheâs with people she sometimes gets nervous. heeyoung has the highest self-esteem while jinae the lowest.
are they easily stressed? how do they respond to stress? she does get stressed easily. she wants everything to be perfect and wonât let herself make mistakes. and well, the one that deals with all that is jinae. she gets depressed and will go out to drink and observe the sky from the highest building. plus she has insomnia.
what is your muses worst fear? her parents discovering she has dissociative identity disorder.
what is your muses biggest dream? being the best reporter in the country and making her parents proud.
is your muse an early riser? a night owl? early riser unless weâre talking about jinae.
how intelligent is your muse? do they acknowledge it? sheâs smart and ingenious but maybe she overestimates herself.
what is their sense of humour like? heeyoung is for real sarcastic. haneul dislikes making jokes, she only does it with close friends, but likes hearing them when sheâs not at work.
relationship tendencies
whatâs their sexual orientation? what about romantic? heterosexual !
are they currently in any sexual or romantic relationships? sheâs not and she will probably avoid being in one but who knows.
what is their experience with relationships? sheâs been struggling with her other personalities since she was a teenager so she has never been in a formal relationship. heeyoung has seduced guys but never found herself interested.
how does your muse view the idea of friends with benefits? have they ever had one, or would they ever? Â straight no from haneul.
sex, is it important to your muse? sex is the last thing she worries about, she doesnât needs it.
what are their biggest turn on and turn offs?
turn on: lip biting, praise and rolled sleeves.
turn off: forced and desperation.
does your muse find it easy to make friends? no way. she wants to be friends with everyone but she just avoids anything social.
how important is friendship to them? after family, thatâs the most important thing.
quantity or quality of friends? quality.
how important is family? is her priority.
are they close to their family? why or why not ? not that close, but only because her parents donât like spending too much time with her. she works hard to change that.
headcanons
lovesssss animals. has a two years old female corgi at home.
most of the news viewers think that haneul is just like her mother and she doesnât deserve being there, but somehow, sheâs gaining their trust.
roses are her all time favourite thing. she buys herself a bouquet once a month.
independent but clingy with the people she cares about.
HEY HEY HEY, iâm really excited to be here, i'm alice and this is kwon haneul ! you can find her stats here and the connections here. i'd love to plot with everyone if possible, so hmu anytime !!!
warning (1): haneul is a character with dissociative identity disorder (DID). i'm clearly not an expert at this but i'll be doing my best to portray the character in the most realistic and careful way. if anyone feels offended or uncomfortable by it, i'll be open to hear any opinions on how to make my muse better.
warning (2): mention of abuse.Â
*â§ď˝Ľ â woah, was that ⸤ kim jisoo ⸣ i just saw walking around seoul? oh, never mind, thatâs just ⸤ kwon ha neul ⸣. theyâre a ⸤ twenty-two ⸣ year old ⸤ reporter ⸣, known around the city for being the ⸤ hapless ⸣⌠i guess thatâs because of their ⸤ independent & organized ⸣ tendencies, though, be warned, they are also rumored to be ⸤ nasty & dishonest ⸣. this particular ⸤ native ⸣ identifies as a ⸤ heterosexual cisfemale ⸣, using the pronouns ⸤ she/her ⸣.
so letâs get started
haneul is the result of an affair between a reporter (song myunghee)Â and the chief operations officer (kwon jimin)Â under the same company.
jimin, besides having a position and a salary higher than hers, also had a family at home to take care of.
his wife eventually discovered it when myunghee became pregnant, and likewise, the rest of the company.
none of them were happy with the news, neither her own parents, so, to protect the company's reputation and trust both were fired.
jimin end up divorcing as well, and they went from living a luxurious and comfortable life to barely having enough money to survive.
all the blame was on haneul. they didn't like her even a bit, but at least they were good parents to her.
everything was "alright" until she became 7 years old, then her father couldn't resist it anymore and started acting violent and dirty. he was horrible with her mother, but he was even worst with her.
let's not get in details with that, but let's say she was mostly verbally abused. that kind of experience was a lot more painful for haneul than of what one might think.
when she was 9, she started losing a few of her memories and forgetting things more easily. she continued like that until the point where she dissociated herself from her traumatic past, that was too painful to assimilate with her conscious self.
haneul had absolutely no idea of what was happening or what was going to happen, so there was no way she could tell her parents about it, and even if she could, they didn't care enough to listen.
no matter what, they were haneul's role models. they seemed perfect to her, especially her mother, she desired being a reporter just like her.
she worked hard for it, she studied, she went to interviews a million times but she always failed. why? haneul was just too shy and too insecure. they were looking for someone confident who would act naturally infront of a camera.Â
but, this one day, she was magically accepted.
haneul, struggling to remember a lot of her past, instead, developed a new personality that was the complete opposite of her. she was someone that had everything that haneul was lacking, including those lost memories.Â
as soon as haneul experienced what having split identities was like, she rushed for professional help hoping that no one would ever find out. they decided to call personality number two heeyoung.
heeyoung, for some reason, did the audition one more time and hooked everyone with her charisma. she was addictive, a few said. but, was heeyoung trying to make haneul's dream come true, or she just wanted to demonstrate she was better than haneul could ever be?
so haneul got the job, but rather than excited she was concerned. what if someone realized what was going on?
she wanted to quit but she kept the job. she loved it no matter how stressful it was for her. but all that pressure created another personality, the depressive one, better known as jinae.
(note: haneul has no idea that heeyoung and jinae know something that she doesn't)
soooo, right now haneul is doing her best to keep her job and make her parents proud while keeping her disorder a secret. it would be a shame if the other personalities thought otherwise.Â
and well, haneul is really sweet but she's distant when it comes to strangers. she's also hardworking and responsible, always there to give a hand!
