Hi, this may not be the best thing to hear from someone you guys look up to, and understandably so, as I am usually someone that mostly brings optimistic energy, but this year may have actually broke me.
I mean we already know about earlier this year, me losing people, losing people I looked up to, and now my recent crises, and the current dystopian world we live in, put that all in this one cauldron and it's nothing pretty.
Another thing I hate admitting is I've been unusually struggling alot more with my mental health, and more recently physical health, and breaks don't do anything at all, especially with the way things seem like they're leading to.
It feels like luck's kinda ditching me right now, and I'm now straining to pull my weight compared to last year, which almost felt like I was finally making HUGE progress in a matter of days. I took 3 steps forward, and now I'm being set 9 steps back.
Because of this, I've regressed FAR more than I've progressed, and now it seems like the more I try, even if I've gotten extremely far, there's always a way to drag me nearly all the way back to where I started.
I hate saying things polar opposite of what I want to believe, but it's getting way harder for me to keep my promises. And I'm deeply terrified things won't work out for me.
But for you guys, I'm gonna try, the same way I'd want for you to do too.
I still think there's a chance.
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