I hate being myself @l00king-for-h0pe - Tumblr Blog

memento-meliora

they don't need me in the way that i need them, and i think that's the most painful thing i've ever experienced.

l00king-for-h0pe

Is it me? Am I the reason people always leave? Am I the reason all these things keep happening to me?

disaster-0l0gyx

Everybody always leaves eventually

thoughtkick

“My heart is so tired”

— Markus Zusak

neglectedmutt

why do i get punished for everything i do when i have the purest intentions but the people i love hurt me all the time and im the one always apologising

devoteddeer

That sickly feeling when you realize you don’t know how to love. You only know how to be devoted like a dog which has been abused all its life yet licks the hand which beats it.

thoughtcascades

today has too many buttons and none of them say skip

gl1tt3rgh0ul

ok guys so maybe he does love me and I'm just a mentally ill degenerate lolol

xceleration

it's so unfair.

when you have bpd, you can't be loved at your worst.

because your worst is hurting people. you have to overthink everything, constantly analyze yourself, filter every single one of your behaviors, bottle up all your emotions, just to be acceptable.

why. i don't understand. why did not being loved lead to me becoming unlovable.

cassketts

I hate that I’m like this. I hate that I care this much. I hate that a single thought can ruin my entire week. I hate that i react this way. Does this ever end?