Untold

What you don't know won't hurt you

[laclimerence]

rain

it felt like i was meant to fall for you just like how the rain was meant to fall at times. it happens inevitably and helplessly.

just like the rain giving excessive rain waters, i can give u so much love you don't even need.

[laclimerence]

9-12-21

daily write ups #1

Today, I decided to start writing about everything I feel. I have realized I was the problem. I have always depended on someone. Will I still heal? I hope so.

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dream

that's what we are supposed to be. that's what i am only supposed to you. and that's where i supposed to belong.

that dream reminded me of my place. that my dream of being with you will only be a dream.

the ocean symbolized the fact that i should've just washed away the feelings completely. i held back because i thought we could be something. the blockmates stands for us being friends and just friends until the day we die. and lastly, the stars that reminded me you're still and will always be out of my reach. 🙁

it hurts but it's the truth.

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no title

i ain't gonna beat around the bush but why do i feel like i am not going to recover from everything that had transpired? i did my best to become better but it hurts so much. it hurts still. 🙁

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subject

isn't it funny how I can't seem to write for the person I currently like; however, it seemed easy to write when you are the subject.

you'll always have this special place in my heart. you'll always be one of my favorite subjects. maybe, i miss you.

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me to you, you to me

you were a beautiful memory that I will always remember; someone that will hold a place in my heart even if I love someone more. i loved you genuinely.

idk why i feel this confused? did i just make myself believe it wasn't the same? or maybe, i was too overwhelmed and knew the feelings aren't the same anymore?

who are you really to me? and who am i to you, too?

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u >

u > self interest

i'd rather go back to my core and hide in the deepest chambers inside of me the story of where i wanted you and i to be.

u r just another dream i have to let go. and if the sky is the limit, you're still out of my reach.

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two

"... but you have to take chances. isn't it better than doing nothing?"

taking chances doesn't apply at all times. sometimes, we forego of the chances to keep something more worth even if it meant the word hurt.

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Sky

at least we'll look at the same sky everyday.

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new

i never thought i'd reach a point where i am starting to write for someone other than who i used to write for.

another beautiful subject, perhaps.

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bruised

the most painful battle is when your mind and your heart contradicts each other. the one wants to think what the other doesn't want to feel.

so you try to go through them just to end up bruising yourself

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only thing

if there's one thing i am certain, it's the way i am jealous about things

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odd

isn't it odd that we lose hopes with ourselves just because people made us feel this way? 🙁

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choice

when you're the only choice when anyone else is not available

kanang ikaw nalang kay wala sila

pero kung naa sila, never gyd ikaw ang choice.

🙁

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pained

it pains me knowing. i have to restrict myself from posting. it's tormenting yet, if I show, i'll keep you dragging.

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....

i never knew i'd reach a point where i have to beg someone to stay. am i really that hard to love that not anyone stays? 🙁 im sorry

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sorry

i couldn't find any other word better than those 5-letter word.