inscrutable

Leigh-Anne. Slightly disheveled.

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The lighting at the new salon is what sold me.

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Can you feel the vibes in my new room? Noname is playing on repeat tonight.

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I’m 25 what am I doing being sad over boys I have a fucking career I need to work on I’m a dumb bitch I need to put my energy elsewhere

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My fave spring flower

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I feel more like myself everyday

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lmao i just watched The Dirt and i had a flashback to like 2005 when i was watching MTV Cribs and it was Tommy Lee’s house and i fell in love

tattooed men breakin my lil heart since 2005

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they: wyd me: 

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omfg I AM DISTURBED AND DISGUSTED

i watched like 5 true crime documentaries today and THIS IS THE MOST DISTURBING

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I fucking love being mixed race.

I used to hate that I was half Korean. I wanted to be blonde and have blue eyes and then I wanted to be full Korean and have black hair and monolids. Idk dude I didn’t like not being enough of either side. I wasn’t white enough or Korean enough. Fuuuuck that I am half and it’s fuckin cool

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“I have been very lazy this last month and put everything off. The whole experience of being broken and mended has exhausted me both mentally and psychologically. I need empty days and barren landscapes.”

— Sylvia Plath, from a letter to Dorothy Benotti written c. March 1961 (via oiseauperdu)

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Me before zoloft.

I still crave the desert though.

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You know when you’re depressed and all you do is lay in bed while life piles up around you? And then one day you feel a little less depressed and you clean up and see the fucking shitshow that has formed in your room?

I wish I had a before pic of my room.

Y’all I never realize how depressed I’ve been until I’m feeling okay and I clean up the mess. Then I start thinking about the cloud I was living under for months. Wow. Sometimes I think oh I’m not depressed I’m just tired and lazy....nah bitch u depressed. I had boxes from Christmas in my room because all I did (still do tbh lol) was come home and rip my clothes off and lay in bed.........sometimes I wouldn’t even fill up my water bottle.....I’d lay in bed fucking hungry and thirsty...........even on the weekend I’d come home and lay in bed from Saturday night to Monday morning. Holy shit. I have depression.

It’s not like this is new to me but you forget. You know? You don’t realize until you have a break from it. It becomes normal.

I used to wake up and get ready for work feeling okay most of the time unless I was extremely depressed and then I’d get in the car and be like oh shit I’m exhausted already I want to go home and sleep. Then I’d get to work and be like wow wtf I am about to fall asleep. I didn’t want to talk to anyone even my favorite coworkers.

I’d have low key mental breakdowns in the bathroom at work at least once per week. I’d think about suicide at least 5 days per week. I felt foggy as shit like I was walking through a cloud. I would visualize myself hurting myself when I was sad/angry.

Wow. Fuck lol. At least I can get through the day now. I’m not like cured or whatever but I feel a lot better. I can sort of talk to people now and I don’t really feel like I’m living in a blanket of fog anymore.

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I saw my psychiatrist today and in the waiting room were 3 emo ass people (me included) wearing head to toe black that were sitting several chairs apart while avoiding eye contact with each other lol it’s just so funny to me idk

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lmaooo i thought Tasmania was a country not a state of Australia

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i am upset that dan and serena ended up together.

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If there is anything American TV has gotten right, it’s Trauma: Life in the ER. It is the best ER show that exists worldwide. I used to come home during 3rd grade and watch it lol. 

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My Uber driver has a trump sticker on their car and I am embarrassed to get out of the car.