Awakening

Lexus Hale. 20 successful trips around the sun... Tramp's Lady

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[lady-lex]

I will love you until the day I die. 

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Starving to Not Know the Truth II Esmeralda & Lexus

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"I really should." Esmeralda laughed before pulling at her blanket a bit. It was nice to see her friend after such a long week. She disappeared for an entire week, and then the following week Esmeralda basically disappeared off the planet to try to cope with her grief. She knew she should have sought out her friend, but she thought talking to her now ex-boyfriend would help with things. She knew now it didn’t. "Bring me to my friend?" She asked slightly confused. 

[lady-lex]

Lexus shook her head, smiling. "Nothing, doesn't matter." She chuckled slightly. "So...wanna tell me what the hell is going on with you? Seriously?" 

[lady-lex]

Office Hours || Lex + Kaiden

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"Yes, that’s what I have to say. And I have gone and ruined it all," Kaiden retorted after returning the hug, his smirk mirroring Lex’s despite the seriousness to his tone. In all honesty, though, he had missed Lexus whilst she went on her short holiday. Or, whatever it was.  

"You can come see my dog, a Husky,” he emphasized, knowing that Lexus was fond of them, “if.” Kaiden took one post-it down and threw it in the bin, before facing the Bostanian with narrowed eyes and a cocky curve of his mouth. “You take down at least half of the post-it notes when we come back.” Expecting her to follow, Kaiden shrugged on his jacket before leisurely strolling down the hallway. “If you don’t, no coffee for you on our next therapy session.” He was, literally, only taking Lexus to see her dog and have dinner for a while so he didn’t bother to sneak out the door; there was no harm. 

[lady-lex]

Lexus rolled her eyes, "I hate you." She teased. Her heart practically leaped out of her chest to protest the lie. 

"A husky?" Lexus asked, shocked. A widespread grin found her lips. Did he know she always wanted a husky? Honestly, Lexus hadn't paid attention to anything Kaiden said after that. She blindly agreed to whatever he wanted. Though, she did tune back in to hear "no coffee". 

"What?" She demanded, almost yelling. "No coffee? Why wouldn't there be coffee? Oh my god, I really DO hate you!" She lovingly poked his nose as she was lead out the door. 

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Sing Me To Sleep || Lexus and Leah

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God, she remembered how much she hated the infirmary when Cameron stuck her in it. It didn't matter. It was either the infirmary or the death of her best friend and she'd be damned if she was going to let that happen. 

"Come on." Her voice came out harsh, walking closer to Leah before hoisting her up by her waist. Lexus' voice suddenly became very desperate--almost quiet. "Please, sweetheart. Please just...let me do this for you." 

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Starving to Not Know the Truth II Esmeralda & Lexus

"Radioactive Iodine Therapy. I never wanted to go through this." After everything that had happened in the last two weeks, all Esmeralda wanted was to relax. Yet, now she sat there with a pamphlet in her lap with an IV in her wrist preparing for the future treatment.

[lady-lex]

She had screamed at every nurse that laid eyes on her. Ironically, it wasn't all that different that the first time her and Esmeralda had met. The only difference was, this time, she was screaming for someone else rather than herself. Upon finding Esmeralda, her eyes widened and it was onl then she realized her throat burned from yelling. 

"Seriously? All you do is complain despite how cute I am? That's so grade A Nicholas Sparks shit right there--screaming at nurses to bring you to your friend. God, you really should appreciate me more." Lexus teased. 

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California II Esmeralda & Lex

Esmeralda: Hey Lex, this is Esmeralda. I’m using Phillip’s phone. Esmeralda: I just wanted to text you to let you know that I’m okay. Things are okay where I’m at. Phillip is a real gentleman. How are things where you’re at?

[lady-lex]

Lexus: Hey bby, so glad to hear everything is going well. But...who the fuck is Phillip? Is he hot? NOT LIKE IT MATTERS, I'M JUST SAYIN'. Things are chill here, I guess. We're all kind of...boring. Cam and I have been sleeping a lot tbh. Guess Halloween festivities tuckered us out and now we need days to recuperate haha

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Sing Me To Sleep || Lexus and Leah

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[lady-lex]

Lexus found herself unable to sleep. She kept tossing and turning, even jabbing Cameron's chest with her finger when his snoring got too damn loud. This, not so surprisingly, earned her a disapproving growl; consequently, her arms were pinned to her sides. Leaning up to meet his face, Lexus gently rubbed noses with him. Quiet chuckling from both parties filled the stillness of the night.

A foreign noise caused her boyfriend to suddenly freeze, but Lexus already dismissed the noise she quite frankly hadn't heard. She pulled him back down onto the mattress and cuddled up against him. Soon enough, (thankfully more quiet) snoring filled the younger girl's room.

After still being unable to sleep but being desperate to get away from the snoring, Lexus wrestled out of her boyfriend's strong arms and moved out into the hallway. That was when (in all her infinite grace) the twenty year old nearly died as she almost lost her footing. Stupid paper. Wait--paper?

Lexus picked it up off the ground, eyes going wide as she had to read over the note twice, not fully comprehending it the first time. She broke out into a run to Leah's room, bursting open the door.

"SERIOUSLY! WE'RE GONNA DO THIS NOW?"

[lady-lex]

Office Hours || Lex + Kaiden

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Baffled, Kaiden’s wide eyes darted from sticky note to sticky note as soon as he stepped into his office. “Jesus fucking Christ,” he muttered. Upon his gaze landing on his chair’s occupant, Kaiden huffed and rolled his eyes. But there was no denying the amusement lifting one corner of his mouth.

"You know, I was going to show you my dog seeing as he’s here for a bit but..” Turning his back on Lex to grab the leather jacket, which he had left behind, Kaiden went on, “I can’t exactly do that when there’s sticky notes all over my office.” With his jacket slung over his shoulder, he folded his arms and pointed to the sticky note closest with his eyes in an expectant manner. Once a cocky asshole, always a cocky asshole —- even around friends. 

[lady-lex]

Lexus’ eyes playfully narrowed at her idol. “Really? That’s what you have to say? Really?”

Upon finally making her way over to Kaiden, Lex wrapped him in one of the bone-crushing hugs he was famous for. “Now, see, if you were funny—which you’re not but let’s pretend—you would have said ‘Honey, I’m home!’ which would allow me to, in this moment, say ‘Welcome home, dear.’ But you’ve gone and ruined it, haven’t you?” She teased, murmuring to him with a smirk on her face so evident that she could hear it in her voice. The Bostonian had honestly missed Kaiden. Not that she’d ever admit to that. She couldn’t feed his ego so much, she warned herself, his head might explode.

"Now, what’s this dog business?" Lex asked as she pulled away. Brown eyes wandered around the room, trying to see which sticky note Kaiden was pointing at. Ah, GET OVER IT!!! Yes, she supposed that wasn’t the best thing to leave hanging.

[lady-lex]

Day 126: 

Life sucks.

And then when we die.

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Don't Go II Open to Esmeralda's Friends

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Esmeralda’s now bony fingers held onto Lex as her sobs raked through her tiny frame. A few more pounds and Esmeralda could easily do just what she wanted to do in that moment- disappear. She didn’t want to bear this weight on her back anymore. She didn’t want to experience attachment, because she’d keep failing those people. Grey would have been so much better with Esmeralda out of the picture. She could have met someone that would have said or done something when they saw the signs. 

The young brunette had experienced the exact same pain before, but yet that seemed to do nothing to lessen the pain. In fact, it seemed that she was in more pain than the last time knowing that she had failed yet again. She hated herself even more than the first time. 

She laid her head on Lex’s shoulder and cried, “I should have been here with her. Not… not down there. I should… I should have done something. I… I could have done something, Lex. I should… I should… this is all my fault!” 

[lady-lex]

Lexus' body went stiff. This is all my fault! No. Esmeralda couldn't think that. Lexus wouldn't let her. 

"Stop it." She said through clenched teeth. "Stop it. Do you hear me?" The black haired woman held Esmeralda's chin in her hands as her eyes held both certainty and seriousness. "You did nothing wrong. You did not do this. Don't you speak that way. Don't you say such things." 

Then, with all her fragile strength, Lexus lifted Esmeralda up and held her as they walked to the library. She wasn't going to let her sit outside Grey's room, dying on the floor. There had been enough dying. This had to stop; this had to end. 

Lex lowered her friend onto the couch, covering her in a blanket before sitting by her legs, laying them in her lap before she opened the first book she could get her hands on. 

"Just...try to listen, ok?" She whispered, begging. Let me distract you. 

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Office Hours || Lex + Open

She had been waiting for him. Yeah, maybe that was a little creepy but hey--she missed him and he was her best friend. So, early in the morning, she left a snoring Cameron in her bed and hurried down the stairs to Kaiden's office. 

After picking the lock (which she would maintain that she totally didn't know to do...but she did), Lexus settled into Kaiden's chair behind his desk. She looked around for glasses to look more professional but found none. Damn him for not needing them. She couldn't play the part accurately. 

After entertaining herself for what felt like hours by leaving sticky notes with inappropriate jokes or sarcastic remarks around his room, Lexus finally heard the door open. She was just about to stick "Awh, you think you're going to go to college? That's cute." on the wall when she heard the voice, jumping away from the wall. 

"What? Huh? Me? No!" 

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Don't Go II Open to Esmeralda's Friends

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Esmeralda couldn’t believe she was gone. Not a few days before she was right beside her on the roof. They had talked about Jeeps and gas. They had talked about how different it was to live in a family riding the line of poverty and living in a family with so money. Grey had even…

offered to give up a possession. 

There was a sign right there. Esmeralda knew it. Violet had given Esmeralda that book that had all of the highlighting and the cracked spine. She had seen it before in someone who was supposed to be her best friend. Yet, she hadn’t noticed… it had just slipped through her fingers. 

Her thoughts were quickly distracted by what Esmeralda identified as ‘Lex’s smell’ though it was really Lex’s seasonal perfume. She knew her friend was close but then soft small hands covered hers before pulling Esmeralda close and running one of those hands though thick dark curls. The young brunette instinctively wrapped her arms around her best friend’s waist as she felt sobs rake through her. She knew she should pull herself together, but she felt like that was too much to ask of someone who had just lost someone so important to her. “I can’t believe she’s gone.” Esmeralda whimpered. 

[lady-lex]

It broke Lexus' heart to see Esmeralda this way. Sure, she could understand it, but that didn't mean this still didn't hurt. Lexus was no stranger to a loss of a friend, but the difference was that back in Boston...no one was her friend. Heroin had been more of a friend to her than anyone else. She had one love. 

Everyone--and everything--else was irrelevant. They filled up space, and when one overdosed...there was simply more space left to fill. 

"I know, sweetheart." Lexus still attempted to hush her. "I know. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." 

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A night to end all nights|| Lex & Cam

[jordyn--parker]

Cameron let a faint smile ghost over his features, Lexus’ words of comfort kept the cruel thoughts at bay and each kiss distinguished the fear. Although, he couldn’t help but disagree with her compliment about him being a great man. “If I was a great man, I’d have saved Tom.” He murmured, bringing his hand up to wrap around the womans waist, pulling her closer to himself. He wanted Lexus all to himself in this moment, nothing but the smell of her shampoo, the feel of her soft skin, and the warmth of her body on his. It was all comfort. It was where he felt at home.

[lady-lex]

Lexus sighed. Who was Tom? What happened to Tom? Was he dead? How could Cameron have saved him? 

"You are still a great man." She finally whispered, raking her her nails through his short black hair. How could he not be? How could Cameron not see it? He saved her. Time and time again, he saved her. "You can't save everyone. Some people can't save anyone. But you did." Lexus promised, heart swelling with both love and pride. As she was pulled in closer, she brought her fingertips to his jaw and tilted his face up to meet hers. 

"You saved me." 

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Don't Go II Open to Esmeralda's Friends

The instant Esmeralda heard the words over the announcement her stomach dropped. Suicide. She dropped the bowl in her hand and quickly started to run towards Grey’s room. “Grey! Grey no!” Esmeralda screamed. She didn’t care who heard her at that point. Tears streamed down her face as she ran. As she arrived at the girl’s door, she saw nurses standing around with sad looks on her face. “No, no, no.” Esmeralda whispered. “No! Where were you?!” Esmeralda screamed at them. “You’re supposed to stop this! First Vincent now her?! “ 

Esmeralda looked at the door and ran her hand down the wood before letting out a pathetic little whimper that almost sounded like Grey. She fell to her knees before letting her head fall into her hands. “No, please. Not again. I’m begging you god. Please not her. Please.” She cried as tears slid down her face and her entire form began to shake. 

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Lexus hadn't been close with Grey but immediately upon hearing the news, she wrestled out of Cameron's arms and rushed towards Esmeralda. Following the screaming, the twenty year old found herself breaking out into a full on jog as she raced to find her friend. She needed her. For once, Esmeralda needed her.

And she found her. Crumbling. It seemed like all at once, every strong pillar that held Esmeralda up seemed to be crashing down to the ground. In the ruins, Lexus found her friend. Kneeling down, the girl held her best friend's hands in hers before pulling her to her chest. One hand's fingers stroked lovingly through her hair as she shushed her, trying to soothe the woman who was breaking down. But Lexus knew, by no means was she finished.

"I'm so sorry..." She whispered in between the hushed mumblings and the pleas for her to quiet down. "I'm so sorry..."

[lady-lex]

Mystery || Lexus OPEN

"Oh, hello, darling." A smirk upturned her pink lips. "So where have you been all night?" 

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A night to end all nights|| Lex & Cam

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Still wrapped up in his thoughts, Cameron let himself be pulled onto Lex’s chest. He was safe with her, that had already been established and although his rational thoughts knew that, his body refused to accept the truth and laid rigidly still. I could’ve saved him. Why didn’t I try harder?! Guilt hit a swift punch to his gut, even after all these years he still blamed himself. “I’m alright..” he muttered, taking Lexus’ advice to breathe in several deep breaths. Cam was far from alright but part of him really didn’t want to worry Lex.

The twenty two year old just needed to clear his head, that was all! He needed to rinse his mind of the images of his nightmare that merged with the day he’d found Tom lifeless. Unfortunately, Cameron wasn’t willing to partake in electro-shock therapy, or any other crazy method that could wipe his memory. “It was just a bad dream.” It’s all just a bad dream.

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Lexus breathed out a laugh. Cameron was anything but alright. She gently continued to run her hand through his hair in an attempt to soothe him. The couple fell into a comfortable silence, though her heart was pounding. Bringing her lips close to his ear, she started to whisper to him. 

"I love you." 

"I'm so much happier with you than I've ever been with anyone else in my entire life." 

"You're a great man." 

Sweet nothings poured out of her mouth, lips brushing against the shell of his ear with every word she spoke. Lips slowly placed lingering kisses on the soft patch of skin below his ear at random intervals. 

"I'm here." 

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[lady-lex]

Happy Halloween! 

((this is not Lex's costume))