today's is the first time in a long while I've felt little again and it was kind of unintentional.
I've been really sleepy because my sleep hasn't been good for the last week. So I've wrapped myself in blankets all day and kept pajamas on.
I played the Bluey video game as a joke with my brother last night but ended up enjoying it and trying to find more stickers on my own today. I dressed Bluey up in a flower crown and wings and it felt so much like being young playing by the creek. Felt so safe and wonderful.
I'm also waiting for my sanrio tamagotchi smart to arrive in the mail and it feels like waiting for that one toy as a kid. The anticipation of playing with it. 💕 I'm really looking forward to it.
The sun has been out today as well and there's power washers outside. It feels like the safety I felt when my grandfather would be doing yardwork outside in the sun while I read inside or hung out in a corner of the yard with him. Again, safe and sunny and happy.
Right now my brother is playing Sonic on the TV while I get ready to dive back into reading Sailor Moon vol 1 while drinking, admittedly coffee with chocolate milk in it, in my Bratz mega mug.
Like I'm not SMALL small. But I feel nostalgic for a happier childhood. One that maybe didn't exist but somewhere in my soul it does. Doing the things I would've loved back then. Letting myself be a little sleepy and toasty and just let myself live and be today.
