Unending

Unending | a memoire by me, about me | work in progress like the girl writing it

[ladyimahsworld]

I changed the name, I changed the faces. But the truth? The truth kept it's scares...

UNENDING CHAPTER TWO!

Chapter 3 - next week Friday 8pm WAT

Sorry this chapter was posted late... My sincere apologies.

[ladyimahsworld]

Sometimes I wonder

what it feels like to be missed

like your name leaves fingerprints on someone’s thoughts

even when you’re not there.

What does it feel like

to be the pause in someone’s sentence

the reason they stare at their phone a second longer

as if you might appear inside the light.

What does it feel like

to be kept softly

not out of habit

but out of something tender and unexplainable

like a secret the heart refuses to delete.

To be loved in a way that doesn’t behave

that forgets how to be careful

and still chooses you anyway

even with all your broken edges and quiet storms.

To be turned into poetry

without asking for it

written in late-night thoughts

folded into silence

kept like a song that never gets skipped.

To be someone’s gravity

not loud

just unavoidable.

Sometimes I ask

not because I expect an answer

but because there’s a quiet echo inside me

a room that never learned how to stop waiting.

And it still wonders

softly, stubbornly

what it feels like

to be loved so fully

that even the idea of leaving

doesn’t know how to exist. 🖤

[ladyimahsworld]

don’t ask what i’m up to.

i’m lost in the same fog you’re in.

my heart’s throwing a tantrum,

pumping too loud, too much,

like it forgot how to be quiet.

and my head?

light. floating.

like my blood took a vacation

and forgot to send me the address.

— a girl, confused,

with too much pulse and not enough ground.

UNENDING - Friday 8pm WAT.

[ladyimahsworld]

don’t ask what i’m up to.

i’m lost in the same fog you’re in.

my heart’s throwing a tantrum,

pumping too loud, too much,

like it forgot how to be quiet.

and my head?

light. floating.

like my blood took a vacation

and forgot to send me the address.

— a girl, confused,

with too much pulse and not enough ground.

UNENDING - Friday 8pm WAT.

[ladyimahsworld]

Hunger doesn't scream. It whispers your name at 2AM when the fridge is empty.

UNENDING

[ladyimahsworld]

you say i have low self esteem

like you invented the word

cute.

your diagnosis is just your shadow

projecting you in a room

with no windows.

i don’t archive your opinions.

i don’t collect coins

from people who mistake

Google links for brains

and noise for authority.

take it back.

carry it.

alright.

UNENDING - Day5/5

Friday 8pm WAT

[ladyimahsworld]

quit staring at me like i’m the damage

say it. i’m gorgeous and you feel it in your teeth

relax. i don’t collect other women’s boys

he’s too small for the shadows i keep.

obviously 💅

[ladyimahsworld]

do you ever feel love?

no.

i only feel the rot

that love leaves behind.

the 3am kind

where your chest is a locked room

and he’s not even haunting it anymore.

i don’t know soft.

i know the kind that tastes like ash

and sounds like a door

you stopped waiting for.

love isn’t warm to me.

it’s just grief

that learned how to smile

before it kills you.

UNENDING - Day 4/5

Friday 8pm WAT

[ladyimahsworld]

B L O O D Y M A R Y

you asked if i existed

called me cold. called me dark.

oh shit. you forgot grave lol

you carved my name in black ice

but I'm rotted into your mirror veins

i wonder how hollow your life is

that my slow death became your worship

i am not your story

i am the mold growing on your soul

say my name three times

& watch your reflection bury you

UNENDING - Day 3/5

Friday 8pm WAT

[ladyimahsworld]

Newsflash: Guilt is louder than any shout!

I could ask

I should ask

But my throat closes around "mum the fees..."

Because what if I'm already too much?

what if love came with a receipt and mine is over due?

UNENDING - 3/5 days

Friday 8pm WAT

[ladyimahsworld]

You call it weird. I call it survival. My mind glitches when yours flatlines. Watch me bleed ink they can't comprehend.

Day 1/5 till the chapter 1 of UNENDING

Friday 8pm WAT

[ladyimahsworld]

They say every life has chapters. Mine had one long sentence with no full stop. Unending... Friday 8pm WAT

[theaftersundown]

the way ive been both of these in the last few weeks.

[dahlia-099]

I want my heart to be ripped out so that I can no longer feel this heaviness and sadness that has darkened my heart.

[ladyimahsworld]

It really sucks

[ladyimahsworld]

They say every life has chapters. Mine had one long sentence with no full stop. Unending... Friday 8pm WAT